Ram

"Honey.."

Nagpatuloy sa paglalakad si Charlie papasok ng apartment namin. Sa buong byahe ay hindi siya nagsalita ng kahit ano, apart from, Get in! and shut the f*ck up. Nawala bigla yung kalasingan ko dahil kinakabahan ako na baka pagdating sa apartment, magempake siya at iwan ako. Hindi ako sanay na tahimik si Charlie eh, I wanna know what's going on in her head.

"Charlie, honey, please talk to me." hinawakan ko siya sa braso but she shook it off. She got inside the apartment and shut the door at my face, muntik pang mapipi ang ilong ko.

Napabuntong hininga ako bago ko binuksan ang pinto at sumunod na rin sa loob, just in time to see her toss her purse in the dining table and marched inside our bedroom.

Sinundan ko parin siya sa loob ng kwarto. "Charlie, don't be like this. Yell at me. Be violent. Murahin mo 'ko, just.. Just freakin' say something-" hindi ko naituloy ang sasabihin ko nang bigla siyang maghubad sa harapan ko.

And just like that, my blood started boiling with so much desire. I gulped as her bra slidded off her arm, revealing her proud breasts and its pinkish tips. Nanginig yung kamay ko. I wanted to touch her but I don't think she wants me to do that. Hell! I don't even know what she wants me to do. She was just effin undressing herself there, poker faced.

I just stood there watching her as her hands found the button of her pants. She unbuttoned and unzipped it. She bent over and removed it together with her white underwear with pretty little hearts printed on it. Damn, eto yung paborito kong underwear niya.

Pinahiran ko ang pawis na naglandas sa noo ko. Mahabaging langit, nagwawala na alaga ko sa ginagawa ni Charlie. Will I be able to get some tonight? Sana naman..

I couldn't help the moan escaping my mouth as she walked towards the bed. My eyes zeroed in on her perfectly sculpted ass. Naimagine ko kung gaano kasarap pag bumabangga ang puson at balakang ko dun, as I take her from behind. Fuck me dead. Kinagat ko ang hintuturo ko para mapigilan kong mapaungol pa ulit.

Naupo sa kama si Charlie at sinimulang lagyan ng mga unan ang gitna ng kama. What the hell is she doing?

Nang maihilera niya iyon sa gitna, forming a barrier. She laid on her side of the bed and pulled the blanket up to her chin. Laglag ang panga ko. Anak ng tinapa! Anong ibig sabihin nito? I'm not getting any? Pagkatapos ng seduction number na yun? Diyos ko po.. Ikamamatay ko yata 'to!

Kumaripas ako sa kama at naupo sa gitna nun. "Honey naman!" daing ko.

"What do you want?"

"A-ano.."

Umirap siya sakin. "Matulog ka na, Ram. Kung ayaw mo dyan, pwede ka sa lapag. O sa labas."

God. She's cruel! No! She's heartless!

Tinitigan ko lang siya dun habang wala namang reaksyon ang mukha niya. Maya maya pumikit narin siya, totally ignoring me. Man! If this is her way to get back at me, damn, it's way too much! I'm gonna die here. She should've just cut off my balls or something! I couldn't think of anything more painful than this! Napasimangot ako saka ako padabog na nahiga ako sa side ko, pero nakaharap parin ako sa kanya.

"Nagdadabog ka, Ram?" tanong niya na nakapikit parin.

"Medyo lang." I begrudgingly answered.

Hindi sumagot agad si Charlie. Pero pagkalipas ng ilang segundo, "Does her breasts feel better against your chest?"

I groaned. Where is she getting with this? "No, honey, just-"

"Just what?" hindi ako agad nakasagot. With that, she continued, "Does her hips feel better against your erection?"

"Honey!" exasperated na sigaw ko. Naihilamos ko ang magkabila kong kamay sa mukha ko. "Honey, it's not what you think!"

"Wag mo 'kong sigawan!" galit na sabi niya, nakadilat na siya ulit ngayon pero hindi parin siya nakatingin sakin.

"Let me just explain!"

"There's nothing to explain, Ram." Mahinang usal niya.

My heart dropped. I don't like it when she talks to me with that tone. Naaalala ko yung gabing nag-usap kami sa opisina ni Scor. Hindi niya 'ko hinayaang magpaliwanag noon. She just shut me off and broke my heart merciless. Pero hindi ko na hahayaang maulit pa 'yon samin. "Will you please look at me?" mahinahon nang sambit ko.

No answer.

I sighed in defeat. "Charlie, I didn't kiss her.. She was kissing me.. Lasing siya. Please wag mo 'kong pag-isipan ng masama. I love you! Mahal na mahal kita and I would never - and I mean never - cheat on you.." kung alam lang sana ng babaeng 'to kung gaano ko siya kamahal, wala na siyang dahilan para pagdudahan ako. My world revolves around her. At walang ibang makakapantay sa pagmamahal ko sa kanya. "I'm sorry if you have to see that. But it's really not what you think, sana maniwala ka sakin.."

Hinintay kong sumagot siya pero hindi yun dumating. She must be really mad at me. Siguro naman bukas lalamig na ang ulo niya at makikinig na sakin. Sinilip ko siya mula sa side ko at nakita kong tulog na siya.

I reached over and caressed her face. Napabuntong hininga 'ko at tinanggal ang harang na nakapagitan samin. This is ridiculous! Hindi na niya kailangan pang lagyan ng harang sa kama, kung ayaw man niyang may mangyari samin, she could just tell me and I would respect that. Bumangon ako sandali para hubarin ang mga damit ko, I left my boxers on then I get back to the bed, I scooted over and hugged her. Kumislot siya pero para sumiksik sa dibdib ko, once she was comfortable, panatag na muli ang paghinga niya.

I really wanted to have my wicked way with her, matapos ng ginawa niyang pag strip tease kanina. Pero alam kong galit siya, and I wouldn't want her waking up to me molesting her. Baka palabasin pa 'ko ng kwarto. Kaya naman nakuntento na lang ako sa pagyakap sa kanya. Besides, inaantok narin ako, it's past midnight already.

Pabigat na ng pabigat ang talukap ng mata ko. I pressed my lips on her forehead and whispered "I love you" on her ear before falling fast asleep.

***

Isang napakagandang tanawin ang nabungaran ko kinabukasan. Charlie's face. Nakayakap parin siya sakin at ang isang binti ko ay nakadantay sa kanya. Mukhang masarap pa ang tulog niya kaya naman hindi ko na muna siya ginising.

Sinulyapan ko ang orasan, it wasn't even 6 in the morning yet.

Bumaling akong muli sa girlfriend ko. She was sleeping peacefully, her eyelashes fanning her creamy skin, bahagyang nakaawang ang labi niya. She looked really lovely, even without make up and with her hair delightfully messed up. Napangiti ako.

I would kill just to wake up each morning to this. At matapos ang nangyari kagabi, bigla kong napagisip isip na hindi nga pala permanente ang kung anong meron kami. What are we? Live in partners? I got no hold on her, unless, buntisin ko siya. Which sounds really appealing right now.

Naisip ko tuloy, what if one day marealize niya na hindi na niya 'ko gusto? Na hindi na niya ko mahal? What if mapagisip isip niyang hindi na niya kaya yung stress ng pagiging girlfriend ko? Maraming chismis. At higit sa lahat, maraming gustong sumira samin, katulad na lang kagabi. Paano kung hindi na niya kayanin yun? What if marealize niya, she could do better than me? Or what if, magtagumpay ang mga taong gustong paghiwalayin kami?

Kaya ko ba na mawala ang babaeng 'to sakin?

O kaya naman, paano kung ako yung mawala? Paano kung hindi na ko magising kinabukasan? Sapat na ba ang lahat ng nagawa ko para sa kanya, para malaman niyang mahal na mahal ko sya?

Baka naman kulang pa?

I was so wrapped up in my thoughts na hindi ko napansing gising na pala siya. She was staring at me with that loving expression on my face. I felt a tug in my heart. I ached so much to wrap my arms around her so tight and never let her go. Gusto ko akin lang siya. This wonderful, sexy as hell, and loving woman.

We stayed there tangled and staring at each other's eyes. Until I noticed her bare breasts pressed into my chest. I couldn't help but feel my body react. Alam kong naramdaman din niya yun dahil nanlaki ang mata niya.

"Sorry.." I muttered silently.

Bahagya siyang lumayo sakin and I winced. Damn! Napayuko ako at nakita ko kung gaano kabuhay ang ibabang bahagi ng katawan ko. I looked at Charlie pleadingly, umaaasa akong maaawa siya sakin kahit konti lang.

"Ba't ganyan ka makatingin?"

"Hon naman.." napangiwi ako.

"Diba galit ako sayo?" tinaasan niya 'ko ng kilay at bumangon na siya sa kama. Still butt naked. She went out the door and shut it close.

Oh God!

Napatingin ako sa kamay ko? Mariang Palad time? Putrages naman oh!!

**

Lumabas ako ng kwarto after 30 minutes. What can I do? It just doesn't do it for me! Idagdag mo pang biglang pumasok kanina sa kwarto si Charlize and caught me m-sturbating. And guess what? Imbis na tulungan niya ko, she smirked at me. Maldita! Uhg!

"Tapos ka na?" she was sitting on the the dining table having breakfast. May gana pa siyang taasan ako ng kilay. Eh kung paluin ko kaya siya sa pwet? Tutal binabalandra rin lang naman niya yun kanina pa?

Walang imik na naupo na lang ako sa tapat niya sa mesa at nagsimula nang kumain. Tahimik lang din siya at agad tumayo na nang matapos.

"Honey.."

Tumingin lang siya sakin.

"Yung kagabi.." ibinaba ko ang hawak kong tinidor. "I'm sorry."

"So, inaamin mong kahalikan mo nga yung assistant mo?" she said, flatly, it was as if she was feeling nothing.

"No." umiling ako. "Sorry kasi nasaktan nanaman kita kahit hindi ko naman talaga sinasadya."

Hindi siya nakakibo. Her hand remained suspended on mid air. Maya maya ay nagging malikot na ang mga mata niya. I've broken her barrier.

"Okay lang na magalit ka sakin, hon," ngumiti ako sa kanya. "Pero sana wag mong kalimutan na anumang pagkakamali na nagagawa ko sa relasyon natin, ikaw parin ang pinakaimportante sakin. At hindi ko gugustuhing saktan ka."

Hindi siya nakakibo at tumayo na ko mula sa upuan ko at tumuloy sa kwarto. Pero bago ako pumasok sa loob ay nilingon ko siya, "And to answer your question last night, I would much rather feel your fully clothed boobs than hers against my chest." I winked at her and got inside our room.

Hindi pa lumilipas ang isang segundo, naramdaman ko na ang pagyakap niya sa likuran ko. Agad akong pumihit paharap so I could hug her back. Ibinaon naman niya ang kanyang mukha sa dibdib ko.

"I'm sorry for acting like such a bitch." she mumbled against the fabric of my shirt. She embraced me tightly. "I am just so freakin jealous, I was actually seeing red last night. Nakita kong nakikipaghalikan ka sa iba, what do you expect? But still I should have listened to your explanation. I'm so sorry."

Natawa ko at ikinulong ang magkabilang pisngi nya sa mga palad ko. Then I pulled her face off my chest, so I could look her in the eyes. "Honey, hindi kami naghahalikan, okay? She kissed me, and she's drunk, I don't think she did that on purpose."

She scoffed and rolled her eyes.

"What?" I asked her.

"That girl.. May pagnanasa yun sayo eh." puno ng pagkadisgusto na sabi niya.

Natawa ako lalo. "No, honey, it's just the alcohol."

"Not it's not!" Bigla niya 'kong pinalo sa braso. I winced. Seriously, this woman hits like a man. "You're such a dummy, Sobrevega! I once saw her na parang ginagahasa ka niya sa isip niya habang nakatingin siya sayo! I know, I should be used to people perving on you by now, but.. it kills me." She admitted. Let me just tell you how she looked like while confessing that she's jealous. It was like she admitted to commiting a murder.

I smiled like an idiot coz that's how every guy should feel when their partners tell them they're jealous and hugged her once again. I kissed the top of her head before answering, "Honey, it doesn't matter how many girls lust after me. Ang importante, ako, ikaw lang ang pinagnanasahan ko, okay?"

"Talaga?"

"Talagang talaga!" I said, chuckling. "You starred all my wet dreams ever since you poured that cocktail on my crotch."

We both laughed at that.

"But you know what?" I said, leading her towards the bed.

"What?"

"Ang cute mo magselos."

Muli nya kong hinampas, this time, sa dibdib naman. "Aray ko naman! Nakakarami ka na ah?" reklamo ko.

Hindi niya yun pinansin bagkus ay nagpatuloy lang siya. "Sira ka talaga! It's not funny! I don't like feeling jealous, nagiging irrational ako eh."

"Irrational ba yun? Oops, I gotta say this, hon," I narrowed my eyes playfully at her. "I love that strip tease stunt you pulled on me last night." I wiggled my brows at her which made her laugh.

"Did that torture you?"

"Hell yes!" sabi ko at kiniliti siya. "Will you do that again if I get you jealous?"

"No!" she said struggling free from me as I tickled her. "Tama na Ram!" tawa siya ng tawa.

"Sabihin mo munang gagawin mo ulit yun!"

"Oo na! Oo na!" tumili siya nang muli ko siyang kilitin. "Oo na sabi eh!"

Natatawang tumigil na 'ko habang nanatili naman siyang nakahiga sa kama. "I should kiss some other girls more often then huh?"

"Just don't get diseases and pass it on me." she kicked me on the butt then scooted over to the head board and laughed like crazy.

Tiningnan ko lang siya habang nakangiti ako. Man, I'm head over heels inlove with this girl. Walang papalit sa pagiging siraulo ng babaeng 'to. At hindi ko na siya pakakawalan pa..

"Do wives get jealous a lot more than girlfriends?" I asked her.

She shrugged. "I don't know, why are you asking me?"

I just smiled and shook my head at the absurdity of my question. Tapos tumayo na 'ko mula sa kama. Wala sa loob na dinampot ko ang phone ko mula sa dresser at naglakad palabas ng kwarto.

"What's up with you? Where are you going?" she asked. Napabangon na rin siya.

"I gotta call my dad." sagot ko na lamang.