Howdy folks. I decided I wanted to talk about something I've had in the drafts for literal years. It has taken a lot to work on and sort through, as well as simply find motivation to complete this. There's so much wrong with not only the book but the author it's overwhelming.

I'd like to thank celesteknght for all of her help, she's done a ton of work helping me and if it weren't for her... yeah I would have never gotten this done lol. I may have written the rant itself but a large portion of the credit goes to her.

before I say anything about the book we'll be hopping into, let me say a few disclaimers.

1. I am NOT attacking this author, I'm simply critiquing their book, and discussing things I find problematic about things they have posted on Wattpad themselves. I have no ill intent on this author nor wish any ill intent. Sure, what I'm doing could be seen as disrespectful or hateful, but I do not hate this author. I just think some of the things they do are questionable and that they come off uneducated. And their questionable, uneducated actions affect others.

Is it wrong for me to discuss something I find questionable? I'm expressing my opinions in my own space, there is no rule in the Code Of Conduct/Guidelines that says you cannot express your opinion as long as it's not blatant hate speech which I'm not doing or condoning. You can review any book or talk about whatever you want on Wattpad whether the author likes it or not and as long as you're not being hateful.

Anything put on the internet is up for discussion and will create opinions. If you don't want people expressing those opinions, then either don't publish it on the internet for strangers to judge or accept the fact you're gonna hear things about your work/you that you don't particularly like. Besides, this book is posted on other sites that the author makes money from, if you're making money off of something, people definitely have a right to review it.

2. This book is supposedly based on true events as said in the screenshot of the author's note at the beginning of the book above. As you can see this book also deals with heavy topics which will get VERY graphic and we'll also be talking about the psychology of abuse and mental disorders so if you're not comfortable with that, feel free to skip to the last sections of this rant for the conclusions of everything or skip it completely.

Well, who am I to judge a story based on someone's life story? I'm a nobody. But, just because a book is based somewhat on real-life doesn't mean it gets a special pass from receiving criticism and that if anyone dares to criticize it then they're judging your life. Because it's still a fictional work, it's not an autobiography or a journal, it's a book with fictional characters, a fictional storyline, and fictional events mixed with some real events, but it's mostly fiction.

And again, as I said, anything posted on the internet for entertainment purposes, and that you are making money off of (especially a novel) is open for discussion rather you like that or not. If you can't take criticism from the public you opened yourself up to, that is nobody's problem but yours and that is the cold hard truth.

3. I will not be saying the author's name or title of the book but I'm sure a handful of you will know what book this is because it has over 10 million reads. I will be adding screenshots of some stuff from the book as well.

4. iF yOu dOn'T LiKe iT DoN't rEaD It!! hAteR!1!

If you don't have anything above the level of generalized statements that prove you did not consider a word here, to say to me, don't say it at all. If you don't like my rants and opinions, don't read them eh? It's that simple, right? I don't like this book but read it anyway because there's things in it I feel need to be discussed. Either step up to the table with a valid discussion point or hate me in silence. Or hate me loudly, I really don't care what you think of me.

5. If you know who this author is. Do not send her hate, do not comment on her books trying to stir drama, leave her be. Especially do not do anything on my behalf. And if you're a fan of this author, read through this entire thing before you run to her saying there's a hate campaign against her.

Now, get your waders back on because we're gonna get back in that warm, steamy cesspool once more. This is gonna be long (8.2k words long to be exact). So grab a snack, get something to drink, and get comfy. And please take breaks for your sanity.

This rant is probably a bit messy, but there are so many different things in this book, that it's very hard to try and cover/summarize it in a way that really shows just how problematic it is. So if you're unclear about something, leave a comment and I can try to explain better.

To summarize the plot: this book is about a girl who is a normal 18-year-old, gets invited to a frat party, gets ditched at the party, and ends up almost being raped by some guys after. But of course, as the very original never once done plot goes, she gets saved just in time by a sexy bad boy covered in tats who's also a gang leader. And after that, he feels the girl is forever in debt to him for saving her and owes herself to him.

The book starts off with the MC, a 4'11 Puerto Rican gal named Helena, she's got black hair and tan skin, just as the author delightfully described.

We stan a writer who types a character description so basic it's not even a description before the story even starts! Also, if Helena is described throughout the book why write this little note in the beginning? I'm going to go ahead and get this out of the way because it's the least important thing, but this author's writing is rather bad. About every type of error you can have is in this book. And it's supposedly edited too. This author is not some young teen or a non-english speaker, she was well into her adulthood when she wrote this.

Not everyone has good grammar skills and that's fine, but I don't find that to be an excuse not to learn things and try not to be so lazy with your writing your sentences barely make sense sometimes, all you have to do is read what you write or use absolutely any grammar checker.

Anyway, let's pause for a sec and go over some stuff about the author.

A few things to remember

The author says in another note like the one above that she was 15 when she dated two separate gang members who were abusive in all forms and stalked her. She also mentions how her mom seriously considered sending her to Puerto Rico to escape her abusers like Helena's mom does to her in the book. So this would have been about close to/over 15 years ago then because based on other personal information she has put out, she's in her late 30s/early 40s now.

Remember this as well ^

This author is also very openly Christian or claims to be. Her profile background is literally a quote about God meanwhile her profile picture is a collage of... shirtless Stephen James... Yeah, I think you can understand why that's hypocritical even if you aren't Christian.

(I actually got into an argument with her about this and used actual Bible quotes and evidence to show her why she was wrong, yet she refused to admit it, and she refused to admit to writing porn when all of her books are smutty and some contain explicit sex scenes.

She simply went the "Only God can judge me" route, which I also proved to be false by, again, using Bible scriptures that show that argument isn't exactly true. She also said, "well nobody is perfect and we all have past mistakes." That's true but that doesn't explain why she's been openly religious for years and has never ever taken down her smut books and deflected the argument about how I'm a hypocrite Christian for questioning her faith, (I'm not Christian anymore and I told her that but guess she was too busy yelling to read that) when I told her it was very easy to fix her mistakes by just... taking them down.

Months before this, I also asked very nicely on her message board "I'm sorry, but I don't really understand how you can be Christain yet write smut books?" She immediately deleted my comment. This to me says she's well aware of her actions, she knows she's in the wrong but doesn't care and wants to keep up the Christian act for some reason. And yes I say act because in the Bible you are not a Christian if you knowingly sin, which is what she is doing and continues to do.

And if anyone doesn't believe what I'm saying, I've got screenshots.)

Keep all this in mind as we go further along cause it's very important to remember for the end. Now back to the plot:

So, Helena is a cheerleader but she's the nice cheerleader, she's not like other girls. Her boyfriend is named Ethan and he's also the best quarterback on his football team, a wrestler, and does swimming but he's not an ass (Yet). He's nice and a good boyfriend because he always buys Helena lunch and calls her babe and kisses her.

Helena has a best friend named Tatiana. And like every Wattpad book ever, Tatiana begs the good girl Helena to attend this lit frat partay with her. Also like every Wattpad book ever, Tatiana ditches Helena at the party and guess what? The least cliche thing happens when Helena gets trapped in a room with two guys who try to rape her!

But before that can happen the hot, tattooed bad boy swoops in just in time to beat their asses because authors don't know how to introduce the "love interest" other than using sexual assault as a gateway!

We'll get to this bad boy in a minute but let's talk about the aftermath of the party.

Tatiana begs for Helena's forgiveness for being a shit friend. But Helena stays pressed at Tatiana for ditching her and being the bitch who almost got her raped even though Tatiana would have no idea Helena was going to be almost raped. Helena claims to be traumatized and rightfully so. I mean, the author wrote her PTSD so accurately because she writes from personal experience, right? I cannot stress how accurate it is for Helena to act the way she acts afterward.

As you can see from this collection of her interactions with her boyfriend after her super traumatic night almost getting raped, she's totally traumatized.

That's not all the times she contradicts herself, she contradicts herself throughout the whole story. In fact both MCs contradict themselves for no real reason and even the author seems to not realize how the characters contradict themselves more than once in a single chapter. But I'm not going to show every instance of this because we'd be here for hours.

Now, the bad boy

The bad boy played by no other than the poor, overly used Stephen James is Kane 'the ripper' Cruz of a really hardcore, badass biker gang known as the Skullz. No, he's not a pornstar despite the pornstar name and cringe gang name. Though you can bet a boy- I mean man like him fucks just like a pornstar, hence why he wants a virgin who knows nothing about sex to show off his "skills" to ;)

He may be a gang leader with the law wrapped around his finger, live in a gated mansion guarded by goons with AKs, and have more money than your broke ass at only 21 years old. But don't you dare for a moment think Kane-Fucking-Cruz, ruthless killer and leader of the Skullz, is above hanging out at high school frat parties and setting his eye on a 4'11, barely 18, damsel in distress.

So after saving her, Kane sees Helena again at a diner with her boyfriend and his friends. She ignores Kane at the other table with his posse staring at her and goes to the bathroom and he's there in the bathroom hall waiting when she's about to come out to basically tell her how she owes him herself. She attempts to refuse and say she doesn't owe him anything except a thanks, which he doesn't tolerate cause he's Kane effing Cruz, a badass gang leader who could get any female thrown his way but he prefers to force one to be with him instead!!

I apologize if the screenshots are crusty by the way, Wattpad lowers image quality and there's nothing I can do about it.

Then Kane goes on about asking about her rapists. This doesn't make sense, I reread the rape scene and it is never mentioned that they penetrated her, author adds they pulled down her jeans, but not how they went beyond that before Kane got there.

(Need I mention how contradictory this is considering Kane's entire personality is to force Helena to be his girlfriend and he later sexually assaults her himself? He nonstop makes sexual remarks towards her and the author even adds images of Kane (Stephen James) pinning down a girl on a bed to represent Kane forcefully pinning Helena down against her will and making more sexual remarks.)

(The author adds pictures to visualize abuse but we will go over that later on.)

The second screenshot is a scene where Kane finds her rapists and takes Helena to see them. He tries to give her the gun and make her kill them, but she refuses. Then he proceeds to kill them with her standing next to him and forces her to look at their dead bodies. She's upset afterward.

Anyhoo.

She stays upset for a very short period of time, she was never actually written like she was traumatized by it despite claiming to be on occasion and always hating Kane for it. Even witnessing a person die naturally or in an accident, let alone be murdered, is enough to scar 90% of the population for life. It's why military personnel and first responders have so many issues, it's human nature to be forever off-put by seeing another human die in such a way. But Helena the innocent cheerleader? Nah give her a day or two, she'll be over it.

Oh and a random note: Helena is 4'11", Kane is 6'1" which is mentioned more than once. Yet... they reach eye level and touch foreheads somehow throughout the book, because the author somehow forgot their height difference despite mentioning it more than onc- do you know how short 4'11" is and how tall 6'1" is? She could literally suck his dick standing on her feet, their foreheads are a greater distance than the moon and Earth.

Anyway, Helena takes forever to finally break up with Ethan right before the school's big football game she's cheering for and that Ethan is playing in. She doesn't do it until chapter 10, so the breakup threat goes on for 5 chapters. Mind you, when Kane told Helena to break up with him, Kane threatened to kill Ethan unless she did it. if his life is on the line why wait till the very last second to actually do it and waste so much time lollygagging around?

She does it at the very last second and even almost has sex with him inside the school right before, even though she was so traumatized from almost being raped. Or being fully raped even though it wasn't mentioned? I don't know anymore.

Fast forward some, Ethan ends up being a POS anyway because he was actually cheating on Helena throughout their relationship. This seems like an attempt the author makes to try and make readers hate the nice guy and like the bad boy given so many books do this for no other reason.

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That's all I'm going to summarize as now the story is set with Kane and Helena being together. At this point, the story becomes kind of a mess of just contradictions and inaccurate behavior. I want to go over why each main character is written in a very inaccurate manner.

Helena

As I mentioned above, Helena constantly goes back and forth between being Kane's abused forced girlfriend, seemingly forgetting he's abusive, liking him, and being jealous of other girls who try to hit on him.

I apologize if the collages look kind of sloppy, it was hard to fit every image in a way that'd be readable without having weird gaps. Plus I made these at like 7am after staying up all night working on this so I can't say I exactly want to sort all the screenshots again and redo them to look pretty.

Does she want Kane to love her? Or is he this terrible monster?

It's like, the author wants to write them in a relationship but remembers, "oh yeah, Helena's his abused, forced girlfriend. She needs to hate him."

Helena has no logical reason to enjoy any second spent with Kane even if he is being nice. She's his kidnapped forced girlfriend, claims he makes her feel ashamed, molested, raped, abused, etc. But she seems to forget all that the moment Kane takes her to see Batman Vs. Superman or does anything else she likes.

This could be seen as love bombing by the abuser to keep their victim. But given how their relationship started, this doesn't work in the same way. And again, Helena has no reason to like him.

Nor would it make sense for her to have Stockholm syndrome if any of you are thinking that. SS is a coping mechanism that develops over time. Helena is completely fine with Kane the second he's not being an ass or as I said, does anything she likes, it is not a gradual progression that happens over time due to trauma bonding.

(Wiki paragraph if you don't know what Trauma Bonding is: Trauma bonds are emotional bonds with an individual that arise from a recurring, cyclical pattern of abuse perpetrated by intermittent reinforcement through rewards and punishments. The process of forming trauma bonds is referred to as trauma bonding or traumatic bonding.)

Helena is in no way written with the mindset of an abuse victim or anyone in this type of situation. You'd think she'd be terrified 24/7 and constantly thinking of ways to get out. Yet, she gets jealous and is possessive for Kane, hangs out with him like he never abused her, sexually assaulted her, made her end her relationship by threatening to kill her boyfriend, and forced her to witness him killing her rapists. Helena should be so traumatized from everything, but she's not.

She never shows ANY signs of trauma or PTSD. She even goes to bed and sleeps the same night Kane made her watch him kill her rapists and by the next chapter, she's over it. In terms of psychology, you could argue Helena is in the denial stage of trauma processing since it just happened, but still, you wouldn't be over it so quickly and it would remain on your mind no matter how much you told yourself it didn't happen or wasn't that bad. She never even has nightmares or flashbacks about it which is something 13-year-olds writing edgy rape scenes get right about PTSD.

Our timeline is only 2 weeks. Yes, the entire novel takes place over the span of two weeks even though the book is 37 chapters. The author acknowledges the timeline in a note once, in regards to something that makes me want to unalive myself but you'll see that later.

But an entire 37 chapter book with tons of random scenes and filler scenes (she even talks about writing filler chapters herself and thinks its okay, so that's not an insult I'm calling them what she does) can take place over the span of only two weeks (14 fucking days)??

Helena should be affected by this and the supposedly traumatizing near-rape and every other traumatic event, for the duration of the entire book. Helena should be severely messed up and unable to function normally at all considering her life completely flipped upside down in all the worse ways in just a span of 2 weeks. It doesn't take a psych major to figure this out.

Remember, this author supposedly has trauma herself and writes this book from experience and wrote it to help her heal.

Not only that but like I mentioned earlier (I'll be repeating myself a lot to remind you of the contradictories, I'm sorry lol), Helena completely forgets about the time she was almost raped at the party by the middle of the book. Later on, throughout the story, Helena goes to a party, again, and goes off by herself, flirts with guys, dances and grinds up against one, etc. She also gets raped again sometime later after being at another party and grinding up another random dude.

As a character, Helena is just incredibly dumb, and she's not dumb because she's just that naive (well she is). She's dumb because the author is trying to create shallow drama for her book's plot, such as making Helena grind against other dudes in the club, make out with them, have sex... even though she knows she's still under Kane's control and knows how bad he is. She herself always acknowledges Kane's possessiveness.

It's constantly repeated throughout the book by Helena that she'll never submit to Kane or be broken by him. Again, she claims to feel very horrible because of Kane but still isn't the mindset of someone actively in an abuse situation. Let alone someone being controlled and threatened by a gang leader who's forcing them to be their girlfriend and who has severely hurt them. (Kane also threatens Helena's family too but that doesn't matter to her that much I guess.)

Instead of it being a "strong woman standing up to abuse" type of thing the author meant it to be, it's repetitive and illogical in this context. And this also contradicts every single time she's fine with being around Kane.

And if you're thinking the author does all this on purpose for some reason that'll be explained, she doesn't and we'll go over that later. For someone who lived through this horrific kind of abuse, I don't understand why or how the author wrote Helena like this. Helena to me in my opinion doesn't seem like that relatable of an abuse victim.

There's some scenes in the book where Helena slaps her ex-best friend, Tatiana (Tatiana and the rest of the school end up hating Helena and calling her a slut because rumors spread she left Ethan to bang a gang leader {Kane}), and also slaps/gets bitchy at "Barbie bitches" who bully her. She slaps Kane too. No, no I will not make a Will Smith joke.

I don't really know why she made Helena randomly violent. You can say it's Kane's behavior rubbing off on her since that can happen during abuse, but she's violent herself then will go on and on about how much of a violent asshole Kane is.

Sure she could have made Helena a hypocrite, it'd be an interesting character flaw and it'd be interesting to watch a victim realize they've picked up their abuser's traits. But the author never explains this, I think she thinks Helena always slapping someone or fighting is again, her being "strong and standing up to the abuse she faces". Or at least that's how it comes off in her notes about it.

Helena blatantly jokes with Kane about his abuse/rape of her.

Example:

No one in real life would be calmly and openly joking with their abuser about how they abuse them.

Imagine if someone was forcing you to date them, basically holding you hostage, forced you to witness a murder, sexually assaulted you repeatedly, made you break up with your partner under threat of murder, threatened to kill your family, etc.

Do you think, for any second you'd put that aside and want them, wanna go to the movies with them, joke around with them, get jealous and possessive for them, not be afraid of them, etc?

Helena's mom

Helena at first doesn't tell her parents about her situation with Kane. She tells her that she and Kane are dating but not the other stuff. But, later on, she decides to almost open up to her mom about Kane. The issue is, her mom asks her if Kane is the type to not take no for an answer. Then her mom goes on a ramble confessing how she and Helena's dad met when she was 16 and he started to become abusive (her dad was also in a gang). She left him after a while but got back together because he was a changed man and she forgave him and they had a happily ever after. She says all this to say she hopes Kane is treating Helena right basically.

That's cute and all but this is horrible advice to give to people who are extremely uneducated about abuse and who are young. Yes, some abusers do get better and redeem themselves but a lot don't, and it's better to be safe than sorry. Saying this type of bullshit is what makes people let their exes back into their life because they think "oh well what if they really have changed?" And that they'll get the fairytale romance they always wanted but then they end up right back in a bad situation or worse.

I feel as though putting that in this type of book and scenario implies to readers that maybe Kane can change and be forgiven (which will talk more about). This is another dangerous message to mix in with the number of confusing things this author says.

If your abuser comes back to you telling you they've changed, do not blindly believe them and jump back together. That may seem like a no-brainer to some of you here, but when you see the type of readers she has later on, you'll see why I stress this.

Kane

Kane, like every other male in her book, is written as a tool (we will be talking about men in her books later too).

Kane says extremely cringy stuff, and constantly screams "YOU'RE MINE!" to Helena every single chapter.

These screenshots pretty much sum up Kane's entire existence. The amount of times he repeats himself is so much that even readers comment how annoyed they are by it. (The second screenshot here is a scene where Helena wakes up to Kane who tied her up in her sleep and eats her out/orally assaults her to force her to orgasm as punishment)

But let's talk about the psychology of Kane.

Kane is extremely possessive, jealous, and demanding. The author doesn't make him this way to show that in reality, the root of his behavior is that he's emotionally unstable, insecure, doesn't know boundaries, or has no self-awareness, she does this to make him seem even more "evil" to readers. Someone asked the author if there was a reason Kane is the way he is, and she replied by saying: "He's just a sadistic bastard, we'll see if she can get through to him though." This implies that there's a possibility Helena will get through to Kane and redeem him.

While the author explains or tries to explain, other parts of the story, she never explains Kane's mindset so people understand what an abuser thinks. So, Kane comes off like a cringy spoiled brat. Apparently, Kane's backstory is that he grew up with an abusive father himself, he grew up watching his mother be abused as well. Therefore he shouldn't be self-aware of his abusive behavior, like how many abusers who grew up victims aren't. Because that's what he was raised with and what is normal to him, especially given the fact he was raised in a dark, gang/mafia lifestyle anyway.

Instead, Kane is very self-aware of his behavior. He knows what he's doing wrong, he refers to himself as cold and evil multiple times. While some abusers know their behavior is wrong or they know they hurt their victim, they may even sometimes feel a sense of remorse for their behavior (this is when they'll start love bombing to temporarily make up for their outbursts), but they fail to understand fully just how wrong or harmful it is.

Oftentimes, abusers are narcissists or have some other cluster B personality disorder, which makes it very difficult for them to understand others, see themselves without an inflated sense of self, and control/cope with their emotions/mood swings. (And no, not everyone with a cluster B disorder is an abuser.)

They deflect, and in their mind, things are justified. That's not really Kane. There are times he says things like "I hated having to punish her, but, she needed to learn not to blah blah blah", though this still isn't how abuse works. The author is portraying this like a BDSM relationship and his sub had just said something snarky and needed to be set straight for it. This is yet another reason readers are confused. They read this in other books and it's supposed to be hot, so they think this book is no different because it is written no different.

He doesn't have a personality or qualities aside from sexual jokes to Helena the rape victim and being angry/wanting to kill people. But he flip flops between wanting to baby her and wanting to hurt her. While abusers do switch like that, it doesn't seem like the author made him switch so much because he has mood swings, he just switches like Helena which isn't for any actual reason or intentional.

He doesn't really seem to have a reason for even wanting Helena aside from how she looks and other shallow things such as the fact she rejected his friend at the party and the fact she didn't throw himself at him as most sluts do. A direct quote when talking about why he wanted her: "she's an innocent and that's the way I like them... and I swore I was going to make her mine one way or another."

(Fun fact: the word "Slut" in the book from chapters 20 to 37, 14 times. The word "Whore" is in the book 11 times between those chapters too, it's in chapter 27 alone 5 times. Both characters call others whores and sluts every chapter basically. Or they call other girls "Barbie Bitches".)

So basically he wants her because she's not like other girls and he's horny...

The author sends mixed messages to the readers through this as well as in other ways. Again, the author writes this like Kane and Helena are in a D/S (Dom/Sub) relationship with spanking, forced orgasm/oral rape punishments, Kane constantly saying "good girl", making BDSM jokes/comparing him tying Helena up to 50 Shades, calling her "princess", the author adding a gif of handcuffs to the oral rape scene, and so on.

Which also again, isn't accurate. Even abusers who fully know what they're doing wouldn't be like this (but as I explained, the majority do not fully know their behavior is wrong). A large part of abuse is mind games, manipulating the victim into believing they deserved punishment, gaslighting the victim into thinking they're the crazy problematic one, that they'll never find better than this, that this is just how love is/is supposed to be, the list goes on. Kane doesn't do this.

That aside, the gang aspects are very poorly constructed. Kane is 21 years old, lives in a mansion with guards carrying AKs, is leader of a biker gang so big that he controls the law in the state, etc. Unless the author dated people in the mafias (if this were the case she probably would not be writing it on Wattpad, the free site for reading and writing but what do I know), she'd know this is extremely unrealistic no?

Kane is just now old enough to get his adult license, book a hotel, buy a beer, and become an uber driver. But he's the most powerful man in the entire state and leader of the Skullz?

If you're telling a story that's supposed to be based in truth, why add such unrealistic elements that drown out your message? There's so much cliche stuff added and it just ruins the message of a story about surviving horrible abuse. It's super sensationalized in my opinion.

There's another character called Donovan that is Kane's younger brother and he's ordered to basically watch Helena at school. (Kane and members of his gang all hang out in the high school parking lot sometimes, because that's totally what a group of adults in gangs do all day on their cool motorcycles I guess).

Donovan can be summed up as the good boy savior character who listens to Helena and is nice to her, they start developing feelings for each other. This is another cliche thing added to the book for sensationalization and drama with Donny wanting to save Helena from his big evil brother Kane.

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This is kind of the entire story as for the first and second book really. They just contradict themselves. Most of it is filler and if you cut out all the filler scenes, the books would be half their length. So there's a lot of smaller stuff and side characters that are also problematic but I didn't mention as they're not the main issue.

But let's get to the meat and potatoes, the author.

Section 1: sexism

The author is kind of sexist towards both genders somehow. In her author's notes when preaching about abuse she very much paints the image that only men are abusive predators and young ladies and women face struggles every day and go through so much because of men. And the times she does acknowledge women are abusive too, her phrasing seems like she undermines it and makes it seem like only on rare occasions women are abusers. In reality, women are just as abusive as men, it just goes under the radar a very large majority of the time.

She writes basically every male character as this weird pervert tool that has the most cringe dialogue. They do not talk like humans. Also, Kane's dialogue sounds like a little boy playing with superhero and villain action figures who is voicing the villain and you can't change my mind.

They always make sexual jokes that aren't even funny or clever, or they always rant about just how females nowadays are all just easy slutty whores. There's also a bit of rape culture too, like all the men think women are just to be used and abused and rape makes them "become real women".

It strongly comes off as her projecting her hate of men and that men in her book are written in a way that's supposed to make readers hate them.

Anytime someone comments expressing their distaste for men, she'd reply agreeing as well so the book has a good amount of man-hate comments and undertones.

She also thinks men only refer to girls as "females". Edit: she herself only says "young ladies and females" she never says women, always, always FEMALES. Whyyy?? Just say WOMEN.

Note that the author is married to a man and has three kids, two of whom are boys.

She talks a lot about women's empowerment. But, she also writes every single woman aside from Helena as a slut/bitch who just wants to have sex with Kane or just wants to antagonize Helena for no reason. Once more, cliche tropes added for dumb, generic story drama.

Now, I have a question: Helena is a self-insert, right? So does Helena hating other women mean that the author hates other women? And if every man wants to fuck Helena, does that mean the author thinks every man wants to fuck her? Genuinely asking by the way.

Section 2: Romanticizing despite claiming not to

Now, remember at the beginning of this, how in the author's note, she says this book doesn't romanticize abuse like other books on wattpad?

....Do these author's notes seem like somebody who's against romanticizing abuse?

When asked if they'll fall in love, the author doesn't say no because Kane is holding Helena hostage, is abusive, etc. She says they might not because they've only known each other for 2 weeks? Really woman? That's why?

She says things like this but at the same time, will write author's notes trying to explain to readers who don't understand why Kane's abusive (she doesn't do a good job cause like I broke down in Kane's section, he's poorly written and portrayed too), and tries to educate them about abuse.

Many commenters would be all for Kane and think he's hot, but, the author would reply to these people as if they're crazy for thinking that, example:

Both of the replies are from her (The reply from March 11th is to another commenter whose comment got removed). She replies in a pretty snarky manner for some reason as if this commenter is completely bonkers for not understanding abuse (due to reasons she's caused). There's loads of comments like this too.

Or people would ask on her message board who the love interest of her book is, and she'd reply saying there isn't really one. But if we go back to her author's notes, she sings a completely different tune. Can't imagine why readers would be treating this book like a romance. Crazy.

You cannot educate about abuse while also telling readers you don't know if they should end up together or telling readers to comment if they're on the abuser's team or the boyfriend's team.

Either you educate readers on what abuse is and show them the dangers, or you romanticize it to all hell. Make up your mind cause you cannot have both and then bitch at people for not understanding your blatant contradictory.

Adding pictures to abusive scenes

Throughout her book, the sequel to this book, and other books, she adds pictures during scenes of abuse and rape. Example:

She addressed putting pics of bruises and other BS in the book by pretty much saying "Well I put a warning, so it's not my fault." Then went on about how she writes from personal experience or whatever to manipulate people into not questioning her authority on these topics when told it was morally incorrect.

It does not matter if you put a little "*Warning graphic image*" text in bold at the beginning, and it doesn't matter if you write from personal experience or no experience at all, putting visuals to your abuse like this, is scummy. I'm not even a victim of physical abuse but casually reading a book and seeing those pictures thrown in is fucking disturbing and weird.

Oh and she also likes to add images off of Google and Facebook that are quotes about inner strength and things like that sometimes.

There are some pics she's added that have been deleted by Wattpad, according to one of the comments she once had a picture of spanked asscheeks up to visualize a scene where Kane spanks Helena as punishment, I don't know if that's true or not since it can't be confirmed but I'm just mentioning it. In one of her author's notes, she complains about Wattpad removing some photos.

(Fun fact: Up until a handful of months ago, she was Wattpad's engagement ambassador for Teenfiction and Romance for years.)

Also, the header photo FOR EVERY SINGLE CHAPTER is a picture of Stephen James. She adds random pictures and gifs of him with barely anything on (sometimes completely naked too with only his dick covered with something), throughout chapters and every single chapter also ends with a sexy Stephen picture/gif. But remember, readers are the crazy ones for thinking Kane is attractive.

Random fact: she also inserted a picture of her son who was 5 at the time in regards to talking about his birthday party in an author's note. I'm not a parent or anything but inserting a pic of your child into the same book you put lewd photos and write explicit dark things in, is wrong to me on many, many levels.

Section 3: her other books and pedophilia

These are from one of her other books, according to comments the MC was originally 14?? But I can't confirm that. Either way, I'm not even going to go into this because I think it speaks very clearly for itself that this author, this woman, is EXTREMELY out of touch with reality and what's normal.

She also has a female teacher x male student book, and she says when talking about it and I quote: "Why should men get to have all the fun?!" and contains stuff like this:

The student in this book is 18, but still. The only reason people think this is a funny or an okay scene is because the character is a woman. Just imagine a group of men saying this about high school girls... Example 99768321.5 of how out of touch with reality she is and how she thinks women can't be predators.

She also has a twincest book, both of the twins are falling in love with the same girl and I'm pretty sure they both have sex with her, separately but that doesn't make it much better really.

She has over 20+ books, all of which are romance and pretty much the same kind of stuff. I haven't looked through all of them but I'm sure there are issues with them too, seeing she has issues in all the books I have looked at.

The third book in Kane and Helena's series

This is the description for a 3rd, spin-off style book in the series. As you can see, its a "what if things worked out" story about a girl and her abuser, a story about a girl and her abuser that's supposed to be based on the author and her abusers. Like I mentioned the author has other books about abuse, she also writes other books with Stephen and literally says "now you can have Kane and his possessiveness in wolf form!" for her werewolf novel. It seems like she's obsessed with writing about abuse which there may be an explanation for that I'll discuss in the conclusion.

Not caring about real-life minors in active abuse situations

These are two separate comments where minors admit they are actively being preyed on by older men.

I do not know about you, but if people told me they were being groomed and sexually preyed on in my comments and they didn't understand the issue with it, I'd be all over them trying to explain why that isn't okay.

Yet all this woman can muster up is "Wow... I was 15/16 and had a 30-year-old" like she's impressed and comparing her experience to someone actively being hurt, and "Be careful"?

Actually, saying "be careful" implies that what situation this person is in is fine as long as they remain careful no? At least that's what I get.

Are you this strong, woman who's here to share her journey of healing and educating on abuse, or are you here to blow off kids being abused?

This genuinely angers me because she showed no fuck to give at all and is fine with kids admitting to her they're being harmed. Remember, this woman has three kids herself, two of whom are adults now. Seeing how she thinks a 4-year age gap in high school is the same as a 10-year age gap between a 16-year-old and 26-year-old for her book is okay, it makes me have some questions.

And yes I know these comments were years ago, but it really doesn't matter how old they are because she still didn't show any concern or tell them how they're being abused. Meanwhile, she wants to preach in her author notes about educating on abuse, gtfo.

Section 4: Her claims that this book is based on her real-life experience/my final thoughts and conclusions

I want to officially talk about this author claiming this story or part of this story happened to her. I'm sure with everything I have shown, some of you don't believe her and feel she's lying. I cannot say for certain that she's lying because I have no proof nor will I ever.

But what I can say is I personally don't know if I can believe her given her inaccuracy and the fact she's willing to lie about being a devoted Christan and being in sin.

Like I said in my disclaimer, she put this information online, therefore I have a right to form an opinion on it.

The way she writes about abuse is romanticized to the max and she seems to be almost obsessed with writing about abusive relationships. (In one of her older books that's also a Colin Kaepernick fanfiction, she writes about him raping the female MC and getting her pregnant. And she writes the word "rape" in all caps several times for no reason. When talking about it she always puts emphasis on rape and talks about how Colin raped the girl in detail. It comes off like she's again, obsessed with writing rape and abuse.)

She writes some parts of it in a pretty disturbing way.

(She has one of those interviews at the end of her book where all the characters and her, the author, are all together like it's a talk show answering reader questions and talking to each other as if they're real. Kane also talks about how he's abusive like it's quirky. If this is supposed to be based off of her trauma and life, it's very off-putting to write your abusers and yourself as characters you talk to and joke with to say the least.)

Or, maybe she isn't lying, again, I have no idea if she's lying or just very skewed mentally. But if she's being truthful, a possible explanation for why she'd write this in such a way:

A lot of abuse victims end up trying to relive/retell their trauma in certain ways, they may retell it over and over again, it's the brain attempting to solve the problem and prevent it from happening again. It's also a way people get used to their trauma. Most don't realize they're doing it until it's either brought up to them or sometime later on in their recovery. This would possibly explain why she has other stories about abuse that are basically the same things over and over again.

Or they may romanticize it or do other things as means to cope.

Like I said, some may not even realize they're seeking to relive/retell their trauma. I think this is the reason why I've seen people who claim to be abuse victims themselves back this author up or say how much they love this book. But still, it is so inaccurate I do not understand how they excuse or just don't see it.

If somebody wants to romanticize their trauma or write it out in a messed up way, I don't have an issue with that (although I cannot say it would be a healthy coping mechanism and it should be discussed with a therapist beforehand, though everyone is different).

But I do have an issue with turning that into a fictional story and publishing it to a world of people, mostly young people, who are clueless about abuse and will see only what's on the surface.

Her book is more impactful than other stories like this because she claims to write from real life, meaning readers look to her to see what real-life abuse and mental trauma are actually like. But, nothing at all in this book is even remotely accurate or portrayed well.

Can abuse be like this? Yes, abuse can be like this and this severe, I'm not saying this type of abuse is impossible because it's very possible. Though again, it's very poorly written between the characters' behavior and mental state, and she still heavily romanticizes it. She sends very mixed, dangerous messages and doesn't want to acknowledge it.

Not to mention, her other books, where she is justifying to her young audience why age gaps and frankly, sexual abuse of a minor/grooming are okay and how everyone else is the problem for having an issue with it. And her book undermining predatory women which reinforces the stigma that only men are predators.

She gets very very defensive about any type of criticism of her book if you couldn't tell. In many of her author's notes she rants angrily, saying if people don't like it, they shouldn't read it and how it's her story. She kind of manipulates people into not criticizing her by driving home how it's based on her life. Her readers also defend her and say stuff like "she writes from experience! She knows what she's talking about! How DARE you judge her life, you hater!"

So because she's not open to any criticism, her story will continue to be what it is and it will continue to negatively impact readers' understanding of a very complex topic such as abuse.

If she's writing from personal experience, writing a book based on that is really an amazing opportunity to combat the bullshit books on this platform and teach others and even help others. Hell, her book now could work out if she really fixed it up and rewrote it, I can think of so many ways her plot could work out if rewritten. But no, all of that opportunity and potential is wasted and drowned by lack of research, cliches, and romanticization.

And despite everything, I would like to say I don't believe she's a bad person but I don't know her and my only experience with her is pretty bad so I'm not going to say. Although What I do believe is, I really don't think her intentions are malice, could it partially be written for sympathy and attention despite her denying that? Of course, you cannot tell me you'd write something so deep about yourself for the internet and not hope to get or expect at least a little bit of sympathy and support.

I also believe she's VERY far from reality and has been boosted on this pedestal by her readers for so long, you can't tell her anything. As I've talked about before in this book, when you tell inexperienced, bad authors that their work is perfect for so long and tell them how emotionally attached to it you are, they do not know how to take real criticism and believe it is hate.

If you come across this book/author, once again, leave her alone. Do not comment on her works, message board, or DM her. I know you're probably angered at some of the stuff shown, but going at her WILL NOT help, benefit, or change anything.

I have talked long enough and I have been working on this for 9+ hours minus the time it took to edit.

This rant is 8.2K words long, if you're reading this, I only have four things to say:

1. I am so sorry.

2. I am proud of you.

3. Thank you.

4. I am going to shut up now.