THE TWELFTH LETTER

marns,

i think we need to talk in person about everything. about me, about you, about all the things in between that don't really make sense but are a part of us whether we like it or not. there are things that i've done to you that i regret through and through, and i'm sure there are countless things you regret in life too.

i broke up with my girlfriend. she seemed to understand. she left yesterday with all her things just like you did, only i didn't feel as bad with her as i did with you. if anything, it was a relief with her, which sounds awful now i've put it that way, but if you're being honest i am too.

it was a relief in the sense that for a while after reading your letters i came to the realisation that i was only with her to get over you, and that just wasn't happening. i thought i was happy. youtube is going great, i've got amazing friends and i had a pretty girlfriend, but you were the only thing missing and i thought that was a good thing.

but i was wrong.

i couldn't have been more wrong and now my pen hovers over the page because i don't know what to say to you other than that we need to meet in person and talk.

call me as soon as you've gotten this letter because i know you still have my number, even if i don't have yours. (I deleted it because I was mad, sorry.)

love, harry.