Chapter 23

The chapter without editing. Please pardon my mistakes. It will be edited soon.
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Arjun's point of view.
Saturday, 11:30 pm.

As we arrived at hotel Kavita angrily vanished to her room and either Bhoomi went behind her. But I could not resist myself from go along with them by watching her concerned, sad face.
At the time while I and Bhoomi reached at their room Kavita had already locked herself in her bedroom. And Bhoomi just forward to get in but before that I stop her by lightly putting my hand on her shoulder.
"Are you all right ?" Softly I asked by turned her to face me but she incline her eyelids.
It's seem to me like she was avoiding to looked at me. But I neglected my issues by watching her in such complicated situation.
"Y..es. But.. I'm really concern about di. She was looking so upset and.. either she is not in good condition." She spoke in very worried temerity voice.
"I know her mercy bothering you so much. But I think, she need some time to certified all things. You should give her some time in alone." I tried to help for overcome her anxiety.
"Yes she is. But she is not in condition to understand all things. She is totally broken. A..nd Mr. Arman.. He broke her heart, trust and feelings; into the multiple pieces. Whatever he had done that's not forgivable. I have to take care of di. She is so sensitive to tolerate this kind of manners." She obstinately said as she politely argued with me. But I stayed quite by watching her in such hyperactive restless situation.
"Perhaps she need them more then I." She murmured in low thoughtful voice as I saw her trying to hook off her Aai's pendent.
"No, don't took it off." Suddenly I interpreted and stopped her by holding her hands. And the next moment she surprisingly arose her head to looked at me.
During the time I was stayed silent. And for many seconds spread awkward silence over there; between tow of us.
"I..I don't understand what is happening to us. I can't stay quite by see her like this. I think I should talk with her." Eventually, after some moments Bhoomi hesitantly cut of the silence as she continuously avoiding to looked at me by incline her eyelids.
During that time I recognized her unknown nervousness in front of me. She was seem disturbed and uneasy since we came back from forest.
I know.. whatever I did, that should not going to be happened. But now, I couldn't change the past and that's why I want apologize to her.
"If you don't mind.. Let me talk with her. I think, I should try to explain her." Unfortunately that words escaped from me as I get trapped between the conflict of my inner throngs.
And then I took out the great idol of Lord Ganesha which was Bhoomi gave me so devotedly.
"A..re you sure about it ?" Suddenly I felt her soft gripe on my hand as I heard her tense voice. And I turned back to see her.
"At least I should try to do this." Persistently I said in light modulated tone to clam her worries down.
"Yes, You should and I will pray, 'that my Ganesha always be with you." She said in low hopeful tone and eventually I saw minor shade of smile on her beautiful lips.
"I wish he is but I know, 'whether I need someone to stand with me' you are always there for me." The words came out from me before I could recognize anything.
And then without staying for a moment I quickly walked in Kavita's bedroom.
When I entered in her room I saw her laid down in her bed. Her eyelids were closed but soon I realized the truth; she was awaked.
I know Kavita was so upset. That time she was in her worse mood and she's not going to convinced so easily; Especially by me. But I have to give her a chance.
During that moment I was fighting with so many questions about her in my stressed mind. But I have to talk with her on any cost. And I done it.
I know she was not in mood to talk with me. Even she did not looked at me at once. But either I spoke about all things whatever I seem to explain her. Then end of the explanation hopefully I placed the idol of Ganesha in front of her and took leave from there.

Sunday, At 12:00 am.

After this long annoying day finally I enable to laid on my bed. But yet I couldn't took cozy nap; although I was so tired.
My body need to take rest but my mind continued with his own disputes. I could not ignore my unknowing feelings for Bhoomi.
Just thought of losing her ignited a strong envy in my heart. Whether she was going to slip in conclusion I felt my life get step back from me once again.
I'm not sure but there is really strong emotion about her, which were always compelled me to being real me in front of her. Something I could not explain but its very straight to my heart.
But the very next moment dragging the uncontrolled emotions apart; I became aware of my mistake.
What happened if Something I felt about her but it's not mean, 'that I have all right on her, I should not told her that things and I should not touch her by flow of my impulsiveness.' I don't know what happened to me.
Bhoomi was so worried about Kavita and I could totally understanding her situation.
Wisely I know, 'when your lovingly someone left you in path of life then how you go through in that condition.' And I was sure, today no one could totally understand her condition accepted me.
Today ware our last day in this beautiful place and tomorrow we have leave from here. It means after that I could not watch her evey day; Neither I could talk with her.
I was so restless by thoughts of her. I want apologize to her for my deeds. And I want to talk with her.
And eventually during the churn of my fogy thoughts my eyelids gone heavy and I sunk in pucker sleep.

Sunday, At 6: 00 am.

When my eyelids got opened, night already turned into the morning. And then while I came to recognized about the last day, I became so impatient and the next moment I hurriedly vanished from the room.
After some time I found myself walking on salty sandy strand. Yet my mind was struggling with uncertain thoughts. There's cool moist air filling new freshness in my body. And I tried to fade away my all miseries and worries.
I was so worried since last day. Whatever was happened it's not good at all and I'm scared about the incident which could probably change our entire life.
I was felt so restless and I was really concerned about Bhoomi. One part of my heart want apologize to her before we left this place. And another want to stay away from her.
"Bhoomi.." I couldn't resist myself from evoked her name as I suddenly saw her walking on strand.
"Mr. Ar..jun..! Wh..at are you doing here in early morning ?" Nervously she asked as I went to her. She barely looked at me and continued forward her steps.
"I'm doing the same thing whatever you do." Unconsciously I murmured between my depressed mind.
"What.!" Nervously that words escaped from Bhoomi's mouth.
"I mean to say, I just came here for morning walk." Hesitantly I hide my truth as I pretend to correct myself.
But she continue her steps forward to the salty waves. And I repeated her action to follow her.
"Actually, I was really concerned about all things and I..I think I need to apologize to you. I'm.." Daringly I attempt to explain about my unknown feelings.
"It's Okay, Mr. Arjun. You don't need to do.." Before I could complete my thing Bhoomi interrupted to stop me. As she had already read my mind what I'm going to tell her.
And suddenly I became so impatient and restless by her interruption. I tried to apologize her but she did not ready to heard my things. She was avoiding to looked at me nor she stop her forwarding steps to the endless sea.
By watching her strange behavior to me I became more restless and anger ignited in my heart. And then.. unconsciously I took her hand in mine for decrees her speed.
"Enough, Bhoomi.! Stop doing this to me." Her strange behavior bothering me to the hell and I shouted in yearning heavy voice.
"Bu..t Mr. Arj..un.. what.."
"And stop calling me that." She stuttered in low voice as she was terrified by my rude behavior. But before that I furiously warn her as I swiftly turned her to look at me.
"I know, why you're ignoring me, Bhoomi. But.. you know one thing, Either I tried to keep away myself from you but I failed. I came here to apologize because I seemed that whatever was happened that was my mistake." I said in low strong voice by looking into her eyes as I angrily tightened my gripe to pulled her more closer to me.
"But.. Now I don't think, I need to apologize because whatever I said that was the truth. Probably.. Probably you have many friends for make you smile but for me it's only you who really bring me to the smile. And now if you leave me alone I might be lost my hope for rest of my life." Unconsciously all my feelings came flow out from my heart. And I saw nervous hard look in Bhoomi's eyes as she heard my inconsiderate words.
"That would be not happen to you again. I never let it happen to you.. You are so adorable and an honourable person. You deserve most wonderful thing in your life even a partner; like.. Kavita di. I'm just a simple girl, who wanted to made some affords to smile that great person who consider as great Author. I..I don't worth you." She merely mumbled to me as still she avoiding to looked at me.
I felt my heart burning by her rigid words. And because of her strange behavior I lost my control.
"No, You can not take the decision for me. That should be not your concern who I deserve to be. I have my own feelings. I have my own mind and.. I have.. my own heart." I interrupted in my pain and fury.
I just wanted to convenience her that she is not so small as she think of herself. But she was not ready to understand my feelings for her. In fact either I couldn't recognize the reason behind my desperate, rude behavior to her.
I don't want to hurt her even I couldn't think to do that with her. But whether she started to treated me like a stranger since I became so impatient and uneasy.
"And my heart choose you, Bhoomi." I continued with my talks as I gently place my hand on her face. And then suddenly I felt my heart little bit of liter then before.
By the time she rise her eyelids to looked into my eyes. At that time I could saw fear and perplexity in her beautiful eyes.
"Pl..ease forgive me about my effrontery but.. I need some t..ime." Merely the words escaped from her shivering lips as she was dazedly looking at me.
And then suddenly I don't know what happened to me. But when I saw hidden tear in her eyes my hold became loosed on her and I let her go away from me..
She hesitantly took some steps back and then she ran away from me. And I was just sawing her go far from me.

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