The 🚫 is just the warning cuz this chapter (and any chapter that has 🚫) mentions the awful things that happen in my star.

Logan's POV
I hug Patton, careful to not touch his stomach. I may not express emotion, but I'm not completely devoid of feeling, because I feel so many things right now. Fear, worry, figurative heartbreak because the one person I have ever loved hurt himself. I don't try and stop the tears from falling.

I pick him up bridal style, he doesn't register the movement, he was crying to much, mumbling "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry" i take him back to room 394 (do you get the reference?) roman and Virgil are still cuddling, but Virgil is now asleep. Roman looks up lazily, "hey Logan, Patton." He does a double take to Patton and opens his mouth to say something, I shake my head vigorously, he shut his mouth and put his head back on Virgil's.

I start to run my hand through Patton's silky soft hair, his hair was a beautiful sandy colour, his adorable freckles shaking with him. I kiss his forehead gently, sadly he doesn't stop crying, though not as bad as before.

After awhile Patton calms down and falls asleep in my arms, I smile to myself, he looked adorable, I kiss his now red nose.

Roman looks up "Logan... is Patton... ok?" He asks tentatively, most likely thinking the police hurt him. Patton would most likely want to keep this a secret, and it's not my place to say if he's alright, because in all honesty, I don't know if he's alright.

I take a deep breath, doing my best to conceal the breath, so it wouldn't seem like I'm hiding something, "he's just a little... Shooken up." He nods, unconvinced. "I am going to check on Thomas." I state, standing up, still holding a sleeping Patton. Roman just nods sadly. I feel a pang if emotion, which I believe is called guilt, though I don't know why, I suppose I feel guilty because I'm aware he is sad and I left? I stop at the door and turn around, "I'll be right back" and leave to the room on the left.

Thomas is sitting up in bed , looking frantically around his room, stating random colours, shapes, and smells. I immediately go to set Patton down on the spare bed and go to comfort Thomas, he does what he is currently doing when he is trying not to panic or have a panic attack. ( I actually do that. Stating colours and shapes helps me to not freak out) I rub circles on Thomas's back, I hope they were calming him down.

Soon Thomas calms down and stops stating things. he was still slightly shaking, but he wasn't breathing irregularly. "Why were you freaking out Thomas?" I ask calmly, Thomas sucks in a shaky breath, " I... well.... I was just thinking about... that night and then it was like... I was back their again..." he whispers. I just nod my head and awkwardly wrap my arms around him.

We stay like that for awhile.

Virgil's POV

I couldn't speak

I couldn't move

I couldn't see

All I could do was feel pain.

I try and scream, but tape muffled it. I try and thrash around, trying to get away, but I couldn't. I was in to much pain.

Pain.

I scream as I see his face. I frantically try and move away, but I was pinned under him. I thrash around more, my heart rate and breathing both speeding up rapidly.

" Virgil!" I scream as he says my name.

"VIRGIL!" I start crying harder.

"VIRGIL!!"

I wake up and see his face I frantically crawl away, I fall off of something, I curl up into a ball, digging my palms into my eyes, shaking horribly.

Did he find me?

Logan's POV
I unwrap my arms around him because I hear screaming. I go to check roman and Virgil, telling Thomas to stay and watch Patton.

I walk in and see Virgil on the ground shaking, crying, and in a ball, clearly having a horrible panic attack. i walk over and see roman trying to calm Virgil down, I look at his ankle and see blood coming out of his cast and a cut on the side of his head, I immediately call for a doctor.

After awhile we managed to get Virgil on the bed, he was still having a panic attack so the doctors gave him something and that figuratively knocked him out. The doctors began working on fixing his cuts while Roman watches their every move, Being super over protective. I sit down on the chair and take a breather.

Patton's POV
I wake up to no one in the room. It wasn't Virgil's or Romans room, room 394. This was Thomas's room.

Wow Logan just left you in here. Thomas left not wanting to be near a failure.

I whimper.

Wow Patton. Almost crying already? You are so weak. Go. Do it. Now. Your alone, you can do it. Or are you to weak?

I rub my face and get up.

Thomas's POV
I needed to go to the bathroom. I didn't wanna leave Patton alone, Logan said to watch him. I needed to go really bad though. Damn the nurses the were taking forever on giving me the bedpan.

I get up and head to the closest bathroom but it was being cleaned.

Shoot. I'll have to go downstairs. So I do.

Patton's POV
I head to the closest bathroom it smelled heavily like cleaner.

Yes! It was just cleaned! Maybe you could rub your cuts on the walls and make them sting with the cleaner!

I whimper at the thought. I lock the bathroom down sliding down it. I sit for awhile letting my thoughts assault me. Soon I find myself crying while looking for the staple hoping the cleaner missed it, they did.

I hold the blade to my stomach, my shirt thrown to the ground.

Logan left you alone. He hates you. Everyone hates you. As they should, no one loves a failure.

I look in the mirror seeing my body disgusts me. My gap in my teeth, my freckles, my puffy hair. All making me feel insecure.

I hate my hair.

I hate my teeth.

I hate my freckles.

I hate me.

For each thought I cut.
Soon my stomach is covered In blood and cuts. I hold the staple to my wrist, surely no one would care right?

Your right, no one would care. Do it.

I drag the staple across my wrists. I couldn't get it to go deep enough. I got mad and started furiously cutting at my wrists. Soon they looked like my stomach. I knew I wouldn't bleed out, but I started to feel dizzy.

I was sitting on the toilet, crying, when I heard loud knocking.

Shoot. Logan.

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Next chapter their will be some much needed fluff ( I pretty sure that's just cuddling xD)
I'm gonna go write the next chapter now! Bye!!

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