When we got to the school the parking lot was packed. There were limos everywhere. Kids in dresses and tux's were entering the gym. There was a line. I couldn't for the life of me figure out why. When i finally got to the door I saw a guy with a camera. He was taking pictues of all the couples entering the gym.

                             The gym was like cheese ball city. It was so cliche'. They had moons and stars hanging from the ceiling and a back drop of the new york sky line. Our theme was new york at night. It was supposed to be romantic or something. The cheerleaders picked it. Go figure. 

                               "Isn't this so classy?" Shelby asked me looking around at all the decorations. "Psh Yea." I said rolling my eyes. "Chase it's my senoir prom can't you at least pretend to happy." "I am happy, I'm freaking ecstatic ok? Lets just go dance." I grabbed her hand and started pulling her towards the dance floor. "See this isn't so bad." She said to me about 30 minutes later.

                              I hadn't said anything i just held her close. "Chase?" She pulled back to look me in my eyes. I wasn't feeling well, i was looking out at the table with the punch and focousing on it. "Chase are you ok?" She asked me. "You've been wierd and distant all night." "Back off. i'm fine!" "Well you don't have to be mean!" She said looking at me. "Look i am...i'm...it's just that i.." I felt it coming up. Before i could even warn her i threw up. I threw up big time, and all over her shoes.

                          "CHASE YOU THREW UP ON MY SHOES!! THAT IS SO GROSS IT IS ALL OVER MY FEET. YOU ARE SUCH A JERK  IT'S IN MY TOES." She sobbed. The tears were coming and I mean big time. But the room was spinning. I heard her but i couldn't see her. When the room finally stopped spinning i wiped my mouth and ran to find a water fountain. I took a couple of sips to get the taste out of my mouth.

                          I heard a noise coming from somewhere around me. It sounded like crying. I saw shelby sitting against some lockers. She had her head in her arms. I walked over. "Maybe we should talk." "There's nothing to talk about. You threw up on my shoes. I don't know where your head is at these days." "That's fair. I should probably tell you where it's been?" "That's all i've wanted for weeks now."

                          "I know but see i just found out something that i did that i'm not so proud of." "Don't you think i deserve to know?" "OF course, but see that's the thing if i tell you, then you're  going to hate me and you'll most likely break up with me." "Chase you couldn't have done anything bad enough for me to break up with you." I placed my hand over hers. "This is that kind of bad."

                        "Chase you tried to kill yourself. It was all over school, i still dated you after that didn't i?" "Yes." "And you got into a car accident because you were drinking and i still went out with you after that." "Yes but.." "And a girl died that night the police said it wasn't your fault but you still believed it was, you have alot of baggage but i still dated you after that. So nothing you can say will make me want to break up with you."

                          "I had sex before." "Then why did you tell me you were a virgin?" "I thought i was, see that's what i forgot. I had sex with Alysa. I got her pregnant." "No.." She gasped. "Yes, she was crying the night of the accident that's when she told me. I saw her face she looked so hurt. But i'm pretty sure i only had sex with her that one time." "Are you sure?" "Pretty sure?" I shrugged. 

                         "Look, i know i said i wasn't going to break up with you but all this happened while you and i were talking. I liked you and you said you liked me. If you liked me as much as you said you did you shouldn't of had sex with somebody else." "You're right." "Yea well that dosent make me feel any better right now. Why in the WORLD would you have sex with another girl when you and i were dating?" "We weren't dating yet."

                        "Oh oh i see and that makes it ok? Chase i've never known you to be a jerk. Ever. But that was pretty jerkish." "I know you're right and i wish there was something i could say to make you feel better." "Well you can't. Why did you even sleep with her?" "I don't know." "Yes you do, why can't guys just ever admit that it was because they wanted to?"

                         "No i don't know that i did want to. I mean i'm a guy so maybe a little but like i don't even know what i was thinking about at the time. I didn't even like her!!" "Look, i don't know that i can forgive you for having sex with her, but if i can it will be a while." "Look, i wouldn't of dated you if i had known i did this. It's not right, and i would have at least told you and given you the chance to see if you still wanted to date me."

                        "Ok i think we should take some time apart. But the thing is i do love you and i hate that. So you make me a promise." "Anything." "You stop drinking." "Ok, done. After throwing up on your shoes and having the whole entire senior class see is a gaurantee i won't be drinking agian." "Good. Now what do you want me to do?" She asked me. "I can't go home like this and i'd really rather not tell my parents i was drinking they have faith in me again. I'm almost off of being grounded" "Ok then we'll stay out here until then."

                       "Don't you want to dance?" "No, my shoes are ruined and everybody saw i'm kinda embarassed." "Then why don't we go grab a bite to eat?" I asked as i started to stand up." "Ok sounds good. Can i ask you something personal?" She asked me. "Sure anything?" " "Why did you try to kill yourself?" "I don't know really, i've forgotten that part to." "I am sorry for bugging you about telling me stuff. I can't understand how it must feel to have forgotten a big chunk of your life."  She pulled out of the parking lot.

                    "It sucks but i do remember some things you know." "Oh yea?" "Yea like how i asked you out and us dating." "Yea, i never really needed to know anything before you started acting weird. Becasue things for the most part were normal. I knew you were hurting  after the first two months but things were great until..." "Until i started remembering."

                      I opened the car door and got in. "I'm sorry, i didn't mean it like that it's a good thing you remembered even if it ruins the perfect fantasy of our relationship." "What do you mean?" "Well it's obvious you liked her more." "What does that mean?" "Well you had sex with her."  "I didn't like her." "You had to of or you wouldn't of had sex with her."

                      "As much as I hate to say it. Guys are stupid and some times we think with the wrong head.  And honestly I don't remember why I did it. Because I'd like to think I'm not a jerk. So I'm just as confused as you are." She clinched the steering wheel.

                      "I was shocked she liked me."  "So you honestly had no clue that she even liked you?" "Nope, not a one. I had an idea she might of liked me when she gave me a shirt and a note." "She wrote you a note?"

                       "Yea, I guess before we had sex she was giving me time to think about it. I don't know maybe she thought i didn't really like her as much as she liked me but that i did like her some and if she could convince me to have sex with her then that would seal the deal."

                      "Wait you don't think she got pregnant on purpuse?" She asked me. "I never thought about it but it's totally possible. She knew i liked you. So maybe it was a way to trap me. But i'll never know." "Of course she wouldn't admit to it anyways." "Yea."

                      "Do you miss her?" "Every day that was my best friend. You know I'm kind of mad that she liked me. Even if she was still alive, it would of ruined our friendship. That's why i never wanted to date her. I'm not surprised that she liked me though. You know that whole best friend thing maybe it should be more?" She pulled into sonic. "I hope this is ok?" "More then fine." I pointed to my cast. "I was thinking of you. This way you won't have to get out and go inside." "Thanks."

                       "I have another question for you, after we order." "Ok." We placed our order and then i handed her some money. "I got this." "But it's not like were dating anymore you shouldn't have to pay." "I threw up on your shoes it's the least i can do." "Fair enough." She took the money. "Now what did you want to know?" "Where you going to try and have sex with me?" "That depends if you would of let me or not." I winked. "Jerk." She said smilling at me.               "Alright but i meant that. If you would of wanted to have sex with me and i felt you and i were ready i would of probably done it. Because I love you. I probably always will. Even if you and I aren't a thing and I don't think I'd have sex with you unless I loved you.But if you didn't then i would of waited till you wanted to."

                            "I can live with that answer." She said. "Would you are wanted to have sex with me?" "Is this a prom cliche'? Is that why you're asking?" "No i'm just trying to see how bad I screwed things up." "I'll let you know. You got a girl pregnant. I'm going to need some time. So tell me, do you think you would of been a good dad?"

                         "No, i have that scholarship in the fall. I would have to spend alot of my time studying. The baby and her would of gotten less and less time." "Right and they don't deserve that." "It's funny how she was pregnant and because of a tragedy you and I ended up together." I said solemnly. "Right, because I probably wouldn't of dated you. And I'm sorry you lost your best friend."

                            "It's ok, I'm mainly mad that she died and not me. I would of tooken her place if given the chance and I would still do it today." "I don't get you, sometimes you are such a guy and such a jerk and other times you can be so sweet..." She got cut off because our food arrived. She handed the girl the money and took the food. She waited for the change. We dug in.