I realized as i was outside i told my mom i was going to Judy's. I dind't have a clue how i would get there i really couldn't hoble, after a while my arms hurt. I saw my moms explorer on the curb. "Mom i told you i was going to Judy's." I said opening the door and climbing in. "Thought you could use a ride." "Thanks i thought of walking but that would hurt." "No problem i'll just wait for you outside." "Ok sounds good." We rode the five minutes in silence. I was grateful. When she pulled in i saw shelbys car in the parking lot. I got out and walked inside.

                               She was standing on the platform wearing a big pastel pink dress. It was sparkly and really pretty. she looked like an angel. She turned around and smiled. "What do you think?" "It's perfect, you look really nice." "Thanks." she came down from the platform and walked me towards a dressing room. I got a few tuxes picked out. "Is that vest pink?" I asked raising my eyebrows. "We have to match." I just took a deep breath, i didn't want Shelby to know what i had done. If she found out she'd kill me i figured the least i could do was wear a pink vest.

                               I slipped the tux on and walked out. She looped her arm through mine. "We look so cute together. I'm so happy were going to prom together!" She squeled. "Yea me to." I said sarcasticly. "What was that?" "Yea me to." I said pasting a smile on my face. I went to the front and payed for the tux. "Ok sweetie i'll see you saturday. What time do you want me to come by your house?" I groaned. "I'm sorry you don't have your licence back yet, did your parents tell you when they'd let you drive again?" "Nope not for a while, maybe not even when the cast comes off. Six is fine." "Ok sounds good i'll see you then i'm gonna keep looking for some shoes, are you gonna take off?" "Yea mom is outside and i have some studying to do." "Ok sweetie, i'll see you soon." She leaned in and kissed me on the lips and turned to look at shoes.

                          I hobbled out back to my moms car. When i got there, i saw her face. "What?" I asked. "You look like a dead dog." She said wrinkling her nose. "Gee thanks." I said laying my tux on the back seat. "She conned you into wearing pink huh?" I just nodded. When i got home i went straight to my room. "Dinner will be ready soon." She said. "I'm not hungry." I said closing my door. I laid back on my bed and stared at the ceiling. The white spots started to make patterns after a while. If you stared to long your eyes started to hurt. So i shut them.

                      There is no way in this world that i coulf of killed alysa because i didn't want to be a dad. I mean at my age who just thought 'hey I'd like to be a dad.'  And if she told me she was pregnant I wouldn't of ran off the road because of that. Maybe it was the alcohol?  I mean I didn't remember anything.

                         "Mom i'm going out for a while." I said getting off the bed and puting my shoe on. "Where too?" "Taylor called he needs to borrow my english book." "Ok will you be long?" "Probably, i'm gonna study with him." "Ok dear i'll see you soon."

                        I pulled my wallet out of my pocket and found the fake id alysa had us made. It started out as a joke. We were just going to have them made to get in to see the band. Or so she said. She was the one who ordered the drink and gave it to me. She really pounded the alchol that night. Which dosent make a nair lick of sense. She told me she was pregnant after she drank all that crap you'd think it would hurt the baby. Still nothing was adding up. It was like there were puzzle pieces and I couldn't figure out where they went.

                     I lived in a quiet neighborhood but there was a bar on the corner. It was run down but it had beer and that was what I needed. Maybe something harder we'll see when I get inside. I couldn't handle thinking of anything else. It was hurting my head and ruining my life. I'm starting to think not remembering was better.

                           I flashed the guy at the door my i.d. He took a look at the picture. The name said i was Bill Monroe, age 25 and i had a beard. That was so i would look older. He waved me in and i took a seat at the bar.

                        This thankfully wasn't the same bar we had gone to that night, that's the quickest way to bring back my memories. "What'll it be?" "A beer and keep em coming." "You got it."

                       When i was done it was ten oclock. I handed the bar tendor a wad of bills. "Thanks pal have a good night." "No problem buddy ol pal." "Be careful out there." He said laughing. "You got it sonny." I walked home in the cool night air. When i got home all the lights were out. It must of been my lucky night because i got in, brushed my teeth and was asleep before anybody noticed.

                      The next morning i was a little hung over but i took two asprin and headed out to my dad's truck. School that day went by slowly, i slept off my hang over most of the day. But i had done so much catch up that i didn't figure it would really hurt my grades.

                       When i got home my mom went to the kitchen to take care of bills or something. "Gonna get ready for your test tommorow?" "Sure i may run out a bit to see Taylor i left my book over at his house." "Oh ok, Will you be over there long?" "I don't think so. I'm not feeling well i'm just gonna grab a sandwich before i go." "Not feeling well? Oh no come here." It was the nurse coming out in my mom. She felt my forehead. "You're a little warm can i get you anything?" "No, just some peace and quite, tell dad not to bother me will you?" "Ok, can i give you a ride?" "No it's ok." I grabbed the ham out of the fridge and quickly made a sandwich. "Thanks anyways, it's not far and i need to get some fresh air." I grabbed my back pack off the table and walked out the door.

                    We lived in a small peacfull town. So the store was close. That's the good thing. The bad thing was that when i had the accident, and when i tried to kill myself everybody knew about it. The cops here didn't really have much to do either because the town is so small, you really can't speed. So that night I gave them alot to do.

                     Every now and then we have a few stupid kids who break into buildings or stuff like that. But nothing to serious. I walked into the gas station and brought two six packs to the counter. The lady eyed my back pack. "Are you sure your old enough to be buying this?" "Of course, i just have it so i can carry it. Crutches." I said holding them out. "Oh right." She relaxed. "I need i.d anyways." She held her hand out. I gave it to her. The back pack was also so my mom didn't know I was smuggling in beer. "Thank you Bill." She said handing it to me. "That will be 22 dollars." "Here." I said handing her 25. She gave me my change and i shoved it and the beer into my back pack. I got home quickly.

                        "How are you feeling?" My mom asked. "Pretty yuck still, i think i'm gonna go to bed." "Ok if you're sure." "Yea just need some time alone to think." "Ok sweetie i know these past few day's have been hard on you." "Thanks mom." I went upstairs and cut my radio on. Just enough to deaded any sounds she might hear.

                           By nine both six packs were gone. I stashed the empty bottles back in my pack i'd throw em out later. I laid my head down and shut my eyes. The next day i woke up feeling pretty lousy. I grabbed some asprin from my bedside table and down it with an old glass of water. I smelled my moms pancakes from down stairs. I walked down.

                         "Hey good news." I gave her a funny look. Nothing could possibly make this day any better. "Doctor called you'll be getting your cast off next week." "Really? Finally..." "Yea i'm so glad, how did you sleep last night? You still look pretty bad." "Ok, i'm feeling some what better." "What time are you meeting Shelby, is she coming by here?" "No were meeting at Five for dinner before we go." "That sound's good Shelby is such a nice girl, i'm so glad ya'll worked everything out. One or two?" She asked holding up the spatula. "Two." She placed two pan cakes on the plate in front of me and i put butter and syrup on them. She placed two glasses of orange juice on the table and took a seat. My dad had already left for work. He had to work on some Saturdays.

                          I promised my mom i would finish picking up the sticks from the yard and place a cover over the fire wood so it wouldnt get wet. It was may and we had no need for fire wood anytime soon. I came in about four to get ready. I Showered and shaved. Just a little bit, i still liked to look tough. Shelby even said she liked the scruffles. I put my tux on and stuck some gel in my hair. I put on my black shoes and stood back to take a look at myself. Well i did clean up nice.

                      "Oh sweetie you look so handsome i wished you'd let me get some pictures of you two." "She has a camera i'll get a few copies for you." "Ok you'd better. Don't forget your corsage for Shelby it's in the fridge." "Thanks i'll get that now." I ran to the kitchen to get the flower. I had no intentions of actually going to get dinner with Shelby but the less my mom knew the better. I had debated not going back to the bar, but i would just ruin everybodys party if i didn't get liquored up first. So that's where i was headed.

                    After i told my mom bye and stashed the flower on the porch i left. I was going to give myself enough time to get in and get out before Shelby got there. I figured being that it was prom everygbody and his brother would be trying to get into the bar tonight so i went by the one place that let anybody in as long as they had an i.d. "Nice tux." The guy at the door said. "Thanks my brother is getting married." He nooded. "That's good." I took a seat at the bar. This time is was a lady serving drinks.

                     "Hi sugar you look like you're about to go to Prom tonight." She said raising an eyebrow. "Oh i wish, i didn't get to go to mine. My brother is getting married. I contemplated standing outside the school till some cute girl invited me in. But who wants a creepy older guy standing outside?" She smiled. "Of course, what can i get you?" "Vodka please." "Straight?" "Oh yea i wanna feel the burn, this wedding is going to be boring as all get out unless i can get one of the brides maids." I don't know what made me say all the stuff i was saying. I just wanted to sound convincing but even i knew i was taking it to far. Get with the brides maids? In the back of my mind i knew that was how i got in the mess. Not a brides maid but getting with a girl I pushed that thought aside and downed the shot in one gulp. She quickly refilled it. "Thanks."

                     Sometime later i glanced at my watch and caught the time. "Last one." I told the girl. "Ok sugar, that will be 35 dollars. Unless you plan on leaving a tip." She leaned in. Pushing her boobs into my face. If I didn't know any better i'd say that was a pick up attempt but i had a girl who was waiting for me at this moment.

                    I slapped 40 dollars on the table and hobbled out of the bar and back to my house. I saw Shelbys car on the curb she was just getting out. I picked the corsage up from my hiding spot on the porch and put it on her wrist. "Oh Chase thank you it's perfect." She said smiling. She leaned in to pin my botinear on my pocket. She sniffed. "Have you been drinking?" She asked looking at me funny. "Why would you say that?" I asked taking her hand in mine. "Let's go start this party." I said letting go of her hand and hobbling around to the passenger side.

                     She momentarly forgot about asking me about drinking. "This will be so great." She said coming to get into the car. "Yes it will, by the way you look really pretty tonight." "Aw thanks sweetie and you look really handsome." "Thanks." I leaned in to kiss her. "Chase you have been drinking i can taste it." "I just had a little."

                  "But since the accident didn't you learn anything?" "I can't drive. So I can't hurt anybody else." "That's besides the point." She grumbled and put the car into drive. "What is the point then mom?" She glared at me. "It's wrong, your underage and there's a reason they point an age limit on it. I'm not gonna have you ruin this night for me." "I'm not trying to." "We'll see about that." She turned the radio up. I took that as a sign that she didn't want to talk. Well this night was staring off really well. I sighed and laid my head back into the seat.