Lena's POV:
Snow had started to fall by the time I was fully healed.

It was hard to believe that I would have been in the pack for almost a whole year. It's hard to believe how much has changed.

I looked over at Jax who was sound asleep with little Theo on his chest. My mate and our son the thought rang in my head. Grey purred, she loved the fact she had Jax and that she was a mom.

"Morning baby, what time is it? How long have you been awake baby? Lena are you okay?"

Jax's voice brought me out of my thoughts. He was slowly sitting up so he didn't wake Theo. Concern was plastered on his face as he looked at me and then I realized he had asked me some questions.

"Morning Angel. I'm fine just lost in thought, it's about nine o'clock and I've been awake for.. about five minutes."

He smiled before lowering down to gently kiss my lips.

"I love you Lena. I'm going for a shower, pup kept me awake last night remind me I need to ask the doctor for some pain medicine for him."

Jax placed Theo's sleeping form in my arms before kissing Theo's head. Jax often stayed up late with Theo, when ever he cries or is in discomfort Jax always deals with it.

"Mate is over protective of Theo as well as us. It's so cute."

I know Grey, it's funny how he goes all father wolf I don't think I can even imagine what he would be like if we got pregnant.

"Sssshhhh it's alright sweetie. Daddy will be back in a minute."

Theo was so small compared to any baby I had ever seen, Ace's pups were premature by a little bit but I assume Theo is by a lot not that the doctor is worried about that.

Jax returned with wet hair, water dripping down his body and a towel wrapped around his waist that fell to his knees.

I could feel Grey begging to come out and say hello to her mate but I knew if I let her out she would do more than just talk to her mate and I wasn't quite ready to mark and mate with Jax.

"Hey pup I'm right here. Baby do you think he is being fussy or do you think he's in pain?"

I looked up at Jax before stroking Theo head, I don't think he is a fussy baby. He always seems to calm down in Jax's arms and sometimes in mine, I think he's general in a lot of discomfort.

"No Angel he's not fussy. I think he's in a bit of discomfort."

Jax nodded as he sat on the edge of the bed, gently stroking Theo's head but it didn't seem to comfort him much as he began to whimper.

"Jax I think he's in pain we should get him check out."

Jax nodded before running to get some shorts and a t-shirt to put on. I slowly got up cradling Theo to try and get him to calm down.

Once Jax was dressed I handed Theo to him and he calm down a bit but the pain was still there. He was clutching Jax's t-shirt, he was definitely in pain.

Jax face was blank, he was clearly mind-linking the doctor before he took my hand and we walked to the medical room.

Ghost was in control by the time we got there.

The doctor took Theo from his arms in seconds. As we waited outside Ghost was pacing, he was stressed out but so was I, Theo was our son.

"Ghost, sweetie calm down he's okay, Ghost looked at me and take deep breaths. Remember Theo can feel all our emotions and he knows when we are stressed. Deep breaths."

I held his hands and he finally stopped pacing and took deep breaths.

"It's.. it's just I feel like I'm failing you Lena, they took you away from me and now I'm failing Phoenix. I'm a useless mate, a useless dad I'm just a failure you both deserve better than me."

I gently caressed his cheek as tears fell down his face.

"Angel, your everything to me okay and your everything to Phoenix. Jax; Ghost you are so wrong. Your are anything but useless, your not a failure and me and Theo don't deserve better we have the best person in the world okay do you understand me your that person."

I whispered as a place a kiss on his lips, he kissed me back with so much emotion, sadnesses and pain was all I felt.

I could taste salt water in my mouth as we slowly stopped.

"Thank you baby, what would I do without you. I'm just afraid baby, I don't want to lose you or Theo."

We rested our heads against each other soaking up the moment.

"Umm..excuse me my King, my Queen. I have just finished checking over our young prince."

I held Jax's hand he was now back in control and taking deep breaths.

"Phoenix is in a lot of discomfort with his lungs when he is a sleep he finds it harder to breath and so he panics which course him more pain. I have a suggestion as to help him with the pain as you are both aware our wolves help us to heal and deal with pain so I suggest we let Theo's wolf out for an hour or two."

Jax growled at the thought. Ace told me once that Jax hates force shifting mostly because it's painful as the wolf is forced to come out when it's in pain.

"No! Theo has born at six months and it's only being two weeks since we brought him home, I will not allow you to bring out his wolf at his age it's too dangerous!"

I gave his hand a squeezed as he snapped at the doctor.

"Jax, yelling and snapping is not doing any good and it is not helping Theo now is it, can you help Theo a different way with medicine until he's a bit older I assume he will grow like a normal werewolf not like Ace's pups."

Jax's hand was shaking under mine, he needs to calm down.

"Yes Theo will grow like normal and there is some medicine I can give him if that's what you prefer, he will have to have it regularly and he will have to have the medicine for the rest of his life."

I looked at Jax and he nodded, in the end we agreed with the medicine idea it was safer.

The second the doctor gave Theo his injection, he started to cry. Jax took him in his arms and Theo started to fall to sleep. He seemed better and Jax finally calm down he didn't have a restless night that night.