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Third Person POV

She bowed her head in front of the holy Guru Granth Sahib Ji and sat listening to the melody of God. Her heart ached and she wanted some peace. But she didn't know that here at the Gurudwara, God would actually answer her prayers.

The soothing shabads were being sung by the raagis. The tune was melodious and the words grabbed Misha's attention. 

"Those who have hearts of stone are not able to sit in front of God himself, Only those with true hearts are accepted by him. He governs everything, not even a leaf can sway without his permission...." Misha felt soothing yet conflicted at the same time. 

She trusted God, she trusted destiny but why did bad things have to happen to her. What wrong had she done, she thought continuously. Even a leaf moves with his blessing then how can god let her suffer this way. Why? Why her? Why Me? Misha thought to herself. Trying to forget the negativity she closed her eyes and thought about her child, her blessing.

After a while, she felt better and got up to take Prasad and stumbled upon Granthi Ji (Each Gurdwara has a Granthi who organizes the daily services and reads from the Guru Granth Sahib.). "Misha beta, you are here after so long? and you got married ?" he smiled looking at the mangal sutra that she wore on her neck. 

"Sat Sri Akal Ji, yes I got married few months back."

"What is it beta, why do you look confused?" he asked assessing her closely. She was shocked about how he knew that she was having an internal battle.

"Granthi Ji.... woh...  if even a leaf moves with his blessing then how can god let his children suffer while bad things happen to them. I was conflicted over the shabad that was playing" she asked 

He smiled looking at her "Beta it is all a matter of faith in the lord. Your faith and belief are stronger than you might think. Every human faces problems, some much bigger than others. But you need to have faith in the lord that things happen for a reason. Often bad things, make us stronger. Yes, they hurt us, and yes they may be unjustified but these hard things make us stronger and bring out the better in us.... to shape a pot, an artist has to put it in severe heat and also slap it hard to shape it and bring out the best pot. Similarly, the god himself is an artist and we his pots. "

"But how can we move beyond our past? How can we move on if someone who hurts us beyond repair?" she did not know why she was asking Granthi ji about this, but she could not stop herself.

"There is Forgiveness. The lord says - To practice forgiveness is the true contentment. Our sufferings make us feel hurt, pain, and most of all we lose contentment in life. Either you want to forget the person and move on OR you want to forgive the person and move on. Forgiveness will give you contentment whereas forgetting will not. Only those with big hearts can forgive. So Misha, if you want to move on, then deep in your heart you have to actually forgive them. Your anger will only grow with time unless you forgive beta."

Forgive Him? she thought.

"Beta, don't stress! Things will work out, just have faith!" the granthi said and then he took something out of his pocket and gave it to her. It was a Kara.

{ The Kara is a symbol of unbreakable attachment and commitment to God. It is in the shape of a circle which has no beginning and no end, like the eternal nature of God. It is also a symbol of the Sikh brotherhood. }

This is a kARA - worn by all Sikhs and Punjabis. 

"Why are you giving me this Kara granthi ji?" she was confused why he was giving it to her. 

"Beta, another child of God gave me his Kara. He seeks forgiveness from god. He repents his actions and as a symbol of his commitment to repent, he gave me back his Kara and said to give it someone who has a big heart that can forgive in hopes that he will be forgiven one day as well. Your heart has clearly decided to forgive the person who did you bad to you, you just haven't realized it yet. Here keep this as a blessing from God." he touched her head giving his blessing and went away.

Misha did not know what to make of this but she was happy to get the blessings.

She drove home thinking about what he said. Had she decided to forgive him?  She wasn't sure. But she kept an open mind. Going to the Gurudwara definitely helped her feel less stressed.

Misha spent the next few days spending time with her parents in law. Vivaan tried to talk to her but she had none of it. She did not want to face him. He had hurt her so much. 

She had grown very close to her in-laws. She found out that Vivaan's father was paralyzed in the same accident as Misha's parents but what shocked her the most was when her mother in law told her about her second son, Vivaan's younger brother. Misha was devastated to hear about his demise in the same accident.

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***Ten Days Later***

Vivaan was at his office not knowing that his world will change this day. 

Vivaan POV 

"Congratulations Mr.Vivaan, the deal is final" I shook hands commencing another successful business merger and smiled at Mr.Kumar but I didn't feel happy within. No amount of successful mergers or business deals give me any happiness now.

I left my office conference room and went towards my cabin while I got a  call. After the call, Misha's face flashed on my phone's screen. It was a picture we took together at my friend's birthday party a year ago. Seeing her smile in this picture brings a heavy feeling in my heart. 

One part of me wants to see her smile always and another part of me feels like I am betraying my brother and his death by having feelings for her. But I knew, what I did with her was wrong and a sin. I can't ever justify my actions. I have always a hard time controlling my anger and rage. 

After knowing about my brother's death, I was emotionally, mentally and physically drained. Knowing that the Sachdev's were behind the accident, I made it my personal vendetta to ruin their business and family and I was successful. All I saw was my brother's blood and my father's pain. A strong independent man in a wheelchair in the age when he should be enjoying and relaxing. 

When I met Misha at the orphanage, my friendship was true and I always cherish those days. I knew I was feeling for her and that's what drove me to madness when I found out that she was the one responsible for his death. I was not able to believe that she could do this even after the detective told me that it was her who was driving the truck.

So I dug deeper into it. I hired another team of detectives. They found out that Misha was actually not Misha. She was not the biological daughter of the Sachdev's and that her biological father had always planned to take over the Sachdev money, that's why he let his daughter stay in the Sachdev family. In fact, Misha is not even her real name, her name is Shalini. 

But I still could not believe it. But then I saw Misha (aka Shalini) with my own eyes doing a business of drug dealing at a crappy factory on the outskirts of the city. I went with the detective team into the factory disguised as a handyman. I saw dressed in a cheap dress and she did not look like the innocent-looking Misha I had feelings for. But it was her, I could never get that face wrong. I heard her too and her voice was the same too but her way of speaking was not the same. It felt like a different personality in the same body. Only after that day, I believed who she truly was and decided to take revenge on her for my brother's death and father's pain. 

That accident had taken away our family's happiness and I wanted to make sure that she suffers. She willingly did the accident, she was a killer.

I looked at her on the phone again. "I know you did wrong but that does not make my actions any better Misha. I cannot call you Shalini, you will always be the Misha I met at the orphanage. I don't know why you did it, but I know that it is good in you. I know your friendship with me was true too. But your biological father used you for his own gain. I will show him hell when I find him" I have been looking for her biological father but he has been on a run.

I know Misha at the orphanage was true, I just know it. But my anger and hurt made me a monster against her. Even though she is responsible for our family's pain, I cannot hurt her anymore.

When she told me about her pregnancy, my world shifted. My anger vanished and all I could think about was that my Misha, my friend from the orphanage was carrying my child. 

The girl who made me fall for her cuteness with kids at the orphanage was now going to give birth to my child, our child. That day I realized that I had become a monster. I was acting without conscious thought. My anger and thirst for revenge drove my actions. I hope that one day she can forgive me. Trying to forget about the pain, I continued my work for the rest of the day. 

When I was about to leave for home, my mom called me. 

"Mom?"

"Beta, Vivaan, Misha.. she ... " she sounded stressed. 

"What happened mom you are okay? What happened to Misha?" I was worried. 

"Beta, come to the Sachdev Mansion right now! Beta please come fast" and then she cut the call. 

In anguish and desperation, I drove to the Sachdev mansion. was Misha okay? was our baby okay? I was dying to know. 

I parked right out the door and walked in. 

Both the family's were there. As soon as I entered, my mom came to me crying and hugged me. 

"What happened mom?" I looked up to see everyone starring at me.

"What happened mom? where is misha? Is she okay? Is the baby okay?" I asked concerned. 

Nobody spoke anything. 

Avinash came to me and patted my shoulder. Why was he being so nice to me? 

"Vivaan, woh..." Avi spoke with a pained expression on his face.

"Avi god dammit tell what happened, why are you all like this ??? Why? Where is Misha?" I grabbed his collar frustrated with confusion and suspense. 

"Vivaan Misha is gone" he spoke with finality in his voice. 

"Gone? What do you mean Avi?"

Misha's chachu came forward and handed me a letter. He said " Its from Misha"

I hastily opened and read the letter.

"Chachu, 

I am sorry for not telling you all about this before. But I have always loved someone. His name is Ayush and I met him in London when I was studying there. When I came back last year, he followed me back. We loved each other and now he wants me to go back with him to London. So I am leaving with him because I want my child to be with his/her father. Yes, Ayush is the father of my child. I am sorry chachu, I could not bring myself to say this to you all as I feel ashamed of hidding my affair from you all. I am leaving for London and will marry Ayush there. Since, my marriage in India means nothing in England, It will not be a problem for Ayush and me to marry. 

Bye 

I hope you all can forgive me someday

Yours truly 

Misha"

My world shook crazy and I didn't know what to feel. I am hurt, I am angry. She had an affair with another guy? No that's not possible! that child is mine!!! I know it.

But the family's don't know this and I can't tell it to them.

"I am sorry Vivaan beta, I am sorry ji I did not know that Misha would do this" Misha's chachi came to me and my parents and started sobbing. 

Her grandparents were still in shock. Everyone was in shock. 

Her chachi spoke again "I told you ji, she never loved us. This is how she paid us for loving her after her parents died! I will never accept her back in this house! Never!"  her chachi was telling her husband. 

Avi was hurt no doubt, I know how much he loved Misha, his sister. But he tried to calm down his mother.

Then her chachu handed me another letter. "She left this for you Vivaan, we haven't read it"

"Vivaan,

I forgive you. Don't try to find me

Misha"

My world came crashing down. I felt like a heavy stone was crushing my heart and I felt like I could not breathe!

Misha left me! 

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