Tw: Talks of depression, lil bit of angst, insecurity, comparing ones self to others.

(Roman's POV)

It was now a bit later in the day we're out of school cause it apparently snowed a shit ton last night I was on my phone while Logan was getting food I just scrolled through Instagram and saw countless pictures of dudes with perfect faces and shit like that...they're probably douche bags but they're also probably still liked by people...I wish I could look like that- I pull my knees to my chest and keep looking at my phone...I'm so skinny that if I fall over I'll probably be in pain- soon my phone is taken out of my hands

"Social media is extremely bad for your mental health" Logan hands me a plate of food

"I'm not hungry..." I feel Logan's gaze burning on me "Fine. I'll eat but I won't finish it all"

"Alright Ro" I undo myself from the little ball I was in and start eating food tastes weird after a while of eating only a select few food's I finish a little less than half the food and hand the plate to Logan who moved my hair away from my forehead and gave me a forehead kiss "You know...when you fell asleep last night Remus came in here and we had a conversation"

"You- had a conversation with Remus like- my brother Remus, like intrusive thought inducing Remus"

"Yes" Logan sat the plate down on my desk and sat on the bed next to means smiled a little bit "Roman I hope you know that you are the first ever person I've felt these kinds of feelings for." I looked at him

"Really? There's so many better people....I'm not that amazing" Logan flicks my forehead lightly "Ow! What was that for"

"Stop being so insecure I don't know why you have these metaphorical blinders on but can you please just notice for once that I love you for who you are." I looked at him Logan was just staring at the wall in front of us

"Sorry- I guess it's just instinct at this point..." he turns his head slightly and looked at me

"I know I just don't like it when you talk about yourself like that, now off topic but Adhara wants to play in the snow with us so get some warm clothes on alright?" I nod a bit

(Small time skip)

A freezing sensation hit my cheek "OI REMUS WHAT WAS THAT FOR!" Remus ran away laughing like a maniac as he was running Adhara jumped on his back causing him to fall into the snow I pointed and laughed at him

"Holy Christ that's cold!!" Remus said loudly I smiled and saw Logan making a snowman I go and jump on his back making him stumble slightly

"Hi Ro" he said with a slight smile

(Last time skip)

It was getting dark Adhara and Remus where going inside because it was starting to snow again I looked at Logan who smiled at me the dim lighting from the street posts made him look almost ethereal he leaned down slightly and kissed me wrapping his arms around my waist I wrapped my own arms around his neck he moved one arm from my waist to around my neck his hand on the back of head despite the coldness of the snow I felt my face heating up. This kiss was unlike any kiss we've had before.

All our past kisses where short and sweet, while this one is passionate, loving and drawn out, we pulled away only to catch our breath soon going back to the kiss until we heard the snap of a phone camera we pulled away to see Remus wrapped in a thick blanket "blackmail!!!"

"Hey no fair!" I said I held Logan's hand an we went back inside my mom walked over and put her hands on my cheeks

"Ro, you're cold as ice!" She walked quickly to the kitchen and came back with two mugs of hot chocolate Logan was taking his jackets off my mom set the cups down and as if I'm still a child she helped me take off the warmer layers after she made me and Logan sit on the couch and ran and got two blankets I lay my head on Logan's shoulder and look at him I feel my phone vibrate slightly indicating I got a text
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Remus: here's the picture you simp

Me: thank you stalker 🤩🤚

Remus: if it weren't for my "stalkerness" you wouldn't have that pic be grateful 🤨🙄
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Below was the picture I saved it with a smile on my face and made it my Lock Screen I moved slightly closer to Logan he looked and I guess saw my new Lock Screen it made him smile

"Roman you need to go get a warm shower so you don't get a cold!" My mom said peeking out of the  kitchen

"I will." I say keeping my arms around Logan I started scrolling through Tiktok and saw one saying

"My love language is touch not in the dirty way, I don't care if we're holding hands, cuddling, hugging or kissing but you're touch, god I couldn't live without it if I tried" I took a screenshot of the Tiktok and then proceeded to show it to Logan hiding my still cold face with the blanket I felt his arms tighten around me and then the blanket lifting slightly off of me I felt short kisses pepper my face from my forehead to my cheeks to my nose then my jaw and finally a short kiss was placed on my lips making me smile

"Dinner is ready" I hear my mom say we all go to the donning room and eat dinner after we all get ready for bed I go plop down on my bed Logan sits next to me

"Ro do you think you could send me that picture?"

"Yeah sure"I hand him my phone and he sends it to himself

"I don't really care what your dad says- cause right now I really just wanna fall asleep with you in my arms" Logan says hugging me tightly and in a few minutes I end up falling asleep

This got really cheesy- anygays sorry for the lack of updates I haven't seen sanders sides in a bit and my motivation to write was gone but I'm back now!!