//Lance POV//

what was i thinking, using a knife to do my dirty work. i knew i should have used my gun but noooooooo. i have to be the dumbass everyone calls me.

when i opened my eyes i saw Keith first then all my teammates. why were they crying, but why now?

"Im s-so sorry keith." i said to him as i drifted of into a uneasy sleep. i didnt get to finish my sentence tho. i woke up in the training room. the one-sided glass looking down on me. i knew the team was up there looking at me with disapproval. i sat up and held my head as it was pounding. i propped myself up on the wall nearest to me and tilted my head back, looking at the ceiling.

i jolt upwards as i here alluras voice boom into my ears from the speakers that were above me. i glare at the glass and then look down at my covered arm.

" lance... do you know why you are in here?"" no, why would i? i just woke up on a cold ass floor with no recollection of how i got here." silence......." lance we need to know why you did this... please tell us." " if you really want to know check the inbox." i say with a little smirk on my face. i here the faint sound of my voice as the video plays about 5 minutes later. i hear my self yell then the video cut off a second later. " So, what did you think? did i do a good job at my failed suicide note?

" im sorry you feel that way lance, i didn't want anything to happen and i didn't mean to hurt you...." shiro says. " if you really care you wouldnt have said all those hurtful things to me. if you really cared you would have noticed me crying every night when you went to far with you fucking jokes! IF YOU REALLY CARED YOU WOULD HAVE SEEN THE BLOOD STAINS IN BLUE, AND THE FLOOR, AND IN MY BEDROOM!" by now tears were streaming down my eyes and i was pulling at my hair, and scratching at the bandage around my arm trying to get the wrap off. I was screaming and screaming for the voices in my head to shut off. i was bent over my knees trying to get my demons out of my head when i hear footsteps running to me.

"NO! STAY AWAY, GET OUT! CAN YOU ALL SHUT UP! DONT DO THIS TO ME! PLEASE! please....." i black out and not even a minute later i wake up so my "friends" hovering over me. i scream and cover my face with my arms and curl into a ball.

i dont know what to do. i just want to feel ok, is that alright?

// i didnt know what to do for this chapter and this is kinda a filler i guess.//

Also when it's me I don't italicize I just bold ~V