I'm having an existential crisis and i chose to complain to you guys instead of dealing with my problems you can ignore this if wanted lmao. 

I'm choosing my courses for next year and I'm changing schools because of new opportunities and I have cheer tryouts in a couple of days and I want death.

IDK what to do yet?? I know I'm joining the military right after school but what about after? I'm torn between history professor and politician. do I take modern american history, or do I know enough about lee harvey oswald? or do I take government? will I even make it far in politics? will they take a young liberal or just say my views are foolish and invalid? 

I really don't want to sound conceited but i am above average smart and am i throwing my life away by teaching about some old dead people? idk

anyways fuck you courses pamplet

 sorry if it feels like I'm becoming one of those wattpad writers who only do this for self-beneficial reasons but I'm just really busy and stressed rn so I promise ill try and keep me and yalls relationship because honestly, it would break my heart if I lost yall.