(Well I such so far and... Idk I had the idea when i was watching a sad movie •^•)

"Hey Lukas. do you want t-"

No

"But I-"

No

"Why don't you want t-"

No, now leave

Mathias sighed his smile slowly dropped and he looked down
"Ok..sorry luke" he turned around leaving the room

He didn't know why but he always felt a sharp pain in his chest when Lukas did these things..

He walked into his room and flopped down on his bed it actually wasn't surprising to him about people being mad at him anymore..

It happened so frequently he considered it a blessing when he was ignored by them.. And by them he means his father, Berwald, Emil, and Lukas..

It seemed any chance they got Emil and Lukas would insult him.. About anything like, his face, appearance, voice and most of all

his personality according to Lukas everything about him was annoying and stupid..

This Mathias could handle of course, he just smiled through it, hiding his pain simple as that.

But like any living being that disguise began to wear off and his pain began to show not emotionally but physically

He had taken up cutting some time ago.. He thought of it as relieving his pain

Every insult that Lukas, Emil, his father and Berwald threw at him he knew they were right..

So he replaced crying with smiling, ranting with laughing, and anger with cutting.. In his mind this was a good system

But was it really?

(Ill update this later :3 tell me what you think and what you want to happen I'll most likely pit it in just with mah own words you get the credit though~)