19 - "Then I Guess I've Not Really Got A Choice."
Lille's POV -
"You're never going know if you don't give him a chance. For me? Please?" I asked, placing my hand on his shoulder and forcing him to look at me.
"I'm sorry Lille. I just can't accept the two of you together and I'm not going to let it happen either, it will be disastrous for the both of you." Max sighed as he pushed his hand off my shoulder and walked into the kitchen with a disapproving look on his face.
"Look, I'll wait outside and you two can have a conversation together. Yeah?" Jay smiled at me, giving me a quick kiss on the cheek as he walked out of the house and waited for me to come and tell him Max had accepted the two of us; but I'm almost certain that wasn't going to happen because Max had his mind set on something and it was impossible to change it when that happened.
I walked into the kitchen, seeing Max leant over one of the counters and he looked like he was ready to punch someone; probably Jay considering he was the one that had broken the promise he made and none of the others had done.
"Max, in all the time I've been living with you, this is the one thing I've really asked you to do for me. Why can't you just let me be happy?" I asked him without hesitation.
"Have you slept with him?" Max replied.
"I'm sorry?"
"I said, have you slept with him?" Max repeated, looking up from the counter with disgust and anger in his eyes; like he couldn't bare the thought of me actually sleeping with one of his bestfriends.
It probably angered him even more to think that I had slept with Jay than it did knowing we were in a relationship together and, if I told him the truth, then I knew that he would actually go and kill him in front of all the neighbours.
So I decided that the best thing to do right now was lie, and make sure he believed me; at least he might accept our relationship and leave me alone.
"No. I haven't slept with Jay." I answered him.
"But you did spend the night at his place last night, right?" Max questioned.
"Yes, I spent the night at Jay's house last night. No, nothing happened between the two of us."
"Do you promise me Lille?" Max asked, and I could tell that he was serious about this and, if he ever found out the truth, then he would go mental and he would kill not only Jay for doing it in the first place, but also me for lying to him about it happening.
"I promise you Max, I didn't sleep with Jay last night." I smiled reassuringly at him.
Of course I felt bad about lying to my brother, but there was no other option, I couldn't bring myself to tell him the truth because I knew how it would end; and it wouldn't end well for either of us.
"But what happens when it does end up going wrong for the two of you, ay? Who is going to be the one left dealing with the heartbreak and hurt from the relationship?" Max snapped.
"If you really want me to be happy, then you'll let me do this and you won't try to break us up. I love Jay and you need to accept that, because it's not going to be changing anytime soon." I sighed.
"I'm sorry, but there is no way I can accept your relationship. The thought of my band mate, and bestfriend, having their hands all over my little sister and the thought of you two being in bed together makes me feel sick. I'm not going to let that happen. I'm sorry Lille." Max replied in a tone of anger, and I could tell that I wasn't getting through to him and he wasn't listening to a single word that I said because he was just getting more and more annoyed with each word that I spoke.
"Well, that's a shame Max because we're together and there's nothing you can do about it either. I'm not going to leave him simply because you don't approve; you're just going to have to grow the hell up and stop being so damn childish." I snapped at him, finally losing my temper with him and just wanting to tell him what I really thought.
"You're not coming in this house together and, when he's not around for you, don't come crying to me because I won't give a damn."
"I always thought having an older brother was awesome, having someone to protect me and stick up for me when I needed them to. Now, I just hate the fact you're my brother because you think you can control every single thing I do and you can dictate my life to. Sorry Max, but I got news for you, it's my life and I'm not a kid anymore; you can't tell me what to do like you used to and you can't stop me from doing this either." I shouted at him and, it was obviously getting pretty loud in here as Jay appeared in the kitchen doorway, looking between me and Max.
Both of us were heated in the face, and you could tell that we were getting more and more annoyed with each other because we weren't even talking in proper voices anymore - we were just shouting at each other and not listening to what the other said; but I wasn't going to let him control me or my life anymore.
He just needed to accept that I was growing up, and I was getting on with my life now.
I wasn't that little girl who constantly needed his help anymore, and I wasn't some child he could order around like he used to when he was with me; I was an actual person and I had grown up a lot since then, so it was time that he let me get on with my life without being the overbearing shadow that no one wanted around.
"No, but I can send you back to Manchester and get you away from him." Max snapped.
"If you think I would actually go, then you are clearly more stupid that you look." I laughed at his stupid attempt to separate me and Jay from each other, only for him to realise that would never work because he can't stop me from living with one of the other boys.
"You're just a screw-up and I wish you were never my sister. If you want to ruin your life, then carry on, I'm not going to stop you and I'm not going to be there to help you when it all goes wrong either." Max replied with a tone of annoyance that I wasn't giving in to him as easily as I used to.
"You know what Max, I did sleep with Jay last night and it was the best night of my life." I spat at him before I turned and walked out of the room, not even allowing Max to reply to me because I didn't care what he had to say anymore; he had made his feelings more than clear and I wasn't going to even bother sparing his feelings anymore.
I stamped up the stairs, shoving my bedroom door open violently and walking straight over to my wardrobe; pulling out the suitcase I had used when I last went abroad with Max for my birthday four years ago now.
I started pulling all my clothes out of the drawers and wardrobe, shoving them into the case and making sure I had what was important to me before zipping up the case so hard that I ended up catching my hand in the zip, causing it to bleed, but that didn't bother me as I ended up pulling all the pictures of me and Max off the wall as well, causing yet another cut to my hand as I caught it on some broken glass.
"Babe, calm down." Jay soothed as he appeared behind me and embraced me in a hug, where I just began crying into his chest and wanting to punch something.
"I hate him. I hate him so much." I said through the tears as Jay moved his hand up and down my back in an attempt to calm me down.
"You don't hate him, you're just annoyed with him, that's all. I'm sure he didn't mean what he said and, in time, you'll be able to forgive him. He only does what he does because he wants to keep you safe and make sure you're really happy." Jay defended him, which just made me annoyed because I didn't care what he was feeling, he hurt me.
"No. I hate him Jay. I'm tired of it all now, and I've had enough." I snapped, pulling away from him, although his eyes were immediately drawn to the hand that blood was still flowing out off where I had caught it on the broken glass; and he suddenly gave a damn about me.
I didn't give him the satisfaction of offering me help, I just grabbed hold of the suitcase and dragged it off the room, straight down the stairs, bringing it to stop by the front door where Max was blocking my exit from the house.
"I'm not letting you go anywhere, at least not with him." Max retorted before i had the chance to say anything.
"You know, after everything that's happened and all the lying you've done to me, you can't even let me have this one thing without kicking up a fuss. You convinced me for three years that I hated him and couldn't stand to be around him, for something that never even happened." I laughed slightly, trying not to treat his behaviour as some kind of joke because he thought that he had the right to act this way and that there would be no consequences for his actions; but guess he was wrong about that one.
"How I wish you still hated him, everything would be a whole lot easier then." Max clapped.
"You need to stop being such a kid and grow the hell up. I'm going to do this, and there's nothing you can do to stop me or make me leave either. Now, get the hell out of my way." I replied rather calmly in comparison to how I'd spoken to him for most of this conversation.
"Look, mate, if you don't let her do what she wants to do and stop being so overbearing, then you're going to lose her forever and she isn't going to want to see you again. Is that really want you want?" Jay reasoned with him as he smiled in my direction.
"I want her to be happy and I want her to be with someone that I can trust." Max stated, still with anger in his voice, but there was also a hint of sadness as well.
"Think about it. She's in a relationship with me, someone you've known and are bestfriends with, so you know what I'm like and you know you can trust me. Would you rather she stays like that, or comes back with some stranger you know nothing about?"
"Promise me that you'll never hurt her, or break her heart, or do anything that makes her cry?" Max said much to the surprise of myself, who had never seen him give in like this before and he had always continued to argue until he won, because that's the type of person that he was and the main reason why people never argued with him.
"I was with her before and I never once broke her heart. I did nothing but make her happy." Jay simply stated.
"Then I guess I've not really got a choice." Max replied and, with that admittance of deafeat, he walked upstairs and the next thing that could be heard was the slamming of his bedroom door as he vanished into there; probably not to come out until one of the other boys came round here to talk to him.
"Look, I was thinking, maybe if you stay here with Max during the week and then we can have the entire weekend to ourselves; just so he doesn't feel like he's losing his baby sister and he can still protect you if you ever need it?" Jay suggested, and all I did was nod as he pulled me into his chest, embracing me in a hug that suddenly made all the hurt and the pain disappear.
I guess that, being in the arms of the person you love, does that to you and it's the best feeling in the world when it happens.
Knowing there is someone who loves you and who is going to be there for you whenever you need them - even if you spent three years of your life hating them all because of some lie which should never have been used in the way that it was used.
I love Jay, and there is nothing else to it.
THE END
Hey there people,
Sorry it's taken me so long to post this, but here it is, the last part of Why Do You Hate Jay McGuiness?! and I do hope it was worht the wait.
Let me know what you think, and thank you so much for the support you've given me on this book as I never thought it was going to be as popular as it has turned out to be; I am amazed that it has now got over 6,000 reads and more than 200 votes - that's something I never expected to see on one of my stories.
Anyway, enough of me going on now, I just want to personally thank you all and I will send you all some love in the pot because your support has helped to give me the confidence boost I really needed with my writing.
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