heyyyy so i wrote this months and months ago, just finnally continueing this book

I walk through the maze of hallways, turning at certain points. I finally made it to a very tall door. I breathe in, as I push the double door open. I step into the room with non-existent confidence, and make my way to a table of assorted weapons. I grab a couple throwing knives, pick them up, as well as an axe, the blade made out of a substance that only ender beings have thought of making armor and weapons out of. Aka a mixture of end stone, absidien, and bedrock. I keep throwing knives in one hand and put the axe in the axe holding thing i have on my back.. I forgot what it's called.. I walk towards the section of the training room that has moving targets. Or if i'm being more specific, just a bunch of ender beings that are traitors to the organization. I stand over the tiny arena full of traitors, and punch a crimson button next to me. Slowly, the floor beneath me begins to disappear. I then quickly fall towards the ground. While in the air, I spot a couple traitors who haven't run too far. I throw the knives with ease, they all hit their target.

I lang on the ground of the artificial rocky terrain. I freeze, listening to the sound of running that surrounds me. I began to chase the one closest to me, as I took the axe from my back. The traitor was fast, but not as fast as they needed to be. I quickly caught up with the traitor who I now see as an endrien. The endrian is taller than me, but... I'm 9.. So that's not a surprise. Soon, I'm running beside the endrian, they look at me, i look at them. Then, I cut off their head. I then run to the next traitor, passing the dead bodys of the ender beings I threw the knives at, ripping the throwing knives out of them, and continuing to run. I soon find a group of five traitors.

"Spare us! Please!"

"'I have a family!"

"I will tell you where others are if you don't kill me!"

"We know where others are!"

"Please don't kill us!"

"..... welp.... I guess this is how I die. Not what I expected, but it was never not an option."

They all scream at me to spare them, and that they know where others are, as if I need someone to tell me where others are... then there was 0012... oh 0012. You are so fucking depressed. You don't care if you die, do you? Nah, it's fine..... I think to myself.

With the throwing knives, I slice each of the traitors neck, other than 0012. They all fall to the ground, some dead immediately, others clutching their thoughts trying to stop the bleeding, they slowly die. 0012 looked at the now dead ender beings, then back at me.

"Why didn't you kill me? 0000, what's wrong?" 0012 asked me. I looked them in the eye.

"Why did you betray us? We were friends...

Now I have to kill you."

I put my hand on his shoulder. He let his head fall. I held my knife up to his throat. Paused. I lowered the knife. I could see a small amount of hope in his eyes. Then, just as he looked back up, I plunged the throwing knife into his stomach. He screamed. That was your friend you just killed. Murderer. You are useless. This is why no one will talk to you. Why don't you just jump into a rushing river? That would kill you. It would be painful, but it would get you out of a bit once you go to hell. Your going to hell anyways, even if you never came here. Youre gay. Your disgusting. My head follows my dying friend as he falls to the floor. Ok, you're right about some of that, but one: I don't believe that hell or heaven or the afterlife or anything like that exists. You die, then that's it. Two: im not gay. Im bisexual. And agender. I tell the voices in my head. I walk away, towards another traitor, to get the start of today's training done.

Soon, I had killed every traitor. I walk over to the elevator, and press the button to go back to the first floor of the training area. Randomly, an excruciating pain shot through my arm. I look at what caused the pain, and I see an arrow sticking out of my arm.

"Run. run away. Leave me."

"I can't lose you!"

"Get up! Please get up!"

No. not again. Not again. Please. Shut up. Just shut up. Please just shut the fuck up.

"I'm not leaving you!"

"Leave. Please. I'll be okay."

Why do I remember this? Who is my 'sister' well... i don't know their gender so.. Sibling. Who are they? Why am I remembering my past lately?

I feel a tear fall down my face.

No.no.nonononono. I can't show emotion. I can't cry. You're such a baby. You're weak. Why are you still alive? You should kill yourself. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. "SHUT UP!!"

"What the hell did you just say to me?'' I heard a booming voice go through my ears. I flinched the slightest bit, since it was very loud, and my hearing was oddly good. I said that out loud? I turn my head to the source of the voice. A guard. I've seen this guard before. They were at the house in my memorie! They were the person that made me go to this fucked up place. I stared at the guard. They stared back. They put another arrow into the crossbow they were holding. They pointed it at me.

"What? Arrow brings back memories? Youre fucking useless. You are a weapon. That's it. You know what? I'll shoot you again to get those emotions to disappear. If i see you crying like a little *enter insulting name that i can't think of* again i will shoot you again. And again. Until you're even more emotionless. It will make you a better weapon. A better object. Objects don't have emotions. You are a weapon, you are an object. You shoulnt have emotions either. I'm better than you in every way, you endermitt."

Then before I could say anything, another arrow pierced my skin. Both arrows are in the same place as that night.

You heard him. You're useless. You are a weapon. You are a *insert the insulting name form before*. You can't have emotions. Listen to us. You are an object. Better have your emotions disappear.

My eyes travel back to the ground. I walk away. Back to my room. It's been a while. Training is over. Also, I have a mission tomorrow.

I travel through the maze of hallways back to the winding staircase to my room. I pull the arrows out of my arm and my side. I drop the bloody arrows on the ground. Im dizzy. I look behind me, only to see a trail of my own blood. Well shit. I shrug and continue walking, finally getting to my room. Finally I can be alone. Wait, why is there a person? Oh right. 0015. Well shit.

I take one step into the room, but of course, 0015 looks directly at me. Why are they looking at me? Oh, right. Im a goddamn murderer. 0015 stands up and rips the fabric to their sleeve and walks towards me. Whyyyyy are they doing that? I step back slightly. They raise their hands slightly. Oh fuck no. without thinking, i rase one of my hands, grab their wrist, with my other hand i grab their shoulder, then i bend the arm that i have a grip on thei wrist backwards. Like this I could break their arm without even trying.

What the hell are you doing!?

What?

What. are. You. doing?

Oh... wait shit-

I snap back to my senses. Wait a goddamn second, am i... holding their arm in the arm lock that would almost instantly break their arm? Shit, I am.

I let go of their arm, and backed away. I was supposed to protect them! I hurt them. I really am a monster.. I zone out, listening to the screaming voices that reside in my head

I hear a snapping noise. I blink a couple times, since my vision was blurry. My eyes focused on what was in front of me. Oh, it's just 0015. I turn my head to the side as if asking "what?" they look at me with a concerned face. Why are they concerned? Do they care about me or something? I look out the window, it's night. Wait shit- i have to get to my shop 0015 noticed my random panic, and seemed even more concerned then before. Oh well, let them be like that, it's their problem for caring about me, I gotta get to the market. I walk to the window, open it and jump out, teleporting to the portal to the over end at the last second.

once i get to the portle to the overend, i walk up to the swirling void. I fall through the mesmerizing portal, then walk to the market, go to my shop, unlock the door, turn on the led and fairy lights, and turn on the open sign. I walk to the counter, teleporting behind it, prepared for a night of customers.