Bella's pov

After talking to Susan I felt so confident and no more confused. I was for once sure about my decision. No matter how hard I tried I can't ignore the fact that he meant something to me, something more than what I could figure out.

Whatever it was , I knew that he had already left a huge impression on my life and even if I try to forget everything, forget him,or forget the moments I spent with him, I can't move forward without remembering him.

I just let my erupting ego slid and decided to do what feels right.

So with no regret, no doubts and absolutely no confusion, I decided to do what I really wanted.

In a way I was not giving him any 'second chance', I was actually giving myself 'second chance' to escape from this bounded life and to once again explore and live life without any fears.
Being with him, the one most important thing I've learned is that

"Its okay to take risks and it's okay to make mistakes and it's okay fall down and then start it all again. "

Well I won't decline that I was not nervous, that I definitely was but I was certainly not scared .Though it crossed my mind yesterday that, what if he doesn't want to meet me now? what if I am wrong about him and he is the man, the world pictures him as?
What if......

But no, I'm gonna be led by any of these assumptions.
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"The number you have called is unavailable right now. "
I was tired of hearing this obnoxious voice for what seems like a thousandth time now.

I switched off my phone and almost threw it on my bed.
I was getting unwanted thoughts that would just make me feeble.
I wanted to meet him now, I didn't want to wait any longer, it had already been three days since we last met. And I can't let him keep thinking that I hate him. I want him to know that he deserves to prove himself .

I wanted to hear my heart and do what it says , I wanted to take risks and make mistakes and I knew I needed him for that.

But afterall what else could I do, except trying to call him again a few more times. I had no other way to contact him and I didn't want to text him , I want to hear him out when I talk to him.

I was lost in my thoughts when a knock on my door brought me back.
"Come in, the door's open. "

"So what's going on in my grand daughter's life?" Granny asked amidst closing the door behind her back.

I indicating towards my phone lying on my bed , " He's not answering. " I said on the verge of crying.

"And you're feeling guilty."
That was a question from her, but she sounded certain while stating it, so that also makes it an answer.

I shook my head and looked up , blinking my eyes several times, trying to cease the tears and with a slight smile I said, "I don't know. "

She came and sat beside me and looking straight ahead she said, "You don't know but I know. "

"He came for you and apologized to you but you dismissed him , scarcely noticing that he regretted what he did. You were more concerned about the fact that he lied to you and you felt betrayed?"
Again it was a question but appeared more like a imperative statement.

"But that's....what you think, in reality he had his reasons to hide from you and you had yours to not give him a chance, when he asked for it." She said further.

"And child in any kind of relationship its your duty to find the out the reason behind other's actions and its their duty to find out the reason behind your actions. That's.....just how it works. There is no need to weep over the mistakes you made in the past what matters is the lesson you learned from those mistakes."

I nodded.
"What should I do now?"

"Wait?" This was the first time in this conversation that her question was actually a question, indicating that it was something she wasn't sure of.

I just sighed and decided to wait, maybe he'll call me back? Maybe.
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Next Day

"Regret . Regret is the most hideous type of pain, most terrible and unwanting. We all wish that we don't have any regrets in our life, we tend to live 'perfectly' , we tend to take all the opportunities life has to offer us, all that so we don't have to feel this repellent pain of regret in the future but how ironic ,almost all us 'regret' for something or the other. Just the difference is some only have it for a short period of time while some have to live with it.

Regret means to feel sad or disappointed over something that has happened or has been done. Well it varies for person to person. The most intriguing thing about 'regret' is that it has very vast genre. You can regret for your mistakes, you can regret on your past , you can regret for a person,you can regret on the opportunities you didn't take,this list could go on and on.

However sometimes, small mistakes could cause you the biggest regrets in life
for instance not hearing someone out, when the person wanted to explain you something, that moment you don't realise but when that small incident becomes the reason for your miserable, regretful life, you repel it. Maybe just giving him a few more minutes could have changed everything.

The thing is you regret only when you realise your mistakes and you realise your mistakes only when you had already made mistake, when there's no point in making amends ,the damage is already done !

'And all the voices , all the goals, all the yearnings, all the sorrows all the pleasures , all the good and evil, all of them together was the world.All of them together was the stream of events, the music of life'- Hermann Hesse. This quote explains us that the good and evil together makes the world, the world consists of both but its our choice to decide which should overrule the other, good or bad?

Similarly regret is important. As said earlier we regret when we realise our mistakes. Therefore it makes us repel our actions and forbids us to make the same mistakes again. Hence we understand, regret is important.!"
I finished my speech , trying not to get emotional.

"Feeling regret reminds us to think carefully about our decisions and help us not to make the mistakes again, very well said Bella. Students regrets are also how we learn about and know what we really want . In feeling regret, we have the clarity about what outcomes and things we truly want for yourselves , therefore it not only causes us pain but teaches us a really important lesson.......I am very happy from all of you and proud to see the insight you all are developing for everything and always remember nothing is all about what it looks like, there is always a different outlook for each and everything. " Mr Richard dismissed the class with this speech.

After our last class ended I decided to visit the nearby church with Susan.
I really wanted to bring some positivity and light in my dull life.

"Hey Bella?" Susan called for me.

"Hmm."

"You're still sad because of him?"

"No absolutely not, its just who I am ."

"What are you trying to say?"

"That its me , because of whom I'm so called sad."

"Bella don't be this bitter...you know you could share anything with me. Right?"

I looked towards her and smiled.
"Yes. I know ."
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"Dear Lord please teach us to pray
For we want to know you more each day
Help us to believe every word you say............"
On entering the church we were welcomed by the melodious harmony of the chorus sung there.

"I am going to go get the candles okay."
Susan told me.

"Ah. Susan when we got off the car, Sam said something right?"

"Yes. He told he'll be back within half an hour."

"Okay."

When Susan left I began to walk, I decided to sit near the jesus , as there weren't many people here in the church maybe because it was a week day.

A boy of around eight or nine years old was sitting on the last chair of the first row, it bothered me as he was sitting there all aone.

"Do you mind me sitting here?" I asked him.

"No." He replied confidently, he was not shy or reserved to answer.

"Thankyou. " I said.

I lost in my thoughts as soon as I sat on the chair, I felt kind of drained out and as a reflex I leaned more into the chair and sighed.

"You're alone here?" That boy starled me by this question. It seemed like the roles had been reversed and he is asking me the question that I should be the one to ask.

I couldn't help but smile and chuckle softly and replied "No. Are you?"

It was the thing with kids they always succeed to bring you out of your state of agony with their innocence and cuteness.

"I am with my family."

"Hmm. But I see no one here."

"Why are you asking this are you planning to kidnap me?"

This question made me chuckle really hard but also made me confused and speechless.

He began to laugh to indicating that it was a joke from him.

"Don't worry I was just kidding." He assured.

"Ahaan. But what makes you believe that I may not kidnap you?"
I asked

"I simply know." He said, like he was some elderly mature man.

"Well that....was simple but effective. " I said.

"I know you are here with your friend. I saw you entering the church. " he told me.

"Hmm. Got eagle's eye. I see."

"Yep. And I also know that you are very sad because of something. "

"How do you know that?"

"Simple as you were sad when you entered, sad when you were talking with your friend and sad when you sat here."

"You are intelligent too."

"You too."

I raised my brows as asking "How?"

"You choose the correct place to visit , to
fade your sadness away. " he explained

"You're right. What's your name by the way , little Robin Hood?"

"Hero Roberts."

"Hmm someone gave you the perfect name."

"What's yours."

"First promise you won't kidnap me." I said earning a cute laughter from him.

"My name is...."

"Bella?" A manly and husky voice called me from behind, I knew very well who was the owner but had no courage to keep hope.

"Bella?" He called again, this time he seemed to be closer.

Hero was looking stright behind me, indicating that he was standing just behind me.

Happiness, relief, nervousness and fear
all these feelings were overflowing within me, when I was finally going to turn around and face him . Hero beats me by saying

"Harry you're back."
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AN

Dun dun dun dun dun
And here we present to you yet another cliffhanger.

Hope I'm doing my job well in keeping you intrigued with my story.

Next chapter coming up soon.

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