WHY DO I FEEL THIS WAY

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This chapter will have several different scenes so please bare with me. I think with you will understand once you start reading. Please let me know what you think and don't forget to vote.

CHAPTER 10 OMG OMG OMG

TERRENCE'S POV

As I was coming down the stairs I knew my baby was thinking about me because I felt her caress my special mark and I could begin to feel myself grow.

Now that I knew that PJ and Princess were one and the same so much made since. To say that I could be happier would be the understatement of the year.

I would let her pull her little prank and then in the morning when we met up with her brother I would let her know that she is my mate. To be honest I can't wait. I have already waited 20 years. For the last 10 years it has grown harder and harder because my wolf wanted his mate.

I remember waking up one morning when I was 14 after having an extremely wet dream getting a harsh reprimand in my head from my Aunt Jane. She told me to get my hormones under control because a 10 year old had no business experiencing that kind of thing.

Aunt Jane told me that Princess now knew about me but not who I was. That was the day we started talking and really getting to know each other.

On my 16th birthday while my brothers were out trying to see if they could find their mate I when out to my special spot in the garden. Mom is the only one who knows about it and she helped me build it. It has all the flowers that Princess says she likes. Its a place I go when I need to be close to her. Its like a small meadow with a secret entrance. I have a tire swing set up in it and there is a little pond there. Its where I want to bring Princess for all our special moments. I know that it is where I will propose.

On my 18th birthday I wanted to tell her who I was but she ask me not to. She said she wanted it to be a surprise. Its funny we know the real person. The person inside of each of us. We have talked about school and what it means to each of us. Thing is we decided not to tell what we had chosen to study and be. Again we wanted somethings to be a surprise for when we actually meet.

I know that we have a strong destiny. Aunt Jane started preparing me for it. Come to think of it she was the one who recommended I talk with Dr. Long about becoming a doctor. Everyone thinks I am being groomed to take his position with the Counsel. I was not born with the pack alpha mark but I was born with some sort of alpha mark. When I took to medicine Dad told Dr. Long about the alpha mark and well I think they just assumed that meant that I would take his position over all the doctors.

I know what my baby has been through and I know that her pranks are very good but I know that they are also how she copes with stress. I can't imagine what kind of stress she is feeling at the moment. I mean she has left everyone and thing that she holds dear to her. Until we spoke after I woke up she had no idea I was here. I am so proud of my baby. She is so strong in every way. She is smart too.

I could not believe what I say while working with her. I have seen a few strong healer in my short time because of working with Dr. Long that can hold a person's spirit to them while someone else works to repair their body or one that can knit the body back together. My baby did both at the same time with not just Tina but 3 pups as well. That was the most amazing thing I have ever seen. I could also tell that Dr. Long was amazed as well. Then there was the fact that she commanded him and he presented his neck to her. Never have I seen anything like that. My baby is strong.

So if I need to endure her pranks so she can let off some steam then that is a small price to pay for now. I am hoping that once we are fully mated she will use all that excess energy in a different way.

As I approach the game room I feel her caress the mark again. I sure hope she doesn't keep doing that because I am almost at a breaking point. I want her so bad.

Dad takes us up to his office and gets our retinal scans done and then shows us the main houses safety from for her. He tells me that it was built for her mother and how really weird it was that although it is silver lined and everything her dad could enter after they mated and it would give him strength as well. He told me that back at home there was one pretty close to this off her dad's office but he didn't think she knew about it. Her mom didn't need it until she came into her most of her powers. Sometime around the time she turned 16. That would explain why Princess didn't know about it. Of course dad was telling me all this though our link so Princess couldn't hear. She did give him that look that said she knew we were talking about her and he told her that he was just explaining what would need to be done and the technical aspects of it. Which he did.

Dad also informed me that he knew what Princess was to me and that we would be having a strong talk later. After all I had kept a major secret from him and as my father and Alpha I don't think he liked it too much. To be honest I am not looking forward to that talk.

As we were looking at the room and then going back to the family she told me that she had talked with her mate earlier and that my brothers knew who he was but wouldn't tell her. For that I was glad because she needed to find that out from me. She then told me that they had decided that pulling a prank on me was not such a good idea. She told me what they suggested about teasing her mate. I asked her if she was going to do it and she said no that she loved him too much to do that. For that I was glad because I would never make it if she did.

I could tell that my brothers were up to something when we entered the room again. All through dinner they kept saying things that would send Princess into deep thought and she would reach up and rub her mark. They knew exactly what they were doing and before this night is over I am going to put them in there place.

Every time throughout the dinner when Princess has reached up and rubbed her ear I have spoken to her through our special link. I've asked her what she is doing and what she is thinking. She has done the same to me. Of course she hasn't put it together that I am sitting next to her. I did tell her that if she didn't stop I might just have to find her tonight. She laughed out loud at that one and told me she would be waiting at her cottage after dinner for me. I think that only made her rub it more.

As Mom gets up to go get dinner I decide I can't take anymore and ask to be excused. As I stand I know that everyone at the table can see that I have the biggest hard on. I look down at my Princess and lean over and kiss my mark and whisper "PRINCESS " in her ear as I scoop her up in my arms bridal style and walk out the door.

"Oh My God, Oh My God" was all she could say at first. "I'm so sorry Terrence I didn't mean to torment you. OMG your are huge." She was so cute with her rambling but it was all I could do at this point to hold back. I ran as fast as I could and when we got to her cottage I didn't dare go in. I backed her against the door and gave her the kiss I have dreamed of for years.

"Princess I wanted this to be different but after tonight the only way to keep my wolf at bay right now is to mark you." I said as I licked down her neck and tried my hardest to hold him back. We licked the area we would bite until she was moaning. I felt her doing the same thing to my neck and shoulder area. When I bit down on that special spot I felt her canines do the same to me. I think I just grew another inch in length as well as diameter and I am huge already. Most wolves are big anyway but you can say even before the extra growth I am bigger.

After cleaning up each others marks I lean down and place my forehead against hers and look deep into her eyes. I am in total amazement because all I can see is love in her eye. The sweet thing is it is her eyes not her wolf's. She is still masking so we don't feel the the normal wolf mating signs. I really think its a good thing because if we did I would have lost complete control.

"Baby girl, if I don't leave right now I will not be able to control my wolf. I will not let our first time be controlled by him. I will be back after I let him out and work off some steam. I want you to go in your house and relax. When I come back we will talk. Okay." As soon as I know she is safe in the cottage I take off back to the house.

Our house though it is the pack house only has the Alpha's family in it. We have given everyone else their own home and then we have a teenagers apartment complex close to the main house.

TOM ---TAD GET OUT HERE!!!! I yell through the family link but I know some must of leaked over the common link or else the teenagers one felt my anger because they came out too.

"Now Terrence it was just a prank." Tad said a little afraid.

"Now Terrence you know you can't fight me. I'll be taking over as Alpha in a couple of weeks and I am so much stronger than you. Tad is the Beta so you have no chance." He says as I take off my shirt and prepare to take on both my brothers.

"Look as his shoulder and back" A teenage girl says.

"That's a cool tat. Looks tribal." Another boy says.

"Oh shit" I hear my dad say.

"Terrence, they didn't mean any harm" my dad continues.

"Doesn't matter what their intent was. I almost raped my mate because of their little prank." I said as I turned to my dad and he saw my eyes flash red.

"My wolf is demanding blood or sex. I think I'll take the blood. I have waited 20 years for my mate and I will let my wolf take her in a crude manner the first time. That means these two are going to get the beating of their lives. I promise not to kill them but they will be close." I say.

"You really think you can take both of us. You are 3rd and we are higher." Tom boast.

"UHHH Tom he's not third. Uhhhh he actually is a lot more powerful that maybe any other wolf. Truth is I am not sure if he or James is more powerful." My Dad says.

"What are you talking about?" Tad ask.

I see my mother and Tina come outside and hear my mother gasping for air.

"Son you bear the Royal Mark!" Mom says in total shock.

"I thought that the last King and Queen Werewolves died 42 years ago. Actualy the family was murdered not to far from here." Another teen said. "What???? I'm doing my history project on them. They had a daughter that was never found."

"She was found" my dad says quietly.

"As you have endanger your Queen with a foolish prank you are sentenced to a beating by me." My wolf has taken over and apparently he has the authority because I see both my parents bowing.

"Dad" Tom says pleading "do something."

"Are you stupid son. Your prank almost caused Terrence's wolf to rape Princess. Had that happened by were law not only would you be dead but so would your mate and pups. She is your future Queen. Have you never wondered why she is named Princess. You knew that your Aunt Jane was of royal blood. I have made it no secret with my family. You know the story of how she was adopted. Just because the rest of the world didn't know didn't mean you were ignorant. Maybe because you called her PJ your brain flew out the window." My dad told my brothers.

Turning to me he continued. "Son you will need your brothers. I know that they have angered your wolf, but please try to gain control over him."

"Your son is in agreement with me on the punishment. I will teach these two a lesson and Tina for your part in this since you are carrying 3 pups that my mate already loves and worked hard to save You will not be able to shift unless commanded by myself or Princess until after the birth. The only exception will be to save Princess' life or the pups. Is that understood." I say to everyone.

"Be it known I love a good prank but there are limits to what makes a good prank. Mates and God are never something to laugh about. The family itself is sacred and never to be taken as something trivial. That is why wolves are getting stronger while humans are growing weak, because we see families as important." My wolf says.

"Tom do you choose to fight or take a beating? Let me warn you the beating is the better choice." My wolf asks.

"Ummm Terrence I'll take a flogging. Isn't that what the law requires?" Tad says as he hangs his head in shame.

"Are you crazy Tad? You know we can take him this is bull." Tom says.

"Tom you are the crazy one. I remember the royal markings and that is them. Not to mention you have never won a fight against Terrence and neither have I" Tad says to Tom.

"I've never lost one either." He smirks.

"You idiot...Terrence could take both of us when sparing and it would still be a draw. Did you ever wonder why? He would also not break a sweat when doing it. You were so hung up on the fact you were the next Alpha you couldn't see what was right in front of you." Tad says as he walks to the porch to wait then turns around and gets on one knee. "Your Highness Sir, I am truly sorry for my part in what happened. I love my brother and I love PJ as my sister and always have. I will give my life for either." He says brokenly.

"Tom what do you say?" My wolf ask.

"Bring it on. I think I can take you?" Tom says.

"No remorse then? Okay Tina your mate needs to learn and learn he will." I tell her.

"Your Highness Sir please show him a little mercy. I still need his help." Tina says bowing.

"Son don't forget we have to go in search of the rogues in the morning." My father reminds me.

"Then in the morning if Princess so chooses she can heal them." I said as I watched my brother turn into his big black wolf preparing to attack.

This goes on for about 10 minutes. Him coming at me in wolf form and me still in human form throwing him against a tree, the house, a car whatever there was near.

BABY PLEASE STOP. TOM HAS HAD ENOUGH. HIS BACK IS ALREADY FRACTURED AND I AM AFRAID ONE MORE THROW WILL DO MORE DAMAGE THAN I CAN HEAL IF I AM TO HELP TOMORROW.

"Will you submit Tom? You haven't even touched me and I am still in my human form. You know you can never win and my mate is pleading for you at the moment." My wolf says.

"Yes Your Majesty. I am truly sorry for challenging you as well as using PJ as an unwilling pawn to pull a joke on you. I never dreamed it would get to the point it did." He says bowing.

He can't get up so I have Dad and Tad take him to the pack infirmary and instruct Tina to stay while Tad to come back.

"Tina do you remember when Tom marked you?" My wolf asks her.

"Yes Sir."

"Was it something you want to remember?"

"Yes Sir" she answers.

"Because of the prank you instigated and yes I know that it started at your nudging. You stole that from your best friend and sister? I was so far gone that had I not marked her like I did I would have taken her. I am not proud of that and I hope you realize she was just moments away of being taken by me not my human. We has waited 20 years knowing she is our mate. Every time she caressed her royal marking it wasn't like she was stroking me but more like she was taking me inside her mouth. When that happened and she was at a distant from me it was the most pleasure I could hope for but with it happening at the table in front of my family...well you can imagine. Tina I am also very disappointed in you because you more than anyone here even me know and have seen her powers. What could have processed you to do something like this? Please Tina start thinking before you do things. She needs you and will in the coming years. You have been groomed as a Royal Beta to her. Aunt Jane saw to that. That was the reason you were sent here to begin with. The fact you are Tom's Luna is just an added bonus. Now go take care of that hard headed brother of mine." I said. Yes I am back in control now not my wolf.

"Terrence is that you or its it still your wolf?" A humbled Tad comes back.

"Its me brother." I respond tired.

"Well I am here for my punishment." He says.

"I think we are going to show mercy on you. I am tired but my wolf is not. I need to go for a run. Your punishment has changed. I want you to go for a run with me and we need to talk." I tell him.

"Are you sure?" Tad says.

"HAhahaha don't think it will be that easy. I have always been the strongest and fastest in the family but with the royal kicking in I have changed." I tell him. "Let's go to the woods and change."

As I change I notice my brother bow in wolf form when he sees me.

What is the deal? I ask him through our link.

Uhummm you are huge and silver. I mean your fur is like real silver. You are like 3 times the size you were and you were already as big as dad and Tom. This just happened because you marked her? Are you sure you didn't you know mate?" Tad links

Well....ummm...I didn't just mark her, she marked me as well.

ARE YOU KIDDING ... SHE MARKED YOU AS WELL. MOST SHE-WOLVES DON'T DO THAT ANYMORE. Tad links.

I KNOW AND IF THEY DO THEY WAIT TIL THEY ARE FULLY MATED. I link back to him.

I WONDER WHY THAT IS?

WELL IT MIGHT HAVE SOMETHING TO DO WITH THAT FACT THAT SHE SHARES SOME OF POWERS SHE HAS AS WELL AS IT MAKES IT ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE FOR HER TO LIVE WITHOUT ME. EVEN THOUGH WE AREN'T FULLY MATED I REALLY NEED HER TOUCH RIGHT NOW. I DON'T MEAN WANT I MEAN NEED. TRUTH IS I AM AFRAID IF I DON'T WEAR MY WOLF OUT I WILL NOT BE ABLE TO CONTROL HIM.

SO BRO WHAT IS THE PROBLEM? JUST MATE HER. I'M SURE SHE WILL UNDERSTAND. Tad links back with a wolfie grin.

THE PROBLEM IS THAT I PROMISED HER MOTHER THAT WE WOULD BE MARRIED BEFORE I MATED HER. I STILL HAVEN'T ASKED HER YET. ALL THIS HAPPENED QUICKER THAN I THOUGHT BECAUSE OF THAT PRANK.

OH WOW!!! HEY BRO?

YES?

IS THIS CAUSING YOU LIKE ACTUAL PHYSICAL PAIN? Tad asks though the link.

YES AND SHE FEELS IT TOO. I THINK I AM ABOUT TO GO TO HER AND JUST HOLD HER. I HOPE THAT WILL PUSH THE PAIN AWAY. And with that I head to her cottage.

"Princess I'm home." I yell as I step into the cottage.

"Please hold me." She says with pain lacing her voice.

"Baby why didn't you tell me. I would have come sooner." I tell her.

"Because you needed your time to work things out with everyone."

"Baby girl look at me." I say as I turn her face to mine.

"YOU come first. YOU have always come first. Everything I do I do with you in mind. Your mother told me you would be a healer and suggested I could help you if I went to Medical School so I did. Now don't get me wrong I love it and can see it was right for me. I also have a degree in business, because I knew I would be at your side. I have thanked the good Lord everyday of your life for you. You are mine and I am yours. I love you Princess. I love you with everything I am. Do you understand that? No one will ever come close to you. When we have pups well together we will love them. But You my Dear are my life." I tell my beautiful mate.

"I love you too." She says with tears in her eyes.

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THE PICUTER AT THE SIDE IS A QUICK VIEW OF HER COTTAGE HIDEN IN THE WOODS.

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