Renesmee pov

This is get to much I do not know if I can keep talking to the dead it is get away to much for it us start to take  atoll on me "shut up" I yell it a ghost that u do not know who it is "shut up shut up" I keep saying over and over but it well not leave me alone

"I want you to help me " they say "NO I CAN NOT HELP YOU I DO NOT KNOW WHAT IM AM DOING IM AM JUST A KID PLEASE JUST LEAVE ME ALONE !!!!!!??" I keep saying over but they just keep going on and on

To the point it feels like I'm am going crazy which I'm probably am but I do not have time for that not when the fight is coming up in a week

I can not let this take atoll on me but it is get to the point where I have to turn off my gift sometime just to leave me alone but that do not always work

I keep have to fight all the voice in my head I can here whatever one is thinking and it is all to much for me the voice well not stop

No matter what I try I can still here them and I wish they would just leave me alone but they well not

"Ness are you okay?" Jacob asked as of right now I'm am in a ball in my room crying because I still can hear the voices and I do not know how to stop them I do not know how to turn them off I was I did but I do not

"The voices in head I still can here them and I do not know if they are real or not but they are so loud and they well not stop telling me to do things bad thing thing I would never do and  I'm am scared" I tell him

He hug me telling me that everything well be okay and how he would always be there for me if and when I needed him and right now I do need him when he is with me the voices go away but when he is not with me they come back

I do not like that gift I think that I'm am going to go ahead and bring Marcus and didym jane and Jasper back so I can turn off that gift for good and never have to use it again but if I bring them back before we could get rid of Aro and Cauis and this vampire who is helping them

We could be right back to step one and we do not want that I do not want that I just have to keep fighting them

They keep telling me that I'm am not enough that I could never take them out because I'm am a kid and that was nothing and that I should just give up

But I can not give up and I have to keep fighting for the vampire world Aro and Cauis do not know what they are doing and they are evil

Only thing they care about is power but that is not what being a king is about yes power is good but to much of it could and would be bad .

You always well have someone hurting and that is way are going to stop them and we well win  no matter what it takes