I'm am happy here with my wife the love of life it been hell without her but I also miss our family as well but I do not want to live if I do not have a wife with me but that would mean to leave our family

Renemesee pov

"Come back to us uncle jazz we love you and miss you," I say holding his hand "please do not leave us we could help you. "

"But if you want to let go and with jane forever that is okay with me, " I tell him

I also do not want him to be in pain if he stays. I then kiss him and lift the room

*back to jasper POV*

I'm am happy here and I want to keep being happy with my wife I was in so much pain when I was on earth because I did not have jane with me and now I do but I also know that it would hurt our family to lose someone else I know that they would not want me to be in pain and I had not been myself

Without jane with me i was so lose with out her by my said and I do not want to feel like that again I was so much pain so much hurt broke and I know my family could feel everything that I was feeling even though I stay away from them

Edward could hear my thoughts and knew I was pain he knew that I was getting worse and not better

Not matter how much they tried to help and they knew that I can not leave with out jane it hurts a lot

I do not know what I want to do should I stay or should I go to earth and have them feel everything that I feel I do not want them to have hurt like I'm am it is not fair to them what do ever

I just do not want to be in pain no more I do not want them to have to feel my pain I want them to keep on living and not have to worry about me worried that if I'm am okay they would no know

That I was at peace and not in pain ever minute of the day they know that I was okay and that they well be okay without me

I do not want to hurt them I do not want to be in pain no more I do not want to keep having to keep saying that I'm am okay when I'm am not that I'm am not okay

I know they love and would want me to be happy but I know that they well be sad if I did not stay with them but they also know that I would be in pain again

They would not want me to be in pain they want me to be happy even if it makes them unhappy.

They just want what bes for me I know I have not been there like I should have been for the last 100 years and the pain I felt doing that time was like going there the transformation all over again everyday and everynight for the last hundred years

And I would not want anyone to feel that lost that jacob and I had to know I know what Jacob want thought before we found Renesmee again and he is right that is the wrost pain to ever go though to lose the love if your life

Not know if they are okay or not and that something that no one would ever understand and now I understand what he mant when he said he would never want anyone to feel that pain

I know what I want to do I just hope they could live with the choice that I'm am making I know that they well be okay but just hope they well not hate me for it