That was lazy and boring day. Since TVXQ weren’t together, days were exactly like that.

While every of members were been anywhere, our Jae was spending his days totally by his own. He had to  reject every invitation for V.I.P ‘ Party or even his parents’ invitation to visit them.

Jae was just spending the whole time all alone.

   In a certain day he had been in his agency’s building. He needed talk to his main manager. He was  waiting in the waiting room, when he noticed Shinee’s members. They were all except Lee Jinki-theirs leader.

„Annyeong Hyung”Jae heard.

He was thoughtful so he didn’t  noticed nobody.

„Erm, who are you?” Jae asked the medium-height boy.

„It’s me, hyungie. It’s me” the boy said happily and hugged itself  to Jae.

„Really?” Jae asked slightly confused.

„Yup ^O^”

But Jae didn’t remember that boy’s  name. Since he was  rejected by Luhan, he stated that his life doesn’t make a sense.

He was looking in his phone. He had hoped that  Luhan is  still his saengie, no matter what.

Lee Taemin took a seat next to Jaejoong when Jae  pushed him lightly.

„Does hyung still don’t remember me?” he pouted sadly. „It-It’s your dongsaeng Taemin…”

„Erm..” he dove to his thoughts. „Were you  really been Lee Taemin?”  he said a question.

“Omo! Hyung, you’re right” the other male squealed. “Nae, nae. Taemin is my name” the younger male said.

“Oh, yeah. You’re the unique Taemin from Shinee”

“Yeah!” The younger nodded again.

“Mian, I sometimes have amnesia…”

“Amnesia? Since when?” Taemin asked and widened his eyes.

“It’s just…” Jaejoong started.

“So, um-like you don’t remember anything?”

Taemin cutted Jaejoong’s sentence.

“Yeah, but this is only um, temporary amnesia”

“Ah, I see.” Taemin said and rubbed the back of his neck. “So, you wanna a cup of coffee? Green tea? Anything warm?” Taemin attacked Jaejoong with his questions.

“We’re in SM building. I came only for  a walk” Jaejoong explained.

“Mind me joining  you then?” Taemin asked.

And Jae felt a little…awkwardly by  Taemin’s hyperactivness.

“Okay, but chill down. You make me embarrassed.” Jaejoong said.

Taemin nodded.

“Mm. I don’t-By the way, do you mind me still calling you hyung?” he asked suddenly.

“You can call me hyung as long as you want” Jaejoong said.

“Yeah, of course.”

“Um, by the way.. um, Taemin-ah, what are you doing here?”

“What do you mean?”

“Here, in the SM’ building?”

“Uh…I came with mates, we have to start with our new schedule. And I had hoped that I’ll see you there. And here you are, hyung ^^” Taemin said. “What about you, hyung” he added and tilted his head.

“I went outside for a simply walk. And I am here because all of sudden. The main manager wanted me to come here” Jaejoong explained and Taemin just nodded.

“Go to your manager hyungie, I’ll wait.” Jaejoong heard.

~         ~        ~

 After some minutes he went out from his manager’s room. And that what did he noticed was Taemin.

“Did you were here all the time…” Jae said  to the younger.

“Yes, I told you” he got  reply back. “are you  done with your business  here?”

“Hm? Ah, yea…”

“Then, what do you think we are gonna go outside?” Taemin offered.

       Before Jaejoong replied for him, Taemin grabbed him by his wrist and they went outside. When Taemin and Jaejoong were at the park, Jaejoong felt really awkward.

“I uh…I think I am gonna back my home. I am hungry so badly” he said.

“What about you sit on the  bench and I’ll grab something fast to eat? Nae?” Taemin offered and smiled.

“I uh…I think I am agree.” Jaejoong gave up, and gave positive reply for Taemin.

       Taemin was smiling and he gone to the near supermarket. He bought some food, mostly candies, and he came back.

“Look hyung. I brought a  lot of banana milk!” Taemin said happily.

“Wow…”the uncalled sound escaped off Jaejoong’s mouth. “Well, enjoy your food saengie”

“Eat all of them with me~ ” Taemin pleaded. 

He widens the whole of the bag and pulls out a gummy bears and the sound ‘yummy’ escaped his mouth as well.

Jaejoong just smiled slightly.

“I think that I can’t…”

Taemin smiled and gave for Jae some.

“Here, eat! Quick, quick.” Tae demanded.

Jaejoong took the candies from Taemin and sipped some of banana milk. ”Umm, saengie…Do you have someone you like?” Jaejoong asked.

“Someone?” Tae blinked. “Not really. Does hyung have one?” he asked, giggled as well. And he did noticed what Jaejoong do with one gummy bear.

“No, no hyung. You should put four in your mouth then chew, It’ll be more tasteful.”

He opened another banana milk’  cartoon and sipped.

“Eh? Did you think that? Then I have someone? Why?”Jaejoong cared about asking  Taemin.

“Because you’re pretty handsome and hot” he widened eyes and blushed instantly.

Then he pouted. “Say ‘ah~’ hyung” and he held some gummy bears in his palms.

“Don’t say  that. Are you a fan-boy of myself? Yah>w< Don’t you try to blush at me anymore” Jaejoong gently scolded  him.

“S-Sorry.”Taemin cupped his cheeks and he also scratched his head and nodded. “Okay then” he add and ate them instead.

“Mianhe, but I felt embarrassed already.”

Taemin smiled a bit and shook his head slightly.

“Arasso hyung. Don’t mention…”

“Hey, Taeminnie. I have idea. And I’m pretty sure you’ll like it ^^”Jaejoong changed topic.

Tae looked at him curiously.

“What is it, hyung?” he asked.

“We are gonna go to the  club. And I know a lot girls. They’re really nice, and you’ll like them”

~~~

    By all way Tae was nervous.

“No, no, no…” He kept mumbling as soon as they get in club.  “Please, no hyung. I don’t even know how to start a converse and-and! hyung!!” he clung to Jaejoong as close as he can and hides  behind his back.

Jaejoong came nearer to those girls.

“Hi girls. Do you know me? Hm? Who is he? He is my saengie, Taemin. A bit shy but really nice.” Jaejoong felt so free in talk with randomly girls. “Wanna know him? Okay.”

Jaejoong made a sign for Tae to come in.

Taemin stared at him in shock and bitten his lip.

He also came to him.

“H-hyung, I’m not a good talker” he whispered.

Jaejoong smiled at him, he patted his back and pulled him in front of those girls.

“Meet my saengie-Taemin”Jaejoong said to girls.

“annyeong~ ” he said and waved shyly, feeling a bit uncomfortable.

“Yeah,yeah. He is nice, see? As I said he is my saengie. Excuse me? Are you f***** kidding me? How even could you named him a pet?! >.< You girls are insane. I f**** hate person like you!” Jaejoong  felt so angry when he had heard those girls’ talk about Taemin. Without permission he slapped face both of them. “We’re going out Taemin” he said to younger male.

He was watching Jaejoong who was talking with girls. Taemin hidden himself behind Jaejoong’s back and he frowned .

“A…pet?” he mumbled quietly and widened his eyes as Jae slapped girl.

Then  he let for Jae drag him out.

“H-Hyung, you can’t hit a girl…” Taemin spoke fastingy.

“They were using harsh words about you. And that would’ve been even strange if I will not be able to slap them”

Taemin nodded his head slowly.

“But Hyung, you could have just let go of the topic” While he was telling this he smiled. “It’s really ok…” and Taemin hugged him slightly so he won’t  shock Jae like the first time. Taemin blushed also and lowered his head so Jae won’t  see it. “I actually do…spend my time with you” Tae added.

Jaejoong was surprised.

“Oh, I see. But you have not to spend the whole time with me. You have your responsibilities…right?” Jaejoong stated.

Taemin looked at him then down.

“O-Okay h-hyung…” he mumbled.

“We will see each other later” Jaejoong  said.

Taemin smiled slightly and nodded.

“Hey, umm.. look  I…I have another responsibilities. Oh! Maybe you want me to call for a cab?” Jaejoong offered.

“You seem to want to run of me already…” Taemin noticed and he mumbled inaudibly. “I mean, not really” and he smiled a bit.

“Ugh, that was nice to see you, dongsaeng, but I have to go” with every second Jae was  feeling awkward  around Taemin.

Taemin scratched his nape and bite his lip.

“H-“he bites his lips harder so he won’t call after him.

                                      ***

     Jaejoong took  his way   to his own house. He tried to not to think about today, but he failed. He still had thoughts about  Taemin and his words.

                                    ***

   Taemin went back home and Jaejoong hyung was all in his mind. He just can’t stop to  think about his hyung…

When he was in his home he immediately went to sleep without doing anything else. He hugged pillow , and was sleeping in a crouched position.

      In the same time Jaejoong decided to go outside. He hadn’t  idea what to buy;he goes inside the candies-shop.

                                      ***

Taemin was kicked out by his leader, Onew, to buy some necessary things. He gone to a candies shop instead. He widened his eyes and hidden itself. *It’s Jaejoong Hyung…What’s he doing here?* He thought and giggled and decided to  follow him quietly. Jae was looking for any candies.

He chose some boxes of them, but he also found a special section with bathroom’s stuff. He didn’t know that Tae is watching him, so he chose  a  shower-baby frog.

Taemin giggled  and kept stalking him. He clumsily  fell and shrieked.

“Ouch!”

He rubbed his nose.

Jaejoong heard that sound and he instantly came and raised him up from the floor. Tae was looking up at him and pouted for being caught.

“Saengie… what are you doing?”

Taemin looks up at Jae and pouts for being caught.

“Well, I was sent here to  buy-wait. Did you say I am young poor boy? I’m not young. I’m legal already.” Taemin said and pouts his head. “Thanks” he  thanked and he stood up with Jaejoong’s little help and he also kept rubbing his nose. Taemin was blushing slightly. “Gomawo hyung. You’re so kind”  he repeated also smiled sheepishly. Jaejoong  was wiping Taemin’s bleeding nose gently.

“Aww, my nose is better now!”

“You’re really clumsy, saeng”.

“I think…it was just hard impact” Taemin stated and stares at the ground.” I’m not that clumsy , h-hyung!”

Jae was hearing him all the time, feeling sorry for.

“I-It’s maybe…Onew hyung has rubbed that on me” Taemin said and pouted.

“Tsch, this guy…I wanna just scold him. He shouldn’t sent you if he knew that you can fall into troubles, because of your clumsiness. He should’ve get his lazy butt up and go by his own.” Jae said. “And there’s nothing to be thankful”

“But it’s funny, and…and, hyung you’re so nice!” Tae said and giggles. “You really do? It’s  just because I was sleeping all day since I’ve left you and  they’re all exhausted so I was sent” Taemin was continuing while he nods. ”Wait, why’d you scold him?” he asked and blinks. Jaejoong was laughing.

 “Wae you laughing? You don’t believe me? :3” Taemin pouts.

“I just don’t want  you to be hurt or something. Even if  it’s your Onew hyung… And I kinda feel sleepy so I will go, And be careful next time, saengie” he said and kissed Taemin’s nose gently before he gone.

Taemin smiled widely.

“Hyung’s gonna protect me from anyone who’d dare to hurt me, right? So no one will even hurt me” he said. “Nae, you should get some rest as well! B-bye hyung! See ya!”  he stunned and blushed when he got the little kiss then he jogs away while turning red.

        ~          ~

       They met each other next day.

Jaejoong was on  his walk as usual.

“Hi again hyung” he heard Taemin’s voice. The young boy blinks as well.

“Hi” Jae welcomed him somehow without strength. “ I somehow don’t feel well…”

“Me too”

“Well, you should go home now..”

“You need rest as well…you seem restless”

“But I didn’t say I feel sleepy…But this place I wanna go, you are not allow to be…” Jaejoong said and Tae smiles.

“But hyung I can manage~ I am not that young anymore”

“So amm…Wanna go somewhere? Or just forget.”

But Taemin blushed and let for Jae dragged him nevertheless.

“You always are talking about your lovely Onew. Maybe you’d love go and spend your time with him?!” Jae suddenly burnt out of emotions.

“No, no hyung. I didn’t mean like that!”  Tae erased his hyung’s words, still following him and he holds his hand. “I wanna be with you. I’m just…shy.” He said and looks at jae shyly. But Jaejoong felt very bad so he didn’t say nothing.

“Hyung, say something” Tae tried to talk to him and he nudges Jaejoong.

“You should go home” Jaejoong said coldly, and started to go.

Taemin cringes a bit.

“Y-yeah…I-I can go if you don’t want  me…” He mumbled and smiled slightly.

While Jae was on his way to his home Taemin was sticking to his hyung’s side and stays silent but then he followed Jae quietly.

As near as Jae came and opened the door he noticed Taemin.

“I’ll stay with you” Jaejoong  heard.

“Ah, umm…then umm…” he couldn’t find right words, he only pushed Taemin inside his house.

Taemin was  fiddles with his fingers as Jae was pulling him inside.

“Hyung, where are the other members? They’re asleep already, I assume?” Taemin asked.

“No, the whole house is my. And the rest are in their own homes.”Jaejoong explained.

While Jaejoong was explaining, Taemin smiled and shifts on his feet already.

“Waah, that’s interesting”

Jaejoong shortly nodded and went to living room to prepare bed for his guest.

“I only can offer this. Sorry if the pillow isn’t too much big.”  Jaejoong said.

Taemin snuggled to the blanket and sniffs on his hyung’s scent on the pillow.

“It’s big enough, hyung >.< “ he said, while smiles and nods obediently. “Sleep next to me hyung?” he asked and leaned to his touch.

“I can’t but I can offer you ‘someone’ back” Jaejoong answered.

“Ah?” Tae looks at him curiously. “Oh, arasso hyungie”

Jaejoong went to his own room and came back with white big plushie.  Taemin took the plushie and hugged it closely to his chest. “shooo cute” he said while rubs his nose with its nose and snuggles with it. “Goodnight hyung!” he wished also he closed eyes.

“Sleep well saengie” Jaejoong mumbled, he kissed gently  Taemin’s forehead before he gone to his own room with plushies. He didn’t see that Taemin was  snuggling closer to the plushie, and sleeping in a crouched  usual sleeping position, also mumbles few words in its fur. He was sleeping soon too, while Taemin keeps sleeping while snoring softly.

*     *     *

        In fact Jaejoong couldn’t sleep. He looked up at the door to his own room where Taemin was sleeping.

He was still sleeping on the couch so he didn’t know that Taemin was waking up now in the morning and was rubbing his eyes. Jae didn’t know that Taemin was looking around and mumbled: “Hyung didn’t you sleep yesterday…?”

Taemin goes to the living room and rubbed his eyes when he saw still asleep his hyung…but on the couch. He frowned.

“Why did you sleep on the couch hyungie…It’s not comfortable.” Taemin said but he wasn’t hearing by Jaejoong. Taemin came closer and shakes his hyung gently.

“Hyung~…” he whispers. “ I‘m hungry” he said and pouts.

“Mhm,’kay. But go to the bathroom first and wash yourself, nae? And make sure your nose didn’t catch any infection.” Jaejoong instructed his saengie while got up from the couch. “You… know where’s bathroom ?” he asks.

Taemin scrunches  up his nose.

“Yeah, maybe…”he answered, scratching head and goes, searching for the bathroom. “Here you are!” he said happily, while goes in and washes his face and all. Then he goes to the living room.

Jae was  still cooking in the kitchen. When he was done, he prepared the table with breakfast. There were little plate with pudding, waffles and also Taemin’s favourite banana milk. During time Taemin goes to kitchen and stares.

“This-you-food..- “  he blinks, can’t form a proper sentence.

“M-Mianhe. I didn’t know if you’ll like it. If you  wanna  you can throw this into trash” Jae said.

“No, I mean…”he started and couldn’t help but blushes in embarrassment. “You did that by yourself?” He gestured for the food on the table.

“No, from  shop” he answered, pretending that he is mad. “I made it of course. I don’t need to buy when I am great at cooking and baking” Jae said.

“WOAH!” Taemin was all happy. “Gomawo hyung” he exclaims happily, sitting down, excited. “Sit down, quick. ,>w< “ Taemin adds.

“Me? But it’s amm…it’s all for you.”

Taemin holds his hyung’s hand before Jae pushed his own hand away.

“Hyung, you aren’t eating with me?” he asks and Jae answered with his ‘No’.

“Besides, there are a lots things to do, like cleaning…” Jaejoong stated.

“Why don’t you eat with me then I’ll help you clean the house” Taemin smiled.

“Just eat, okay?” And I can’t eat now, I’m full” Jaejoong said. Taemin was looking up at Jaejoong then he looks down. And he nods.

“a-arasso.” He started eating.

Jaejoong entered to the living room,he ripped the piece of paper he was writing day ago and throws it into trash.

Taemin was sipping his cocktail and discreetly looking at Jaejoong, through the opened door, and wondering what did Jae is throwing away.

“Aish, I just always am forcing him by myself. How could I even…  thought, that…”

While Jaejoong was scolding  himself, he didn’t  know that Taemin is looking at him  and frowning. “C’mon, you need go  to home” Jae said and gone outside and opened the door of his car.

“Eh? N-nae hyung” Taemin was confused now.

“Hmm, but you have to tell me the address first” Jae stated  as he was driving.

“I’m sorry to burden you hyung…” Taemin mumbled before he was telling for Jae the address also he fiddles with his own fingers, and was looking out of the window.

“H-Hey..” he couldn’t finish, Taemin sent him weak smile.

“I-Is it there, Taemin-ah?” Jaejoong asked after  few minutes. Taemin nodded.

“Nae hyung! Gomawo!” he pulled the seatbelt off and opened the door also he gets out and waves. “Bye hyung ^^ “

      Jaejoong drove back to his home.

      Taemin flinched and went inside his and his members’ house. He sits down on the couch and spaces out.

*Hyung…why do you make me confused…*he mumbled.

He didn’t know what to do so he went to go to take shower and then ate. Then he is sleeping on the couch again. He caught a cushion and continuing his sleep.

      During the time Jae came back his own house but he couldn’t sleep.

      Taemin had shifts in his sleep and buries his face in the cushion, his shirt is lifting up just a little bit and he snores softly. Then he frowned while he heard some noises in the hall way. He ignores the noises and decided to go back to dreamland. He didn’t  notice Jae who was drunken. But he-Taemin- stiffens and relaxes after few seconds after recognizing that it’s his hyung. Taemin hugged him and buried his face in Jaejoong’s chest unconsciously.

       On the very early morning Jaejoong just noticed what did he do so he quickly leaved Taemin’s house, blaming and scolding himself as usual.

He didn’t pay attention when he was coming back to his home. He was still a bit drunk.  During the time Taemin woke up. He realized that he lost the warmth.

*What happened…*he mumbled to himself while frowned. He also gone to the balcony with a blanket around his body. He sat down on a chair and was looking out at the dark city while wrapping the blanket  around him tighter.

                *     *    *

        The days and weeks were passing away. Taemin was missing  of meetings with his Jae hyung. After very very very very long long long long long long waiting for  long time he was getting worried. He made decision and wanted to visit Jaejoong.

He goes to Jaejoong’s mansion by taxi.

When he came, he knocked on the door.

“Hyung, are you inside?” He calls out softly. Jaejoong was taking shower so he didn’t hear.

“Hyung?!” Taemin’s knocks became  harder.

Then he-Jae- fall asleep really fast.

     Taemin came at Jaejoong’s mansion next day.

He was a bit nervous of what Jaejoong’s reply is going to be.

He knocked to the door again.

Jaejoong was finishing his shower time. He hears the knock to the door.

*Who?*he thought. With towel on his lower part of his body he goes to the door and opens.

Taemin was pursing his lips into a thin line. He also gasps softly and looks down at Jaejoong’s body then quickly averts his eyes to look at his hyung’s face, blushing furiously.

“H-hyung, hi~”

Jaejoong raises brows up.

“Excuse me? Who are you?” “ he asked.

Taemin was staring at Jae, getting a bit hurt.

“Hyung, I know I didn’t visit you a lot and all… but you really forgot about me already?”Taemin mumbled.

Jaejoong gave for his guest  tightly hug.

“I don’t know. I had accident, the doctor told me yesterday, and I can… don’t remember all. If you were  my saengie I am really sorry” he gestured at Taemin. “Go indside, please. I prepared breakfast. Wanna?”

Taemin getting surprised a bit with the hug but he smiles softly and hugs his hyung back.

“N-Nae?” Tae, gasps, his eyebrows knitted. “ I’m not hungry, I just ate, gomawo though” Taemin smiled and obediently walks in.

Jaejoong walked to the kitchen, and unpacked the box of Banana milk.

“H-Hyung!” Tae exclaims a bit loudly. “ You know I like banana milk?”

“Ouh…” Jae felt unconscious and he grabs the counter of the table.” F**k, my head. ...what’s wrong?”

Taemin was looking at Jaejoong with worried-filled eyes.

“H-Hyung, what do you mean…what’s wrong?” he rushed to Jaejoong’s side.

But Jaejoong shook his head.

“Uhhh..it’s nothing” he said giving for Taemin the new box of Banana milk. “Here, you can drink. I am gonna take a nap… Holy crap! This is because of that accident…” Jaejoong mumbled something and tries to go to his room.

Taemin tails behind  Jaejoong like puppy, sipping from the cartoon.

“Hyung, can you… tell me about that accident?” Taemin asks hastily.

Jaejoong was looking at him while the ‘hmm…’  sound escaped his mouth.

Taemin tilts his head slightly.

“You don’t have  to force yourself in telling me…” he mumbled. Then Jaejoong sat on the chair.

“Well, after that  accident  my head is in pain. I feel like  I was losing someone who I liked but I don’t remember that name of that person. And  I  have feeling like that that was two days ago and I just feel  comfy around banana dairy products like never before.”  That was confession’s time and Jae was continuing drinks his Banana  milk. Taemin was listening to carefully and biting his lower lip.

“Banana dairy products? Would it..nono, I don’t think..” he kept mumbling to himself the last part inaudibly.  “Aish >.<”

Jaejoong ruffled Taemin’s hair.

“Hey, what’s wrong with that face? It’s not your fault at least. I should’ve been careful when I was driving, right? But I…ugh… I have had a lot of alcohol in myself when I was driving, then…” at this moment he took break and sipped on the Banana

milk. “It’s really good…”

Taemin was smiling when Jae ruffled his hair and fiddling with his fingers shyly as well.

“Hyung, too much alcohol ruins your system…” Taemin said then frowned and bit his lip nervously. ”Can I tell you something?”

Jaejoong threw empty box of  banana milk to trash.

“Yeah, sure. What  is it?” he asked curious.

Taemin shifted a bit before looking at Jaejoong.

“I know.. this might  seem weird, or even…unliking for you-even disgusting” Taemin mumbled really quietly the last word. “but…” he is catching Jaejoong’s gaze and his. “I-I like you” he blushed.

Jaejoong smiled.

“Neh. I like you too, saengie. You are nice then why I shouldn’t like you?”

“Uh, hyung, I don’t understand… you mean you accept my feelings?” Taemin asked shyly, and smiled widely.

Jaejoong made a ‘hmm’ sound.

“Oh, yeah.  I always was dreaming about so cute boy” Jaejoong chuckled and hugged the younger. “Oh come on, hyung is not eater. I don’t bite ^^; “ he said. “I can be just  such a tease sometime, mrauu~” he adds playfully and meowed to Taemin’s ear.

Taemin blushed  and melted in his hyung’s embrace.

“Gomaawo hyung” he whispered, tightens the hug. He shudders, burrying face in his hyung’s neck.

“You think I’m cute, hyung?” he asked.

Jaejoong furrowed his eyebrow.

“”Well…it’s kinda weird but hmm…you look familiar” he says and tries to remind for himself who this  younger boy was, in the same time is ignoring the pain in head.

“Uhh…” he closed his  his eyes. “Yah.. that blush remind me about…” he couldn’t finish his sentence because he feels so strong  pain in head. “So-Someone,T… “

“You don’t have to force yourself to remember now…” Taemin looked at him worriedly, caressing Jaejoong’s  cheek. Jaejoong blinked and was thinking for a moment.

“I promise I’ll try to remind for myself.” He said. Before  offering his pinky. “a promise?”

Taemin smiled widely and linked their pinkies together.

“You promised hyung!” he said then looked at Jae, lightly blushing. “H-Hyung… can you k-kiss me?”  he asked. Jaejoong gave him  a kiss in cheek.

“Here ^^;; “ Jae said. Taemin weakly pouts.

“I guess that’s fine for now…” he mumbled before throwing his arms around  Jaejoong’s neck and smiling. Jaejoong patted  Taemin’s back gently and was hugging him to himself tight also dove. He was trying to think about something, trying to avoid the dumb thoughts in mind as well.

“Well... Do you have a name with ‘ T ’ letter?” Jae asked curiously. Taemin stares in Jaejoong’s eyes lovingly.

“Well…” Tae bites lip. “It’s my name, that’s what I know” he answers and thinks. “ Taejun, Taeyeon or my  name as I said, Taemin. Why do you ask?” Tae tilts his head.

      Jaejoong heard the heartbeat of his own heart when he heard ‘Taemin’ . He pulled the younger to the living room.

“Can you stay here for a moment?” he asked.

Taemin was blinking in surprise as Jaejoong pulled him to the living room. He sits obediently , waiting for his hyung to come back.

       Jaejoong went to the bathroom and turned the sink on and splashed his face with cold-ice water.

*It can’t be…it can’t be HE >///< Did he wasn’t taken by Luhan as his second lover? >< Why he came here?* Jaejoong was thinking hardly. *In fact…What  should I do now? Still keep pretending about my amnesia or say him true…*

        Jaejoong keeps fight with himself in his mind.

He finally went out from the bathroom.

“Mm, well…Would you be able to listen me for a while?” Jae spoke.

*What happened just now…?* Taemin thought. It was confusing for him.

 He scrunches  up his nose and looked around for any sight  of his hyung’s frame.

“Ah ,hyung, you’re back” Taemin smiled. ”Huh?” he blinked. “I mean, sure, what’s wrong?” he asked immediately.

“ Well umm… I ummm… remember you >///<”

        Taemin was staring at  Jaejoong. He was trying to register the information as fast as possible in his mind. After 2 minutes…

“REALLY?!  Oh my Gosh” he threw himself on Jaejoong, and sobbing happily.

Jaejoong patted Taemin’s back gently with hesitant.

“H- - Hey…what’s…what’s wrong w-with you?” Jaejoong stuttered because of already known reason. ”I am  here, Taemin. Your Hyung, jae >///< “

“Hyung, I’m so happy. I can’t stop my tears.” Taemin said didn’t trying to stop but he lets tears of happiness rolling down on his cheeks. He(Taemin) hugged  his Hyung tightly,  nuzzling his hyung’s neck and taking in his scent.

“Oh…umm…I’m happy too” Jaejoong hugged Taemin tightly back. “Mm?  What are you doing now, Taeminnie? Wae do you smack my scent?” he furrows an eye-brow. Taemin blushed, hiding his face while burying his face in the crook of his hyung’s neck.

“It’s because your scent is addicting…” he murmured softly.  Jaejoong ruffled his saeng’s hair.

“I’m… sorry.” He whispered  slightly. “I never wanted do what I did. And.. ummm… Answering your question Taemin….” when he was speaking, he raised Taemin’s chin to his face. “I think…” he made a move near. “I…” he pressed his lips gently on Taemin’s lips. “I fell for you so badly”.

“Why are you sorry, silly?” Taemin giggles and leans to Jaejoong’s touch. He flushes  furiously and melted in the kiss, kissing his  hyung back with a smile, tugging his own lips. “I’m glad because.. believe it or not, I did fall hard as well” Taemin said and pressed his lips on his hyung’s more.

Jaejoong blushed, breaking the kiss.

“Why me? I am a bit oldie to you, aren’t I ?”

Taemin smiled warmly.

“Because age doesn’t matter, does it? I just fell for you, for your personality and unexpectedly kind soul…I fell for you because everything you have is… addicting” then he blushed. “I like  it when you smile or ruffle my hair… or even when I eat the food you make…” he blushes more.

“Well, Personally I think,  ugh… you are more cute  than anything or anyone I knew” Jaejoong looked away.

“Ouh… Gomawo? ^^;; hehe” he chuckled  slightly.

“Mwo? I am addicting? I don’t  know why but I felt like the most addicting drag O///O “he gulped then. “It’s disgusting fall in love in saengie but I did and I don’t think I could leave you anymore again >.<”

Jaejoong grabbed Taemin’s wrist gently. “I, ugh…” he looked deeply into Taemin’s eyes. “Taeminnie, Saranaghaeyo…”

          Taemin was smiling. A hint of pinkness was creeping up on Taemin’s cheeks and it was turning them almost crimson red from the amount of compliments.

“Nado Saranghae, Jae hyung >\\< Taemin says and pecks Jaejoong’s lips.

Jaejoong was caressing Taemin’s cheeks while spoke:

“You have not to call me that… Just call me Jae, ‘kay? Or whatever you feel to call me >//<”

And he blushed. “Nee~ Taemin… you know what?” he asked the younger.

Firstly, Taemin was rubbing his cheeks over Jaejoong’s palms, then he said happily:

“Nae, Jae<3” and he  blushed “I can’t help it” Taemin stated while giggles between the kiss, kissing Jaejoong back. “What?” he asks quizzly.

“ Oh, well I was gonna adopt you, and let you…live here. But ‘someone’ ruined that plans.  Well… Ugh >.< Isn’t this disgusting to be loving by oldie?” Jaejoong chuckles nervously and looks  down, biting his low lip.

“H-hyung... I want… adopt me” Taemin blushed. He lifts up Jaejoong’s chin and kissed him softly. “ Stop feeling insecure, Jae. I-I love you >\\< “ he added.

Jae hugged Taemin tight.

“Saengie, Jae is not too oldie, right?” Jaejoong said almost depressed, while in the same time Taemin was resting his head on Jaejoong’s shoulder and hugged him  back.

“Of course  Jae isn’t. He’s still young”

“Ugh… I realy had that in my mind >.< I failed at this… I was sad and.. yeah… dived to be drinking so much but ummm… that was not car’s accident”

At the Jaejoong’s words Taemin pouted then he smiled.

“You’re pretty sensitive” Tae finally said. The  thing he did next was poking Jaejoong’s cheek. Tae was frowning when Jaejoong mentioned the drinking part. “Then what?” he’s eyebrows furrowed up.

            Jaejoong couldn’t help himself and kissed Taemin in his forehead.

“I am only around you, Taeminnie. Ah. Didn’t you mind if I called you ‘Taeminnie’ ? “

On Jaejoong’s face appeared a red dark-ish blush , he immediately pressed a  kiss on Taemin’s lips. “You ish so soft and nice” he added shyly.

“Of course you can call me ‘Taeminnie’ “Taemin answered and already squealed.  He kissed Jaejoong back, with arms around Jaejoong’s neck and blushing at the same time. “I am? You are as well “ he added as answer on latest Jaejoong’s statement.

“So.. what are you doing here, Taeminnie? “Jaejoong asked a question.

“Actually the reason why I am here is to pay you a visit, but now… hyung, let’s do  the adoption papers” while Taemin was saying that for Jaejoong, Taemin blushed deeply.

“I can’t. Firstly, it’s illegal to  adopt person who is over 18 and well…” he cut his sentence for a while to look at Taemin. “ehm… Are you ready live here” he finished being shy when he asked.

“Ok, well” Taemin smiled in answer. “Can I live here then? “ he crossed his arms childishly.

“Of course you can… only if you want” Jaejoong answered slightly smiling at his younger love.

“I do want!” Taemin said and cuddled to Jaejoong immediately.

Jaejoong looked straight into Taemin’s eyes.

“Jinja?”

“Jinja” he answered with wide smile, hugging Jaejoong closely.

“T-Taeminnie…”

And at this time Jaejoong hardly blushed.

“How much are you happy now? I even don’t know what I did for you, so you’re like that “ he said a bit embarrassed.

Taemin giggled  and pecked Jaejoong’s cheeks.

“I’m so much happy, you don’t know how much, neither can I put it in words. Don’t get embarrassed >w< “  Taemin said.

Jaejoong giggled when  he heard Taemin’s  warmly words.

“But you are still so young and it’d  be creepy… Do you really don’t mind about your fans, Taemin? “ Jaejoong asked a new question.

“I think they’ll support us. Or, if you don’t like telling them then…” he cutted his sentence  for a little while. He started to  fiddling  with his own fingers and shrugged. “It’s not creepy” he pouts.

“I am not gonna. I taught myself to not believe in fans. I am just… like very old rabbit who ran away from circus, you are closer to your fans, so I am just asking “ Jae pulled Tae closer to himself.

“Why do you call yourself  old?” Taemin asked a question then he pouted playfully. “ You aren’t” he  answered and snuggled closer to Jaejoong’s chest. “I feel so warm when you’re embracing me” he added.

“Oh… saengie…” Jae cut his  sentence for a longer while and blushed so hard. He then was about to make a step to say something.  “Saranghae” he whispered.

“Mmm… Nado  saranghae” Taemin muttered back to Jaejoong. Then he was circling Jaejoong’s neck with his own arms and kissed Jaejoong’s lips softly at first.

Jaejoong kissed Taemin back.

“Should I dress on? I have still towel…” Jae asked.

“No no…” Taemin mumbled through the kiss with his own hands, resting them on Jaejoong’s bare skin. “Stay like this… “Tae added and brushes his own fingers over Jaejoong’s nipple lightly.

“Oh? You are teasing your hyung, Taeminnie? “ Jae  asked playfully, raising  eye-brows up and starring  at Tae. Next he pushed Tae to the wall, taking Tae by wrist. “You know… you just don’t wanna see my beastie side” he whispered and kissed Taemin’s neck softly. “I am such a catcher  a lot of desires” Jaejoong said.

        Taemin blushed slightly but let for Jaejoong do what did he want, nevertheless.

“Who said I don’t want to?” Taemin mumbled, smiling slightly. “Mmm” he looked at Jae and stretched his own neck for Jaejoong and bitted his own lower lip.

Jaejoong caressed Taemin’s cheek.

“Hey, what’s wrong now? You’re not too brave like second ago?”

Taemin leaned to Jaejoong’s touch.

“I see…” Taemin giggled and flipped theirs positions: Jaejoong was on the wall, Taemin was trailing him.

“You say… you want me to be brave?” Taemin whispered in Jaejoong’s ear, hisown finger was sliding down, from Jaejooong’s cheek to his chest.

“What are you going to do with me?” Jae asked curiously.

“You don’t know?” Taemin let their lips to contacts and was pushing his own tongue to touch Jaejoong’s lower lip.

Jaejoong kissed him back passionately.

“Okay, I got it but not now. It’s noon” Jae pointed  at the clock. “I… was gonna… jump  on the couch and laying, watching movie. I got a sickness x.x”

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¬One Month ago¬

         Jaejoong  was waiting for  his young lover every day, but Taemin never came. There was everything done, Taemin was so eager to live with  Jaejoong, but something was wrong… One month passed away and Jaejoong didn’t have any call neither news from Taemin. Luhan, as his friend, tried to calm him down.  

        It wasn’t official, but Jaejoong heard that Taemin passed away. He couldn’t believe it at first.  But when   Taemin’s  band mates called him and then  Jae  was taken to the graveyard.

         Jaejoong  always was paying   a visit for his young lover,  always in the day the two of them confessed  to each other, but  he never  knew what was the reason that Taemin had to pass away. He made his own version that the reason was he.  That instead of    paying attention to his soon-to be boyfriend, he had to stop him because he was shirtless, while Taemin didn’t even care because as he said,  Jae was addicting to him.

Jaejoong was always blaming himself, for  being so selfish.

After One year from Taemin’s  passing away,  Jaejoong stopped his career,  left his  music company, left his friend Luhan, who stopped talking to him , and moved out to Egypt.

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Jiji's note: The end :) Hope you enjoyed it as much as I enjoyed writing it .It has a strong words so I think PG-raiting is enough :) Also it's a boy x boy relationship so if you don't like it, I kindly say you to escape that  page, thanks =^-^=