I'm denying it now.

I'm denying that I ever fell for you,
I'm convincing myself that I only fell for the moment.
I didn't fall for you,
I fell at the moments and texts and hugs.. and hand holdings.. and saying that you miss me.. and staring into each other's eyes...

I never fell for you.

(Subconscious and Me dialogue)

*I'm pretty sure you did. And you still are falling now.*

*I AM NOT FALLING!*

*You can't stop replaying all the times you spent together.*

*That doesn't mean anything. We're friends.*

*You keep on reading the texts you sent each other and smiling like a fool.*

*I was just seeing about the times we've both been communicating through text and seeing what we were talking about.*

*You didn't fall at the moment. You fell for her and everything about her. Every flaw, every mistake, every shortcomings, every part of her.*

*That's not true...*

*You keep craving for the hugs they gave you. You miss the eyes that would look at almost everything inquisitively. You miss the eyes that has a dull brown color, but for you, they're the most beautiful shade of brown. They have these things you call "glimmers".*

*...*

*Just admit it. You fell for her, you're falling for her now, and you'll keep falling for her even when you're apart.*

*I'm slowly destroying myself by doing this. Leave me alone.*