I looked down at the floor just to see that my shadow was now somehow red. My pain, my blood and my regrets were the new paint on the floor. I got from looking for monsters under my bed to finding monsters inside me. I got from being scared of ghosts to becoming one myself. I turned into all I feared and more. I didn't only disappoint others, I disappointed myself. I turned into the people I hated and the villains I ran away from. I walked away from the finish line into a dead end where no one could see me but I could see them. I could hear them say how they weren't even surprised, they knew I'd let them down and somewhere inside me I think I knew it too. The moon became blue and the sun became white just to show me that there might still be hope, so I looked up but somehow the stars were my mistakes. I looked down again and each petal on the rose laying by my feet was a cage to a memory that I tried so hard to forget. I close all the windows to lock myself away but I looked into my reflection and found that my eyes were overflowing with insecurities. How can I escape when everywhere I turn seems to be a mirror that reflects how broken I truly am? I'm weak and I'm dead and I know it and I'm scared others know it too. I just want to love someone who won't reject me. No actually, I just want to love myself . I crave being like people that can look in the mirror and think "I'm  so proud of myself " that's all I want. I want to be myself without feeling ashamed. I want to be myself without feeling like I'm letting everyone else down. I want to be me but I can't because; I hate who I've become but I also hate who I was before.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~A/N the amazing cover is by the talented The-Girl-Undercover