um,,, this is kinda just um thank you, kai. um for those who dont know um kai is my boyfriend,,, um i love them a lot and they really mean the world to me. they keep me going in my contest struggles, if we werent dating i probably wouldnt be here so thank you.

i dont think youll ever read this but i truly love you and ill always be here to listen if need be, i know i have problems but i dont want to focus on me. i want to focus on if your okay, i dont want to add more burden onto your shoulders. let me try and take away some of it the best i can, i wish youd lean on me more when you arent okay. i understand you not want to talk about it but sometimes we should talk.

um this is supposed to be wholesome,,, i suck at this uh thank you once again kai for being in my life and treated me like a human ♡