I tried to run before but I'm not running anymore
Cause I fought against it hard enough to know that you'll love who you love.

Who You Love - John Mayer ft. Katy Perry

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Still a flashback...

My father told me thru a phone call that I was soon to marry.

"You can't just do that!"

"I can, son. Their company needs help and we owe them big time. Marry Namjoon after you finished your masters. This conversation is over."

My father ended the call and I threw my phone on the wall. This is frustrating! What about Taehyung? I haven't told him what I feel yet and now, I'm getting married.

That night, I decided to go out with Jimin and talk to someone. But he's in no better condition. He's crying like crazy as he claims that someone broke his heart and stuff like that. He's shouting everywhere and it gets embarrassing. I drive him home and while driving he uttered words that increased my fears.

"When you tell them you love them, they leave you because the chase is over fucking assholes!"

He said a lot of things but only those words linger in my mind. Fear engulfed me.

What if he leaves me when I confessed to him?

What if he just loved the chase?

I can't bear to see him fall out of love. My knuckles turned white as I grip the steering wheel.

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Three years after...

"You need to go home now. Namjoon's parents are waiting to discuss your wedding. I expect you to be here two days from now."

That's the last message I got from my father. I don't want to leave Taehyung but I had no choice. If I disobey there's a high risk they will harm Taehyung. They didn't know about us, but I know they'll use him against me when they found out.

I went to Taehyung that night and said the most painful words I could think to make him hate me to the core.

"There's nothing to break Taehyung. We're not in a relationship. We just fuck each other. Nothing more nothing less. Don't be so naive. We're alone here in Paris and we found each other it's natural. I thought I said you should move on from me, no one told you to get stuck. And I never said I love you to you. I've given you your chance on being with me, that's what you want right? Since I don't know when. Now I've played my part I'm done with you. I can't stay any longer. Three years is enough to satisfy your thirst for me. I won't ever love you. Stop being delusional.

And for your information. It's all a bet. If I took you to bed, I'll get my dream car. I should've left you three years ago, but you were quite good in bed so I stuck with you. Now I won't be needing you, so bye. Have a nice day."

None of it was true. I followed him here in Paris, I love him wholeheartedly and I did not use him for sex. And there's no way I'll trade him for a fucking car! I had lots of money to buy one. I saw him cry and I can't stand it. I left him and went back to Korea without my heart in my chest.

I met Namjoon and somehow, things were easy with him. He talked to me privately and made a plan.

"Jin, we don't love each other, let's be honest with that. I'm in love with somebody else. I love my secretary, Hoseok, but I need to do this marriage with you. But I have a plan. Will you help me?"

With the slightest probability that things will be like this and there's still a way out, I agreed.

"We need to act as if we really like each other in front of the people and went on with the marriage. But after a year, when my company is back on track and everything is okay we'll file a divorce. I will marry Hoseok and you get your life back. How is it?"

It's a good idea. "Well, let's do it."

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My parents were so involved in making us fall in love with each other that they even force us to date. But we had other plans. We'll meet Hoseok in the mall and he and Namjoon would spend time together while I, I'll go to my condo and sleep.

On the way to the mall, I saw Taehyung walking in the parking lot. I signaled Namjoon to act with me "I love you Namjoonie. I'm excited about our wedding."

"I love you too Seokjin. I'm excited too, that will be the wedding of the year. We'll make a good couple."

"Of course I plan to have my kids with you. So be ready because we'll start making them as soon as possible. And I want you pregnant before our wedding."

I saw Taehyung hid in one of the cars. I hated to hurt him but in the meantime, I'll just go with it, and after a year, I'll get him back.

"What's with the act? Is there someone our parents know?"

"No, I just saw Taehyung," I answered back.

"Who's that? Is he the one?" I told him about Taehyung once so he has an idea.

"You are such a bitch! Why won't you tell him that this is not real! You're hurting him!"

I know. But I don't know how to. I don't think he'll accept me again.

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"Jin! Have you heard Taehyung is opening his own boutique here in Korea? He's asking for my help tomorrow join us. I know what you and Namjoon are planning. I work for him and I always see him and his secretary doing nasty things in the office. You can't fool me! Go there tomorrow. I'll send you the location."

He did send me the location. And when I arrived a young man aside from Jimin is all over Taehyung. I'm pissed as hell that I acted like an asshole that day. I didn't mean to, but that's the first thing that came to my mind.

I told Namjoon that I asked Taehyung to design for our wedding and he's beyond happy.

"That's great! I will have the chance to leave you for a week and spend time with Hoseok while you spend time with him. Make it worthwhile and make sure to tell him, okay?"

And that's what happened. Whenever he has the chance he'll leave me alone with Taehyung. Just like what he did in our mansion. I can't resist how beautiful he looked while he kneeled in front of me and I can't help myself but tease him. Luckily Namjoon came back and interrupted us or else I don't know what happened.

"What are you thinking!? I saw that! What if it's not me who caught that sight or else we'll be damned."

He's right but I can't help it, especially when I saw that Jungkook kissed his forehead and flirted with Taehyung. Nobody touches what's mine. I swear I could see red while looking at both of them. Taehyung smiles at him and he looks so fond and it's threatening the hell out of me. I called Namjoon and told him we'll follow Taehyung and Jungkook to the restaurant.

"You are helpless. Why don't you just say it straight to his face?"

"I can't."

He just shook his head at me. We reached the place and fate is by my side. We sat with them and my anger just boils even more as Jungkook always held Taehyung's hands. I glared at him and he seemed so unmoved. Luckily Namjoon took over the situation and distracted Jungkook. That lunch was just filled with me, staring at Taehyung or glaring at Jungkook's hand.

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Namjoon and I are going to meet Taehyung and he will leave with Hoseok after. This time I'll make a move and I will eat up all my inhibitions. I don't want to lose him. I'm going to risk it all.

We're in my car and I saw him wipe a tear in his eyes. I know he's still hurting. And it's my fault.

" ... Three fucking years I thought you loved me I thought something changed, but no, I was wrong you just used me and when you're done you threw me away. Why won't you? After all, I was just your fuck doll. Someone you can stick your penis up in when Namjoon is not around."

He's not a fuck doll. Not even close to being one.

"Everything in Paris was a mistake."

It was a mistake on my side. I shouldn't have hurt him. I should just tell him what I feel. Everything I did was a mistake.

End of flashback

Everything after that is history.

Now I'm going to get married tomorrow but I'll make sure we'll still be together. Even if he's my little secret I won't care. As long as I'm with him. I'll make this one right for both of us.

He snuggled close to me and opened his eyes.

"I love you Taehyung. I'm sorry. I love you." I said to him loud and clear.