Basically this is a rant about my life right now. This is not related to anything on my Wattpad account. I thought I would share it with you guys because you might be able to relate and I also needed to let it out cause my "friends" when I told them just thought this was funny or supposed to be funny.

RANT

Lets start at the beginning of the week, Monday October 26. It started in one of my school classes. Someone who I thought was "okay" was a bullyish to me. Lets call her X (like in math). For the class we had to audition in front of the class for a spot in a important thing. A person -not X- was doing the same thing as me, another person was too but that isn't the point. The person playing we can call the person Y. Y was nervous so X decided to tell the whole class that I have been doing the same thing for a while now. Which is true but it was for a good reason. So he did his audition and did okay. The whole time Y was playing X was telling me that Y was doing better than me even though I never auditioned yet. X kept on telling me that I would fail I wasn't good enough and so on. I told myself that I could audition better than X and that I would prove Y wrong. I told my friends after that class about what happened and they didn't care, they just continued walking. The next day was my turn and I practiced before class and people called me a show off it hurt a bit and my friends didn't say anything. I auditioned and I did worse than I did at the beginning of class. Y was happy that I failed she basically was satisfied after I was done. My friends never comforted me like I do to them again at the end of the class that walked out without me when one of my friends was supposed to ask the teacher something with me because it involved my friend. I again was pissed and just walked out. The next day the same routine happened friends walking out without me and Y telling me that I suck. I told my friends once again and they didn't care. It happened on on on for the rest if the week until today when we got the info about who got the spots I was in but X and Y got in too. After school I went on social media as I do always and found a picture of my two friends posing with a caption about how best friends never leave each other and that shit (sry I had too cause I am severely hurt and mad) It always happens too even with I am with them. They are always like "can you take the picture for me?" Or "can you get out of this picture?". Everyone thinks we are really really close BFFs. I thought we were BFFs bit honestly they aren't. Around night time i got in a fight with my mom and i told my friends and they just put this emoji 😂😂😂. Also one of my teachers this whole week had been "picking" on me. This week was very emotional and made me feel like I am not worth anything, which I guess is true now. Also another bad thing is that my academics are going down too. My friends aren't friends and heck I can't even get a teacher to like me. I realized a lot of things this week I am not worth it, i am a waste of people's time and space, My friends don't want me, Y is a bully, and in general no one gives a flying shit about me.

IF YOU READ THIS THANK YOU. WRITING THIS MAKES ME FEEL A BIT BETTER.

••••IN THE END PEOPLE CAN AND DO DRAG ME DOWN•••••