Six months. It has been six months since Jungkook had last stepped foot in the house that he was standing in front of.

There was no change to it since the last time.

If he was honest, it felt strange to be back, but he couldn't find any better place to speak with his sister than at their home.

Although he doesn't stay there anymore, Eunjae for the most part still does. It was her comfort home, at some point it was his too, maybe it still was a tiny a bit.

Eunjae didn't mind talking at home, it truly was her comfort place, she acknowledged it, but it did shock her when the younger mentioned the idea. She thought he would pick some other place.

Although Jungkook chose it for some more comfort, that wasn't the only reason he chose their home. He knew it would be better talking to his father here too. Knew that he would come home earlier, which meant they would talk sooner than planned.

He took a deep breath and headed to the door. He knocked. He could have used his keys, the keys he still has, but he thought against it.

He waited for his sister to open the door.

"Jungkookie!" His sister greeted him happily and went in to give him a big hug. He hugs her back with the same energy. It felt good.

He needed that sibling warmth too.

"Come in! I had the maid prepare you the smoothie that you loved so much! Head in, don't forget this is still your house," she says pulling back as he nods.

Maybe it was, but a part of him also felt that it wasn't anymore.

He walked in, everything was still the same as what he had seen that night. Everything felt familiar.

"Jungkookie!" Their maid, Mrs. Shin said happily, after seeing the boy come into the kitchen.

"Wow, how handsome you've gotten. Even more than before! You dyed your hair too! It looks amazing!" She compliments as Jungkook bows with a smile.

"Hello, it's been a while, Mrs. Shin," he says and the woman goes ahead and hugs him. She had been with them for the past six years so they knew and trusted her a lot.

"We've missed you here so much boy, you have no idea! Have you been well? Have you been taking care of yourself okay? Your sister says yes, but one can't help but worry," she pulls away from the hug.

"I've been well, Mrs. Shin. I've had some pretty couple of rough moments here and then I won't deny, but for the most part, I think I've been better, happier," he smiled.

"How have you been? How have your family and kids been?" He asked.

"They've been very good thanks for asking! I've been good too so don't worry about me, boy! Anyway, I made your favorite smoothies and some snacks too! Your sister told me you were coming and we thought of all the things you love, I hope you enjoy it! I know it's short, but I should be heading out, however, I hope to see you soon again," she smiled as she ruffled the boy's hair who chuckled.

"Thank you, Mrs. Shin! I'm sorry it's short, I promise to come one day to catch up with you!"

"Hmm, I'll hold you on that! Anyways you guys enjoy!" She pats them both and they wave at her as she goes and gets ready to leave.

"So come on sit! Tell me, how was your trip? Did you have fun? Where did you go?" Eunjae asked with an excited tone as they headed to the dining area.

She wanted to know everything her brother had done. She was also hoping that such travel had helped his mental health a little more.

"I went to two places! I went to Daegu and I went to the place we once called home or still call home, Busan!" He says as Eunjae widens her eyes with a happy smile.

"Really? You went back to Busan?!

"Yup, and I loved it, my friends and I did so many things!" He says and begins explaining his trip as the older woman listens to him attentively.

"I went to another club and had fun. You can say I'm living more for the so-called college life," he chuckles.

"Well, I'm happy that you have! It's what you need! Man I'm jealous now," she pouts and he laughs.

"I truly am very glad you had a good trip with your friends! It makes me happy that you were able to go to those two cities and clear your mind. I mean it when I say that you ruly needed it!" Her sister puts a hand on top of his and he smiles putting his other hand on top of hers as well.

"I did, however I didn't ask to see you only to explain my trip, I needed to see you for something else too and I don't know how you are going to take it which is why I decided to come to this place," Jungkook nervously starts, his sister nods starting to get worried.

"Oh? What is it? You are scaring me now I'm not going to lie...." His sister nervously says as he nods.

He thought his father would have said something by now, hinted at it at least, but he hadn't. He found it unfair that he did his job, but he had to do it. He didn't want her to be in the dark like he was.

"Well there's two things I need to tell you and I feel like the last one is more impactful so I'll go ahead with the first one," he begins.

"There's something I left out from the trip," he starts.

"And what is that?"

"I reconnected with grandma and grandpa again, from our mom's side," he confesses as his sister's eyes widen.

"What? H-how?" She asked, it had been a long time even for her. So knowing that Jungkook saw them in Busan after so many years surprised her.

They should be in America like their dad had told them.

"One day, I decided that I would go and see our first home, for old times sake and for something else. So I did just that, but as I was leaving the house, someone had called for me. I found the voice so familiar but I didn't figure out who it truly was until I saw that it was Grandpa, he was right there smiling at me," he says getting a little emotional as he recalls.

"W-what? But how?! Aren't they supposed to be in America? I don't get it...." She asked confused.

That's when Jungkook had explained everything he had been told.

"So all this time that I thought that they too didn't love us anymore was a lie? They had been here all along and just didn't see us anymore because of what Dad said and because they felt guilty?" She asked to clear things up.

It couldn't be.

She shook her head in disbelief. She felt disappointed.

She couldn't believe that her father would go to suck lengths and lie about such a thing. Especially after knowing how much they both had missed and wanted their grandparents.

"Yeah, but they never didn't want us anymore. They've tried their best to see us again. They told me how much they had missed you too and how beautiful you were! They were even very happy when I told them that you were engaged! They had always been there for us even from afar," Jungkook clears up.

"Really?"

"Yes, as a matter of fact, they told me that if you wanted, you could contact them again. That they would be more than happy to talk!" He smiled as Eunjae frowned feeling bad.

She felt bad that she thought the worst of them when in reality their father had been the one to separate them.

"I'd like that. Gosh, I feel bad to hear I thought that they—" she shakes her head frowning.

"Hey it's okay, I thought the same thing too. That isn't our fault. It's dads for not telling us anything. Not telling the truth. Which somehow brings me up to my next topic," he explains. He was scared of how she would take up the next topic.

"Which is?" She asked.

"I...know that I didn't know this information until before my trip, and I planned to tell you after my trip because everything was messed up and I needed to escape. Maybe I should have told you beforehand and I'm sorry. That's why I'm saying it now," he says not knowing when to start as she nods.

"I—gosh it's hard to say. I have been in contact with our mother for a couple months now...she's back...and I had no clue it was her until recently..." he drops the bomb looking at her eyes with honesty.

"If I knew sooner then this conversation would have happened beforehand," Jungkook says in a serious tone as her sister looks at him with clear shock in her face.

She was trying to make sense of it.

"Wait, I don't think I've heard this right, what do you mean that you have been in contact with mom without knowing? What do you mean she's back?! Why hasn't dad said anything? Does he know?" She asks, many questions appearing in her mind.

It was nothing light, what her brother was saying. She never thought she would hear about their mom again, let alone that she had been back, she always had some small hope, but with time it had been diminished.

"Let me explain, yes?" He ask as she nods trying to breathe in and out.

"Remember how I had told you that, I was living temporarily after everything with my professor that you had met?" He asks as he starts to already feel some tears pool in his eyes but he quickly blinks them away. Eunjae nods slowly.

"Right, so one day, I was just out of curiosity seeing some of my professors pictures and then I accidentally dropped some papers, as I went to pick up those papers, I saw that my name was on them. Being curious on what it was, I decided to look at them fully, which is wrong, but the curiosity got the best of me, as I looked at the paper, I realized that it was a DNA test, a DNA test our mom had done behind my back, me being confused and feeling betrayed that my professor had these papers of me without telling me led me to go look for her at campus, he explains as she listen tentatively to him, taking every word in.

"Did she know our mom? Was she friends with her? Is this how it all happened?" She asks many questions again, anxiously wondering for the answer.

"I thought that she did because I had realized that my professor had some photos of dad and her together. So, I went to confront her, and as I went to confront her, I saw dad at campus, which I still don't know why, but I asked him about the papers, asked him why he couldn't tell me the truth or more about her, he didn't know what to say, then...my professor came in as we were arguing and..." he stops as he recalls the moment with every single detail.

"When they acknowledge each others presence, they both seemed to be in shock, like if they couldn't believe who was standing in front of them.. then dad suddenly starting being very aggressive and loud towards her, I didn't understand, I didn't understand what was going on until," he looks down takes a deep sigh.

His sister looks at him, still waiting.

"Until he had accidentally slipped out our moms name, and I didn't get it until they cleared it out. My professor, the one you met, she is our mom, noona," he looks at her in the eye as she tilts her head to the side.

"My professor is our mom, she's always been our mom. Jang, is just her alias name, her real name is Choi kyungmi which you know is moms name. She admitted it to me that it was her, she's our mom," a tear slips out of his eyes.

"What? She's our mom? She's been our mom this whole time? She's known who we are and she never told us?!" She asked as she was taking everything in, trying to make sense of what her brother was saying. It was hard very hard to admit.

"She actually didn't know it was us until that dna test," he says and she begins to shake her head.

She went silent for a few minutes which scared the younger man.

His sister laughs as tears fall from her eyes.

"So now she had the guts to finally be back after abandoning us for 15 years?! Now she tries to come back?! And why didn't dad tell me anything?! Has dad known about this since that day?!" She asked as the tears started streaming down her face.

It was clear that she was angry and hurt.

He nods. "He did, he's known this whole time, I thought he would tell you, but seems like he didn't which is why I decided to do so," he says as she shakes her head again.

"So you mean to tell me that besides the fact that dad has been lying to our face and hiding the real truth of our grandparents, he hasn't taken the damn courage to come up and tell me that she was back! Nothing at all!" She angrily as she gets up.

Jungkook gets up after her, worried.

"Have you...." She breathes in trying to not let her feelings get the best of her.

"Have you talked to her since then?" She asked as he shook his head.

"No, I only intend to talk to her with you with me, because Im not her only child, she has a daughter too," he says.

"Why would I want to speak to the woman who abandoned us Jungkookie?! The woman who gave up on us and stopped loving us! Why would I want an explanation?" She asked with stress.

"Because you and I both deserve to be told the truth! It's right for us to get an explanation as to why she had left! It's only fair! If we were to do this it would be for ourselves and not for her! I don't know about you but I have many things I want to know too!" He points to himself.

"Thing that I need to know! Many things have been hidden from me too. Like the fact that my original name was Jungsuk! Plus other things, that's why I think we should," he explains hoping his sister would listen to him.

He was right. She at least owed them an explanation.

"If you don't want to I get it, I really do, but I want you to read this..." he takes out of his pocket, the letter that their mom had written for him, but also for her too.

"What's this?" She asks as she looks the paper.

"This is a letter she made for me but also for you...read it, she explains more in detail everything I said. After you have read it and thought about it, talk to me, let me know what you think, and let me know if you want to talk to her with me, I already know my choice, but it's only fair you have time to make yours," he hands her the letter as she slowly takes it.

"You made a choice?" She asks as he nods.

"I need answers, noona. I need answers from her and him. So do you, so please read that letter, yes? I know you may be feeling so many emotions right now so," he says as she nods wiping he tears away.

"I am, I am feeling many things right now, I'm feeling, confusion, anger, sadness, shock, and so much more, but I'm very thankful that you had the guts to tell me, but I do need time to process this, I never thought—" she closes her eyes as the tears come down her face.

"Never thought she would be back, I also can't believe dad would hide this from me," she says sadly. He nods and right then and there a door opens.

"I just am feeling so much right now. I'm sorry," she wipes her eyes.

"Trust me I have too. Why did you think I had went with my friends for a trip? I needed to clear my mind," he explains and he's about to say something else when they hear a familiar voice.

"Yes, I'll call you about the meeting later...okay bye," they hear the voice of their dad walking through the door and heading towards the kitchen where they were.

"Eunjae, honey, I'm back! Are you in the kitchen?" They hear their dads voice again but being more clearer and nearer.

Eunjae only closes her eyes as she stays quiet. Then the presence of their father is made in the room. Who looked surprised to see Jungkook there.

"You came earlier than planned son, how come you came this early? We had agreed to talk later. Not that I'm complaining about you being here. It's better this way, but you usually come later," he asked as the boy nodded. He frowns when he sees the tears in his eyes.

"Hmm that was the plan, but I needed to talk to noona first and she happened to be home, so I thought why not make it here," Jungkook replied curtly which didn't surprise his dad but hurt either way.

"Yeah, he needed to talk to me because you wouldn't do such thing," Eunjae spoke up coldly taking her dad by surprise.

"Wouldn't do what? I tell you many things sweetie. What's this about?" Junwoo asked confused.

"Don't pretend like you don't know! Maybe starting from the fact that you had hidden all these years the real reason as to why our maternal grandparents stopped coming to see us and talking to us!" She lets out as he widen his eyes at what she heard.

"Let's start with the fact that Jungkooks real name was Jeon Jungsuk which actually I'm remembering now was his name, three the fact that you had hidden from me that our mom had come back! All of that! Why didn't you tell me anything dad! Why is it that I had to heat it from Jungkook first! It should have been from you! Why didn't you say anything when you came so upset that day! I had the right to know! She is my mother too!" She asked as she yelled at him with anger sadness.

"Eunjae, princess please let me explain I—" his father starts but Eunjae stops him.

"Just don't right now. Please don't, I'm very upset and all over the place," she takes a breath, trying to calm herself a little but.

"I won't have a good time hearing you out. I've already lost so much control, I don't want to say things I'll regret, plus you need to talk to your son too. He needs answers now more than I do! So please don't say anything because all I'll see is red, I need to think stuff out," she explains as her father who has an upset expression nods.

"Just please do come back and come talk to me when you are done," he asked. He didn't need his daughter to become distant from him too.

"Thank you Jungkookie for telling me and I'm sorry that I blew up in your face. I'll let you two talk now," she says looking at her brother as she takes the picture and walks out very affected.

Now it was just them two. Tension filling the room.

"I'm sorry if I ruined your plan to tell her, I didn't just want her to be left in the dark like I was. She doesn't deserve it," Jungkook speaks breaking the silence as he looks at his father who turns back with a frown.

"I'm not mad that you did. I'm upset that I didn't have the guts to tell her before like she had said, I was going to tell her just—"

"Just not now, right? You would wait like always, right? If you are worried though, you can go after her and we can have this chat later," Jungkook bitterly said at the end, he saw how worried his father was for her sister.

He wouldn't be surprised if  his father wanted to comfort her more in that moment than talk to him.

He know he shouldn't be this way, his sister deserves for their father to go and try to explain things and comfort her, but he also wished that just for once he would stay and stay true to his word for him.

He turned back shaking his head.

"No, as much as I am worried about her and want to talk to her, my focus right now is you and to help you figure things out," his father replies determined.

"Are you sure though? I really don't want you to be mad at me or blaming me later if you didn't get to talk to your favorite child," he says again just as bitter. His dad sighs as he rubs his head.

"Jungkook, you are my son just as much as she's my daughter. I don't have any favorites! I won't blame you either! How can I blame you and be mad at you for nothing? You need my attention too!" He explains back, trying to show his change and trying to show to Jungkook even just the slightest that he cares for him too.

"I don't know, it's just really hard to believe it when for almost my whole life, all you've done is the opposite. You've put me to the side, ignored me, scolded me, have even felt ashamed of me! So, sorry if I find it hard to believe when for the past 12 years it's been that way," he says a little loud and angry.

"Jungkookie please," his father tries but the other shakes his head.

Jungkook wanted to do this in a mature way but he can't help but let his current emotions get the best of him. Can't help but feel all the resentment by something small.

"No! I'm just saying things as they are! Don't act here like you've never put me last or to the side when you have!" He looks at him with hurt.

"Don't come and act now that you care when you haven't! Why weren't you this way when I would come home from school and want to play with you but you'd say you are busy?" He starts to question him.

"Or the times I tried to get your attention when I had succeed or done something good? Why weren't you like this when I wanted your love and asked for it with actions!" He rants out as he feels tears corner in his eyes.

"Why couldn't you have said and acted on such words back the and all this time huh! Or why couldn't you have been this way too the last time we fought which is when I left this house?! While with her you've  given her everything dad! Attention, love, care, time and support. Why couldn't you have been this way with me too?! I need all that too, just as much! I need love, I needed support! I needed care but you rarely gave me that, if at all! So don't get surprised if I act this way when I see how much you have favored her over me!" He yells with angry tears as his dad looks at frowning.

He wasn't surprised to see his son this way. He knowns how much he's broken him. But he still couldn't help but feel bad and feel like a piece of shit  with every word he was saying.

"I know I have not acted right in the past and although I have a reason, I also know they may not be justified, but for that reason is why I'm doing this. Because I need to focus on you and that is what I'm trying to show right now, I know how shitty I've been. But I can say one thing," he moves a little closer.

"You are wrong about me not loving you!  I love  and care for you so much you have no idea! I've loved you since the moment I knew of your existence and I've loved you and tried to protect you with all my heart these years too! I know I've been shit as showing it but trust me I do!" He speaks emotional, wanting to show the younger how genuine he was.

But Jungkook couldn't help but feel like it was an act. That his dad was convinced by someone and that he didn't really want to do it.

He needed to calm down. Arguing wasn't going to help him get any of his answers of being able to solve his confusion. Maybe it would help him feel better but at the same would it really?

"Please give me this time to show you that I do want to speak to you and clear things up! I know I haven't been the best with you which is why I want to talk. I know in the past, I again have put you to the side but not anymore so please," he asks as Jungkook looks up wiping his tears away. His father pleads again.

Jungkook nods sitting down, "okay then, go ahead and start. Start answering every doubt I may have right now or confusion," he comments.

"Like the fact that you changed my name, why your behavior changed towards me so drastically over time, why you hid and lied to our grandparents from us, and oh," he stops for a bit as his dad sits down waiting for him to continue.

"I want to know why you go ahead and praise me with other people but never do  so in front of me. Want to know why you show you care and love me when you've shown the opposite the last 12 years. Finally, I'd like to know why in the world you are so against me taking music when you had been a music lover yourself at my age, because it's not fair that you've had given me shit for it when clearly I inherited my love for it from you because you loved it just like she does," Jungkook spills out as his after nods wondering where Jungkook had figured out his secret love for music.

"I'll answer everything you want. I guess I'll start from the beginning. I'll start with your name," he speaks as Jungkook nods.

"When you were born your mother and I decided to name you Jeon Jungsuk, so Jungsuk was your original name. However, we always like the name Jungkook but didn't know if it fit so we decided on Jungsuk it meant loyal. So yes, your name was changed," he explained as Jungkook nodded.

"However, we rarely called you of your name when you were little. We only would call you by our affectionate nicknames. So, at times you forgot your own name," he smiles remembering the moments.

"Which is why you probably didn't remember or know about it. However, there may have been other reasons that you didn't remember too," his father bites his lip, feeling nervous with how the boy will react with what he is about to share.

"When you were little, you somehow saw your mom leave. You were there the whole time from the moment I begged her to stay to the moment you saw her leave. You actually even chased after her," he frowns as Jungkook takes a deep breath. His dream was showing to confirm itself to be of a real event—a  piece of a memory that had happened.

"When I saw you come out of the corner, you called out to her crying and panicking. You then ran out the door and I chased after you," he tells. It was hard for him to retell such a painful day in his life.

" I was dealing with the pain, but at the moment all I was worried about was you and how you had seen such situation unfold. I chased after you, but you've always been a fast runner, I was worried something would happen to you because it was the streets," He takes a breath.

"I was hoping your mom would hear you but she didn't and when she left from the taxi I see you fall and hit your head. I thought she would noticed, but she didn't, however , I did and I felt such despair and fear. He looks at Jungkook and then down at his hands. He shakes his head as he remembers the vivid memory of seeing the boy hurt physically and mentally.

The panic he as a father felt.

"I was worried. There was so much blood when I had catched up and saw your little three—almost four year old body limp, it was so god damn awful. I kept trying to wake you up but it wasn't working so I immediately called an ambulance," he recalls painfully. Jungkook tries his best to not feel the need to cry.

"When we got to the hospital I couldn't stop crying and felt worried. Luckily your sister was with your grandparents that day, so she wasn't alone..."

Junwoo paced around as the tears built in his eyes. He felt worried, worried what would happen to his son.  It had been two hours since he brought him to the hospital crying and hysterical with his blood on his clothes.

He had wondered what wrong he had done to have such awful events happen in one day.

If it wasn't enough that Kyungmi had given up on them and left, his son seeing everything and getting hurt was more than the icing on the cake.

He didn't get why he had to suffer this way.  Didn't know why Kyungmi heard her sons and not do something. Maybe she didn't hear him but at the same time maybe she should have.

It then made him mad. She should be here right now, not just him. Though despite the huge heartbreak pain he had, the worry for his son was greater.

He couldn't lose him too.

"Father of Jeon Jungsuk?"  A doctor appeared as Junwoo immediately got up nodding.

"That's me! How is he doctor? Is my son okay?" He asked with tears.

"Your son is fortunately stable. He's okay, except he's unconscious but he should be waking up within a day or two, everything seemed to be in tact except there's one thing you should be aware of," the doctor explains.

"What is it?"

"We saw some activity in his brain, that shows amnesia. We don't know how severe it may be, it may be just a simple amnesia. However, he should remember you and your partner. But don't be surprised if  when he wakes up he's confused and doesn't remember getting hurt. If he remembers everything else minus what happened today it could be traumatic amnesia which happens when the brain tries forgetting a very traumatic moment. Has young Jeon experienced anything traumatic recently?" The doctor asked worried as Junwoo looked down. Nodding.

"He watched his mom and I fight then  watched her leave. I didn't know he was watching but he saw everything," he explains regretfully as the father frowns.

"I see well, then he's probably  going to forget such events if they were very painful for him. Though again, we won't know anything until he wakes up. You could  go seem him now," he explains as he nods.

"And it was just like what the doctor said, when you woke up, you didn't know why you were there or what happened. You woke up asking for your mom and I—" he stops for a brief second.

"And that's when the lie had begun. I thought about what the doctor said and knew it was better that you didn't remember such event. So I lied saying she had gone on a an important trip," he explained feeling the hurt as if he was experiencing everything again.

"I remember everythin though. I remembered everything and how it unfolded," Jungkook confesses feeling a lump in his throat. Reliving such memory is still painful.

"Wait what?" His father asked.

"Since when did you remeber?"

"Not so long ago, for some reason, I don't know why. I dreamt about such moment. I thought it was just my brain making up a possible real scenarios of how things going on, now I know that it was a real moment," he says as his father frowns. He didn't want Jungkook remembering any of the pain.

"It wasn't a fun dream at all to wake up from," he confessed.

"I wish you would have had never remembered such moment. You have no idea how worried I was for you. Don't know how angry and upset I was too. However, I didn't change your name right then and there it wasn't until a month later that I changed after developing a huge amount of anger towards your mom. It wasn't fair that she hadn't come back, wasn't fair that I had to suffer alone seeing you that way. It angered me every time you guys asked for her and I didn't know when she would come back, so because I was in the anger stage of my grief of our love, I decided that she wound have a hard time finding you both," he spoke firmly.

"I knew that by changing only one of you guys name was enough. So I changed it to Jungkook and from then on out that was your name, so that she couldn't find you. Maybe it was wrong of me, but I was so upset, because it had been a month almost two and no sign of her, at some point this also caused me to have your grandparents stay far form you all. I was mad and afraid," he says.

He demented the hope had had kept for her to return. Even after she changed his name and was angry there was still some hope that she would win him over and find him again but she didn't.

"Okay, that makes sense. Okay, now I want to know why your attitude changed towards me out of nowhere when with Eunjae everything was well," he asked.

"As you were both growing up, I because even more busy building the company. I had also become even more bitter and angry about her. I didn't know how to deal with the pain and anger that I focus fully on work, building the company and having money for you both. As that was happening, I had noticed that you started having some of your mom's personality traits and tastes," he sighs.

"You started liking music, doing arts.  I didn't want that because I thought that it would trigger you and have you remember her. I didn't want you to remember," he looked at him in the eyes.

"Didn't want you to be in pain, so I became strict with you and I became someone who left music because of the memories it brought. They were painful. It's why my attitude changed. I thought by being strict with you over it, I was helping you but I wasn't and I see that now and for that I'm sorry," he apologizes tearing up.

"That is no good excuse for anything!" Jungkook comments with anger.

"You are practically saying that you were letting the anger that you felt for her, onto me because I reminded you of her!" He looks at him with dark eyes which pained Junwoo, but  he again knows, he deserves it.

"That's no justification! That isn't protecting me! I get you working hard and having less time because you were  building your company, but the other stuff isn't an excuse!" Jungkook keeps the hard tone.

Junwoo looks down with guilt.

He couldn't believe this was his fathers excuse. He maybe understood some part of it but not everything. It still didn't justify his actions in the best manner.

"Helping me? Instead of helping me you were destroying and causing me to have  insecurities, dad! You should have approached me another way!" Jungkook lets the tears out. Breaking down his strong facade a little.

"I thought I had done something wrong! That I wasn't a good son! But you are here telling me that it was just because I reminded you of her when I did things?! Really?!" He asks as the tears fall down his chin.

"So, because Eunjae wasn't doing the same it's why you weren't like that to her? Even though she's literally the portrait of our mother! That didn't cause you to act such way with her. I'm glad you didn't but that's not fair!" He cries out as he puts his hands up.

His father stands up. "Trust me Jungkook, I know. I know that it doesn't excuse my actions, I know it doesn't have any justification I am more than aware and I hate myself for it! Hate that I let out come to that point! Hate that I didn't know how to parents you better! I always felt guilty of it but I didn't know what else to do! I did everything so you couldn't remember that moment. So that nothing tied you to her! Yet somehow you still ended up following the path. However, despite my actions I still loved you! I still cared, I still had you under my roof. I still cared!" He explains his tears also pooling in his eyes.

"Yeah, well you have real fucking shitty way of doing it!" Jungkook bites with resentment.

"That doesn't explain though why you felt shamed of me and why you never showed me to anybody when your company and fame was rising! What? You are going to tell me now that it was to protect me too?" He asked bewildered once more, and chuckles sarcastically.

"Because six months ago it didn't seem that way. So if you will say protecting me I won't believe it when you practically called me a fucked up of this family! Do you know how much that hurt?! I always thought about it but to have you act that way and say such words ruined me! Ruined me even more!" He yells turning around, rubbing his temples as the tears came down nonstop.

"I've always been self insecure of myself but you made me even more insecure with such actions and words!"

He breathed in to avoid himself from crying harder and looking weak in front of him.

"I have never been ashamed of you Jungkook and I will continue to repeat that!" He gets a little near.

" Yes, although it isn't what you want to hear, it was to protect you! Jungkook being in the media isn't as happy as it seems or as nice as it seems. Even for me who is only just a businessmen, it is not easy. I know, how cruel media can be and how fabricated stuff can get out to the world. Although I'm  fortunate to not have such a rough time, I've seen partners and people who have suffered," he gets a little more.close to the younger who keeps his back at him.

"I knew that you were having a hard time in school, I knew how much those pieces of shit in high school ruined your confidence too. I saw you be in your own bubble since you were in middle school, saw how much teachers comments would affect you. So, I knew that it would best to keep you out of the spotlight. Away from all the haters. Away from that toxicity. I even kept your sister from the start, away from it until she begged me to have her show me that she handle it, so I let her. But I knew you weren't ready. I didn't want the media and people who don't know you to hurt you even more! Which is why I kept you out  of everyone eyes in the public," he gets closed as Jungkook only listens. Junwoo wipes his tears.

He didn't know if the younger believed him right now but he needed to be honest and express it all.

"It's why I also was so against you being a musician. I knew you had talent for it, knew you would. I know you have the potential to become famous, and I know the media. So I wanted you to stray away from it. I've just done this to protect you. That doesn't mean I wanted to keep you a full secret. Which is why I would speak so highly of you to others. Even if you have been a little rebellious within time, and I know I should have acted that way with you as well, not just others and for that I'm so sorry my boy," he wants to caress him, put a hand in his shoulder but decides against it. It wasn't a good idea.

"I've always protected you in my own ways. I always have and continue to do so. Who do you think erased all the content from that horrible video of that other horrible day where I thought I would lose you again for a second time? It was me! I did everything in my power to have that video taken down. I didn't want anyone seeing that video not because I was embarrassed of you, it was because I didn't want anyone else to see you in such vulnerable and exposed state, it was me! That day at your school where she appeared, I wasn't there to stop you from your major, I was there to get that Sungchul piece of shit expelled and I got it," he confesses as Jungkook turns around shocked.
So it was him who had made Sungchul get exposed.

"It was you?" Jungkook asked skeptical as he nodded. He knows Mr. Park had told him, but it felt different coming from his dads own mouth.

He decides to go against his current thoughts and lets himself put a hand on Jungkook shoulder.

"It was. Although I haven't been there with my words I've been there for you with my actions. I've just been a real shitty parent with you, no better than her," he looks down.

"I'm sorry my little boy, I'm so sorry for all the emotional harm I've caused you. I did it all thinking that it was for your best but it wasn't.  I didn't open my eyes until you left this house," he cried harder.

"If it was so hard, why didn't you reach out then?" He asked lowly.

"Because I knew that I didn't deserve you back and that it was time for you to find your happiness somewhere else. I thought you were better without me. That you needed more space from me. I should have talked instead I'm aware, but I thought it was my punishment for you to leave," he lets the tears run down his face.

"I'm so sorry that I ever implied that I was embarrassed of you or that I thought you were a fuck up. You aren't one!" He squeezes the shoulder again

"You are my pride and joy! I'm so sorry for everything and I know words don't fix it but I am, I'm sorry that I couldn't give you the proper love. I'm sorry for being an incompetent dad," he cries as Jungkook closes his eyes. He lets the tears drop form his chin.

"I know I'm a piece of shit, something horrible from this world. I don't deserve to have such amazing son as my child. But I am proud of you and I do love you. I'm just very sorry and as a matter of fact," he says as Jungkook widens his eyes to his dad getting in his knees. He didn't know what he was doing.

No father or mother ever gets onto their knees to give a full bow to their children. It's always the other way around.

"I'm on my knees saying sorry. I know I've destroyed what could have been an amazing father son bond and I'm sorry. I'm so sorry," his father sobs as Jungkook breathes in fast.

His fathers cries echoes in the room. 

"I'm on my knees not only for forgiveness but to ask you to give me another chance. I know I don't deserve it, I know I'm the most horrible father in the world but if you let me, if you give me another chance, I promise to be the best father I can be with you," he looks up at his son who was crying too.

"I promise to show you my love directly at you and to support you always. I know I don't deserve it. I know I deserve your hate and your wrath. But give me one more chance. Let me make things right, I miss you so much my boy, so much. I'm sorry, but please," he says as he continues to sob.

Jungkook stays frozen as he cries hard.
All he's wanted his whole life was to hear his dad say he was proud of him and that he was sorry.

Now, he doesn't know how to feel or what to do. He hates to see his dad on his knees for him, though he deserves it. However, he's scared and doesn't know what to do.

He knows now that his dad loves him, showing the proof and what people talked about. He sees in his eyes and his cries that he's sorry, but it doesn't change all the hurt he's gone through. Though it does ignite the hope he always had.

"Follow what your heart says" he suddenly recalls one of his hyungs saying to him. So, he does what his heart is telling him.

He gets down, being at the same level as his father. "Look at me," he says as his father looks at him with red and sad eyes. Looking at it up close is as if he was seeing a mirror of himself.

"Please get up, I get your point now, please sit down, I think we both need it," he says as he tries getting his dad in the chair.

"Thank for explaining everything to me, even though I don't think some of your justifications are fair. I thank you either way for letting me know your way of thinking even though I don't agree with it," he says wiping his tears.

"You are right, you have been a terrible father and you've done things in the most horrible way," Jungkook speaks.

Junwoo looks down  ready to be told he isn't forgiven and that this father and son relationship is broken for good.

"You've caused me lots of bad days and moments. But I also have good memories of our past. I have to acknowledge that despite it all, you stayed, you didn't leave me. That you've given me a roof and that you pay for my education, so because of that I won't break the small piece of our father and son relationship," he sniffles.

"That doesn't mean I've forgotten or that I forgive you fully," he speaks shocking his dad who didn't expect him to give him another chance.

"I'm still very much hurt, and I don't think we will quickly recover what we had. There's just no way, but I can't deny that I have hope that if you try your best, if you go slow and steady that we may someday have a bond again. So, I'll give you another chance because I deserve to have the right to have a united family. Prove to me that you truly do love me, that you have changed and will change," he says nodding as he wipes his eyes.

"Of course! I'll do anything!" His father speaks desperately.

"In a month and half from now I'll be doing a showcase. I'll be performing with some of my friends.  If you like and if you truly mean it when you say you want me back, you will get what I'm trying to say by telling you about the show," he says. His fathers nods understanding clearly.

He really didn't deserve such child. He felt blessed to have him. 

"Thank you Jungkookie! Thank you so much, I promise I won't let you down, I don't care how slow or how long it takes. I'm willing to do anything," he says as Jungkook nods.

He looks away and wipes his eyes.

"Okay, then it's settled," Jungkook says as his father nods. He stands up.

"Are you leaving already?" His dad asks as Jungkook nods.

"Hmm yes. I already did what I needed to do here, I need to think," he says taking his stuff as he walks out.

"Wait, I just wanna know one thing and tell you one more thing," his father stops him and Jungkook turns back.

"H-how have you process the return of your mother? Have you been well with the topic? Have you spoken to her?" His father asked shyly. Surprising the younger one more time.

"I guess I've processed it in a decent way. Or at least I was able to thanks to my friends. What helped was that she was there for me and indirectly explained to me somehow why she did everything she did before she knew and before you both revealed it to me. The topic is still difficult for me, I still have many emotions, more so now that you confirmed my theory of seeing her leave, as to talking to her, I haven't yet. But I will because I need to! I need answers from her just as much too, Eunjae needs to as well, and...you as well," Jungkook answers as he looks down.

"Once your anger is over, once your shock has surpassed i advice  you to have a talk with her, it's only fair, even if you guys never get back together, you both deserve at least a closure to what once was, if you are going to change then this is also a way to get better. You need to let go of that hurt and resentment.

"I'll try to. I need some answers from her too. Anyways, I'll let you go now. Know that this is still your house and that you are welcomed any time!" He softly comments.

"Thanks. I'll take it into consideration. See you!" Jungkook says and comes out the door. He breathes as he closes it. He rapidly goes to the car and once he sits down he lets his head rest on the wheel as breathes in and out from everything that just happened. There were still tears in his eyes but they no longer came down his chin.

He was still trying to process all the information and what he had decided in that moment. He still felt so much tension in his body, so much emotions but he realized that they weren't all bad.

Deep down he felt a small weight off his shoulders.

He felt  hope, and tranquility with what he just did. He didn't know if giving his father another chance was the right decision, but it's what his heart was telling him to do. He guesses you can't help but still want a parents love no matter what they have done or said.

The whole talk had been tense and rough,  but he at least had solved one part of his life. Now, he needed to fix the other part, but before that all he needed right now was comfort and someone to talk to about what just happened.

He starts the car as he makes his way back to the dorms. Back to his hyungs.

A/n: This was a little longer and heavy chapter! We are getting so close! I'd say four more chapters and we are done with this book! I have finished writing the book and all I'm missing is to edit and write the epilogue! Hope you enjoyed and let me know what you think!