Two days Later

"And that Mr and Mrs. Choi is how we ended up getting along. It was all thanks to Professor Jang or I mean Choi? I don't know what to name her, but because of her we ended up putting our differences aside and getting along," Jin concludes his tale of how Jungkook had become their last piece to Jungkook grandparents who looked very invested.

"Huh, our daughter somehow always finds a way to turn enemies into friends and be one happy family! You can call her whatever you guys feel comfortable doing so! I'm sure she wouldn't mind," Mr. Choi replies to Jin.

Jungkook had promised his grandparents that he would introduce his hyungs to them, and since they were close to coming back to Seoul, they had picked today as the best day to do so.

From the moment that his grandparents had met his hyungs, his grandparents had adopted them as their grandchildren. They got to know about them and they got to know more about them and Jungkook. They also had been able to have a nice meal.

Overall, it was going very well and the grandparents felt that Jungkook had just found the right people in his life. However, they ended up being curious on how Jungkook had met them. They knew Professor Jang would be brought up and Jungkook gave them the okay.

"Also, our daughter only gave you seven boys the stepping stone into working together, but it's really up to you if you try to get along or not and know each other. You all seemed to have done just that and I'm glad! What's good is you all talked and moved on," his grandma speaks with a tender sweet voice to the boys who smile.

"Thank you guys really for being our Jungkookies friends and protectors. I'm sure he has told you how growing up he didn't have many friends, so it makes us very happy to know that you guys looked past his walls and protected him, showed him what it's like to go out

and be with people of his age. Truly, thank you!" His grandpa smiles at the others who keep smiling while also shaking their heads.

They felt that Jungkook's grandparents were too sweet. It was no wonder to them that their professor had a big heart too.

"You don't have to thank us. We did this because we wanted to get to know him more. Deep down we always knew that he was just a softball with a rough background. You guys have an amazing grandson! Granddaughter too who we haven't met formally, but we can tell she is just as good," Namjoon smiles.

"We should thank you for having our professor and having Jungkook!" Yoongi comments causing some laughter and disbelief in all of them.

Jungkook smiles, the whole day has just been very heartwarming for him. This is what he needed. A day with family and a day with his friends together.

"Hmm, well I guess we should say team effort no!? Either way, thank you! You all are such good boy, I can tell. Your parents must be very proud. Anyways, I hope I get to see you guys perform at the showcase! I'm sure you will all do great!" His grandpa puts some things up.

"It will be an honor to have you!" Jimin comments while taking a sip of his water.

"Anyways, I think we should be heading out soon. It's getting a little late! You guys must be tired from preparing things all day!" Jungkook speaks after seeing that it is almost 7 in the night.

"Oh my gosh, you are right! It's getting late for you boys! Sorry if we took your time! Also don't worry about us being tired, we are old but not that old yet," his grandma chuckles.

"How about we give you guys some food to take home? For tomorrow! I know that you all leave Seoul after tomorrow so, just to give you all a little something since we made a lot!" His grandpa gets up asking.

"I guess that's fine if you don't mind. We don't want you guys to be working so much for us!" Taehyung frowns.

"It's no problem! How about while you guys start getting ready to head out we all just prepare stuff yes? Okay," his grandma agrees without their consent. Jungkook laughs, gesturing to his hyungs that they should follow them inside.

The boys all get up at the same time and walk back in to get their stuff and get ready to leave. "Today has been a fun day, Jungkookie! Thank you for taking us to meet your family! They are really cute and loving," Jin compliments and thanks as he puts on his coat.

"It's no problem hyung! Thank you guys for joining me!," he smiles and the rest look behind his back to see the two elders with three containers.

"Okay, here you guys go! We put a little but if everything for you all to share tomorrow if you wish!" His grandparents hand them the containers. As they bow and thank them.

"Well anyways, I guess it's time for you guys to go. It was so nice to meet you guys and I hope that we see you all soon! Come on, give us a hug!" His grandpa says as they all laugh and get a warm hug from them both.

"Thank you for everything!" Jimin says as he's almost the last one to hug.

"Thank you! Be sure to tell our daughter that we miss her a lot! We talk with her but it's been some months since she came home," his grandma tells him as Jimin nods.

"I will," Jimin smiles. The boys start heading out and say farewell. Jungkook tells them to get ahead of him.

"Well, I hope I have the time to see you guys again the day I leave but I'm not sure. I wish I would have found you guys sooner. I'll miss you both," Jungkook frowns. The time he spent with them felt too short for his liking.

"Don't get sad honey bun! You found us and we found you again! You have our contact now and nothing will stop us from not seeing each other again, we will try our best to go to your showcase, and you won't lose us anymore," his grandma caresses his face with tenderness.

"We will always be here for you!" His grandpa ruffles his hair making him laugh.

"Hmm, can I have a hug?" He asks and they nod, going in to hug him at the same time. He drops his weight a little into them.

"We know that you are in a dilemma right now with your parents, but hear them out both, when you feel ready. I can't promise that it will solve everything, but I do know that it will bring you peace of mind," his grandma whispers into his ear.

"Everything will work out in the end, you will see my boy! Also, no matter what happens, your parents truly love you! Your dad loves you despite his stupid behavior. I know it's still hard to believe. Your mom adores and loves you too, we love your sister too, so no matter what you decide to do just now they love you, in their own ways, yes?" They break the hug as Jungkook nods.

"Now, go on, it's late, please let us know when you get to Seoul! And if you talk to your sister tell her we love her, that we can't wait to see her again. That we've missed her too!" His grandma says.

"I promise I will and I promise I'll try to hear them out no matter how painful it is, I'll keep my word, I'll also tell noona about you guys. The truth of it all," he smiles as they nod.

"Well I should get going, I'll see you guys soon!" Jungkook hugs them one last time before heading out the door.

"Remember to tell us when you get there! We love you okay?" They both say as they stand at the door. Jungkook nods, smiling and waving to them. He takes a deep breath and with a heavy heart, he walks to the car.

He gets in.

"You okay? It must be hard to know that you will have to wait a while to see them again," Taehyung asked when the other had put on his seatbelt.

"It is, but I'm also satisfied and content because I found them again and I will see them again. But I'm okay, thank you all for coming again," Jungkook smiled.

"It's what friends are for kookie, now are we all ready to go?" Namjoon asks from the driver's seat. They all nod and he begins the car. He starts driving and Jungkook waves one last time at his grandparents who wave back. He smiles, this trip was good after all.

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Jimin looked at Jungkook in worry from his bed seeing the younger stare off at the ceiling as he shook his leg that was hanging from the edge of the bed. He knew something was wrong but didn't know what. Just two hours ago he had come happy from having them meet his grandparents yet here he was looking anxious.

"Hey kook? You okay? You seem a little anxious and have been staring at the ceiling for the past 30 minutes. What's wrong kook? You can tell me," Jimin asked, going over and sitting in Jungkook's bed on the opposite side.

Jungkook huff sitting up and then laying down again but in a more upper position. He grabs a pillow and hugs it. "Sorry, I didn't mean to worry you, but I am anxious. I just started thinking that after tomorrow we leave and then after the day we arrive in Seoul we go back to campus, which means I have to see her again, and I don't know how to feel about it," he bites his lip as he expresses his concerns to Jimin who frowns.

"I don't know how things will be from now on. Don't know how I'll feel when I see her again that day. I'm very nervous honestly, though I shouldn't be but it's hard. I know what I need to do but I don't know. I don't know how this will all figure itself out,"Jungkook bites his lip as he pouts.

"Well it's okay to feel nervous and confused, yes it may have been two weeks since you last saw her but it's still pretty new and raw. She is someone dear to you and was dear to you even before you found out the truth. I have a question though, have you accepted the fact that besides being your professor, she's your mom? I ask because I see it's still hard for you to mention her as your mom," the older asks.

"I-I guess I've accepted the fact. There's no doubt she is my mom, everything shows that she is, our connection, my memories, her story. It's obvious even more so after talking to my grandparents. It's just still hard to believe in the sense that she's been with me for a while again. I've known her as my professor since I met her again, so knowing she is my

mom now. I don't know how to address it, it feels weird to say that's my mom. It feel foreign because it's been so long," he frowns.

"Well maybe it will be hard to address her as your mom, but you will get the hang of it. I don't know what the conclusion of this all will end up for you either, but I am sure that what we are meant to be it's what will happen. If it helps, she still cares, she's always loved you and your sister, but anyways just know we are here okay?" Jimin caresses his leg as Jungkook smiles at him nodding.

"Do you miss her?" Jimin asks as he stands up and goes to his cabinet to take out the letter and puts it in his pocket.

"To be honest, yes? I miss her, I won't lie. I've been missing her all these years. I just still wish she would have told me when she had suspicions. I wonder if it's truly because she didn't want to lose me," Jungkook replies as Jimin nods.

"Well, I think this letter will tell you how she currently feels and felt all these years," Jimin goes and hands him the letter in the envelope. Jungkook looks at him confused as he takes it.

"It's a letter from Professor, she handed it to us when we went to pick up your stuff, she told us to give it to you when we felt it was the right time and I think it's now, I don't know when you will read it, but I think it's the right time to give it, see what she says in the letter and maybe it will help you out," Jimin explains as Jungkook opens his mouth a little as he nods.

He looks at the front that says

To: My Honeybun

Honeybun, the nickname he remembers from her after dreams and after remembering his memories.

"You've had this since the start then?" He asks as he just looks at the letter and doesn't open it.

"Yeah, I'm sorry we didn't give it sooner, we were only following her instructions. But I don't think you would have read her letter with a clear mind and you know it too. You seem to have cleared yourself a little so, I think it's a good time. Read it when you can,"Jimin smiles as Jungkook nods, putting the letter to the side.

Jimin wonders if he would read it all.

"I'll save it for now. I'll read it tomorrow or soon, I just want to end this day being happy. Although I'm anxious, I'm happy too, but I'm not mad, you are right Jiminie hyung, I wouldn't have wanted to do anything with that later at the start," Jungkook confirms, he would have felt too hurt to do so.

"Hmm well, when you are ready. Can I say something though, Jungkookie?" Jimin sits down next to him again.

"Hmm," the boy looks at him.

"I'm proud of the progress you've had so far in your changing journey and in navigating your emotions. I know it's not easy for you, at all. But you are trying and that's what counts. You've handled all this maturely. You have been trying and that's what counts, so I just wanted to let you know that I'm proud and the hyungs are proud," Jimin compliments him. All this time Jungkook, even if it's just with them, has tried to change for the better and show himself.

He seemed less scared to show who he was and talk about his emotions and thoughts. It was good progress and they just wanted him to know it.

"Thank you, a lot of it has been thanks to you guys. It's still very hard for me I still get scared, very scared, but knowing you guys are there to help me, makes me feel at ease. I have a long way to go though," Jungkook frowns.

Jimin smiles going in and hugging him from the side.

"Yeah, but we will be there with you. Everything takes its time!"

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Jungkook was looking at the ocean as the wet breeze hit his face. The sound of the waves created some peace for him as he thought about everything that had happened from his childhood up to the events of this whole trip with the hyungs.

He can't deny that this trip was needed. It was needed because it helped him feel like a regular young man with no problems sometimes, it helped him experience things he didn't think he ever would or had like meeting Jimin and Yoongis parents.

Not to mention how it led him to reconnect with his grandparents that he had missed so much. Led him to at least confirm what his original name was too. It helped him clear his mind and it made him want to continue the change he was going through.

It was still not so easy to be himself, but he wanted to try to change and keep the change not for somebody else but for himself because this trip made him realize that maybe it's true that there will always be people who will like you for being you and who would never judge you for it.

His bond with the hyungs had grown and so thanks to them he now is starting to feel a little more certain of showing his true self. The trip was excellent for his mind, calming too, but still, he was deep down, filled with turmoil in his head over his family matters.

He couldn't deny that being away from his parents had helped ease some of his anger, but he still felt disappointment and confusion. It helped that his grandparents had cleared some things for him, but there were still parts that were jumbled and blurry.

He knew that the only way to get that answer was by talking to his parents. It was time for him to face them and get everything straightened out because it's what he deserved. It's what he needed to finally have full peace in his life. To start healing fully.

"Beautiful view isn't it?" A soft but deep voice says from the side.

He looks to the side to see Jimin's dad coming to sit next to him on the balcony of his home. They had ended up using this last day in Busan to see Jimin's parents for another dinner. It had gone great, but after eating and talking everyone decided to chill in their way. Jungkook decided to go to their balcony upstairs and see the ocean to think.

He had yet to read the letter Jimin gave him yesterday. He was trying to find the right time to open it.

"Yeah, it is beautiful. Despite it being a little far, you still feel the wet breeze," Jungkook chuckled, and Mr. Park chuckled too.

"Yeah, it happens when the waves are a little stronger. I like to come and sit here when I am very stressed or stuck on something. It helps me think or simply relax," Mr. Park added as he looked at the ocean.

"Hmm, it is relaxing. You are lucky to have a home by the beach, I wish we would have had one," Jungkook smiles as he briefly looks at Mr. Park and then at the view.

''Hmmm, once you guys make it, I am sure your dream can come true. Although I guess we are lucky, at the same time, we aren't always in this home, we are most of the time in Seoul too, I have my business there too, but when we are here I do come," Mr. Park shares as Jungkook nods.

"So, have you had fun on this trip Jungkook-ah? Has it been calming for you and your mind? I know you said that you had issues with your parents lately that made you tense, but I am hoping that the trip helped you," Mr. Park asks. He hoped he wasn't seen as nosy, he genuinely just cared about Jungkook not just for being his son's friend, but for being his friend's son too.

"No need to share with your parents, I just wanted to know if it helped you."

"It did, it helped clear my mind and my mood. Some confusions I had were cleared up, but not all of it, though if I am honest with you Mr.Park, I am glad that I went on this trip with the hyungs, and I am glad that I feel less tense, but I still had a whole turmoil in my mind, my parents are still on my mind," he confesses, finding somehow strange that he is again revealing something to someone he's seen only a few times.

"I am not in a good place with either of them. I plan to try and talk to them when I get back to Seoul, but I feel scared that it will be for nothing and that I, or we, will be stuck in the same place—that nothing will change," he sighs.

"Why are you scared? If you don't mind me asking? Why do you think there is a small possibility of things not getting fixed?"

"Well, first of all, my mom. I found my mom again, and it turns out I found her a while ago. I just didn't know and she didn't know until she did a DNA test, turns out that my mom is our professor. Professor Jang," Jungkook reveals as Mr. Park widens his eyes. Junwoo had yet to tell him such information

"Wait what? Your professor is your mom, and neither of you knew that you were related?" Mr. Park asks to have things clearer. Jungkook nods.

"Yes, before I proceed, how much do you truly know about my parent's love story or their situation? Has my dad ever said anything?" Jungkook asked. He wanted to know just how close his father was to Mr. Park

"Yes, your dad has confided in me about some of his stuff. I wouldn't say we are best friends, but we are close friends, besides being good partners. So, I know that the real truth about your mother is that she left when you and your sister were very young and how you all didn't know anything about her all this time," Mr. Park answers as Jungkook nods.

He knew a lot.

"That's right, she left, and we didn't know much or why she left during all these years. We never expected to see her again, but here she ends up being my professor,'' he snorts, shaking his head.

" She didn't know I was her son, although we immediately connected after she had started to want to help me with my emotions, but we didn't know until she got suspicious and ended up doing a DNA test to confirm," He looks down, summarizing the story only.

"She didn't tell me though. Didn't tell me when she was starting to wonder, and didn't tell me when she did the DNA test either. I found it, I found it and confronted her, and funny enough my dad was there when everything was confirmed. He didn't expect to see her, so I am guessing he didn't know of her whereabouts for a while, but he had made her confess accidentally, and I just felt so betrayed by her, by him too,'' he softly sighs.

"Felt betrayed that she couldn't tell me, betrayed that she kept it from me, hurt that she was the one who left us," he leans back in his chair as he explains.

"I didn't know how to take it, I was just mad at them both. With dad because of everything that has happened between us," He looks down and plays with his fingers. "You say my dad loves me, but it's so hard for me to believe that, Mr. Park. It's so hard to believe because all he has done has proved me otherwise. Our last argument was so bad that I moved out," he looks at him with frustration and sadness.

"He was once a loving and caring father towards me, but now, it's been the opposite. He's made me feel so small, like a disappointment? He has hidden and lied to me in so many things too. I-" He stutters.

"I want to fix it, want us to get along again, but I don't know if that is truly possible," He bites his lip, shakes his head and frowns.

"I want to protect him from all the bad that there is out there in the business world. It may seem like I don't want to show him, and it isn't that, he's just been through so much that I don't want the media to go after him and hurt him. He's been hurt enough already," Mr. Park says, instantly confusing Jungkook who looks at him with curiosity.

"What?"

"Those words were said to me by your father. One day, he was worried about journalists being close to finding you and exposing you. I don't know what actions your dad has done to make you think such a way, I'm sure it's been bad based on what you say and the small things he's said, but your dad loves you, he loves you a lot, he just want to protect you, and maybe he should be more clear about it, but he doesn't show you because he's ashamed of you, he's always boasted about you in meetings with others," he smiles a little.

"He just doesn't want you to be shown into the world so that they can hurt you, he cares so much," Mr. Park says grabbing Jungkook's hands as Jungkook shakes his head.

"I'm sorry, but I can't believe that. I'm not saying you are lying, but I don't believe he meant those words. He always says it's to protect me, but he doesn't show it to me. The way he says things makes it seem as if it's because he's ashamed. Otherwise, why didn't he do the same to Eunjae? Maybe he does have some love, but not enough, or in the way he loves my sister, I don't know," Jungkook says frustrated.

He wanted to believe that what Mr. Park was saying was true but so much damage had been done that it was hard. Very hard. Though deep down, he still has hope it could be true, but he doesn't want to illusion himself.

"I'm not supposed to say this, I promised him, but there was a video of you that was shown at a party that showed bad images right?" Mr. Park asks as Jungkook widens his eyes.

How did the man know? It couldn't be that Jimin told him, did he?

"Y-yes, how did you know?" Jungkook asks.

"It wasn't Jimin alright. It was your dad," Mr. Park confesses, hoping this fixes whatever Jungkook and his father have.

"What?" Jungkook asks, shocked.

He didn't know how the video got sent to his dad.

"I don't know, but your dad found out about it and he wasn't happy at all. He was fuming when he told me about it. He was disappointed in himself too, but he told me because he needed my help with some connections I have in deleting videos from social media," he frowned.

"That video was gone and taken care of because he was the one who spent time trying to have it taken down and trying to save you, he was the one who emailed your school," Mr. Park says as Jungkook freezes.

There was no way, no way that in the end, it was his dad who cleared his video. He thought all along that it was Professor Jang, but it wasn't.

"Huh?" He asked again.

"That's how much he cares for you Jungkookie, he did all he could to have it erased so that it wouldn't keep affecting you," Mr. Park looks at Jungkook who he knows is trying to take it all in again.

"Can't say it's his image, when in the video your name wasn't mentioned often, and when nobody has seen how you look, it was only spread online among college students never outside, so as you see, your dad does care and loves you. He just has a fucked up way of showing you, but he does and if you were to talk to him, I'm sure things could clear up and possibly move to a positive light,." He gives him a hopeful smile.

"So in the end, he was the one who had contacted the school and taken down the videos? He knew all along?" Jungkook asks to be sure he heard right. Mr. Park nods.

"He did. He loves and cares for you always has, as I said he's just so fucking pathetic in showing you he does, listen," He squeezes the younger hand more and looks into his eyes.

"What you can best do now is talk to him, talk to your mom, and have things cleared up. I'm sure things will figure out, and if not at least you tried, at least you talked it out, everything always has an explanation too."

"Now, I think what I said caused some turmoil in your head and for that I'm sorry, but I just wanted you to know the truth and to stop feeling unwanted because you are wanted, you are loved Jungkookie, you just need things cleared up," Mr. Park smiles and let's go of Jungkook's hands as the boy nods.

A slight silence fills the room.

"Thank you, Mr. Park. My mind is still trying to process everything you revealed to me, but thank you for hearing me out and giving me advice, I appreciate it," Jungkook smiles at him.

"I know the boys are there for you whenever you feel down or need advice, but I'll be here too if you ever need it. Don't feel shy around me, you are considered family now too," Mr. Park smiles and squeezes Jungkook's shoulder before leaving the boy to think.

Jungkook smiles as he looks at the ocean. He doesn't know what to do, doesn't know how long it's going to take to accept or admit the fact that Mr. Park has really just come here and revealed some information to his father.

He felt confused. He didn't understand how his father could go around speaking so positively about him and stating how much he loves and cares for him when his actions have been the opposite behind closed doors.

He didn't need to tell other people or show people how much he loves him. If anything, he needed to show him only because he is his son. He is the only one he should be trying to prove something to.

All he understood was that now more than ever he needs to talk to his father, and he needs to talk to him before he talks to his mom.

How he wished at that moment he could call her up and wonder what to do with his dad. But he couldn't, not yet at least. Then he remembered the letter that was in his pocket.

Mr. Park said things needed to be cleared up, so he hopes the letter his mom wrote would be of some help. He didn't know what to expect of the letter, which is one of the reasons why he hadn't opened it yet, but it was time to do so.

He takes it out and slowly opens the envelope and unfolds the paper. He starts.

Dear Jungkookie,

I don't know when you are reading this or will read this, but whenever that comes to be I imagine it's because you are ready to hear something from me. My Jungkookie, my Jungsuk, I am so sorry. I know just sorry doesn't fix or change what I've done and it's not even the bare minimum, but still, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for hiding it from you that you were my son. I'm sorry I didn't tell you when I started to have suspicions that you were mine, I'm sorry for the way you found out, and I'm also very sorry for leaving you, your sister, and your dad and causing you all so much pain. I haven't been the best mother, I know.

I'd like to explain to you why I left, but I'd rather do it in person because it's how you deserve it to be told. You and Eunjae deserve to know everything face to face and not just by some letter.

You both are worth more than a letter. However, I can explain to you why I hid the fact that I had found you.

Jungkookie, my honey bun. When I first saw you again after so long, I had no clue you were my son. However, even though I didn't know, I instantly had a strong urge to approach you, help you, protect you. But I held myself back because you seemed to be very introverted. I didn't want to scare you away.

Jungkook breathed, there was that name he dreamt of being called. He thinks back on the exact day he met his mom again. He didn't think anything of it as it was just another professor for him, that was until she saw how bright and happy she was. How fun she made the class, he knew then that she'd probably be a professor he loved to take classes with, but he never thought of her being anything more.

But as time passed I couldn't contain it anymore and I decided to approach you. You were what I thought when I first had a private session with you. You were very timid, in your shell, and very gloomy too. You acted and pretended as if everything was okay, but I could tell in your eyes that you had more going on. When I realized how dim your light was, all I wanted was to make it shine, to make you happy, and be a little more out there. So, I started talking to you more, advising you more, because I wanted to help you. I had the urge. Soon enough, you started confiding in me. You started to come to me without having to approach you myself. That made me very happy. I felt good to know that you had someone to talk to and get advice from. We ended up becoming very close and I ended up seeing you not just as a dear student of mine, but as a son.

Again, I didn't know at that time you were my son, I truly didn't. When you first told me your story, I saw how similar it was to mine, but I never made the conclusion or suspicion then that you were one of the people I was looking for. Although you reminded me so much of your father, and were the age of the son I had, your name didn't match. So, I didn't think anything of it until I got to know more of your story. It was becoming clear that we were getting too similar in our stories. I was in denial though, I still didn't want to think you were my son. I wished for it but knew I would be deluding myself.

I kept going like that, never thinking that you could be my son, until that specific day when you had told me you dreamt of your mom leaving you. The moment you started to explain your dream, I was hit with the realization that what you were describing was exactly what had happened back then. I tried calming myself down, to not show any emotion or change. It

occurred to me that maybe you were related to me, but I didn't think it was the right idea. Until you said my name. It wasn't until you said the name Choi Kyungmi. It was then that my suspicion became bigger. I didn't know how you knew my name or why you dreamt of such a scene.

It scared me to think that you were my son and that you had witnessed me leave.

Jungkook takes another breath as he somehow feels the tears start pooling in his eyes. He didn't even know why but the letter itself just made him feel emotional.

I played it off to you, acting like I was fine, but after you had left that day, I kept thinking back about what the investigator had told me, which was that your father had changed or made it hard for me to find anything about you guys, I started thinking that maybe your father changed your name and that you and your sister were my kids. Then as if it was a sign, I got a call from the investigator telling me he had pictures of my son, that it was him.

When I opened those pictures, it was you who appeared and I broke. My suspicion was right and it was revealed to me that day that you were my son. I didn't know what to do or think, but I did know what to feel. I felt happy to know that I had found you and your sister. I felt life coming back to me! I felt good to know that I had you all along. That you who I wanted to be my own, was mine...But it also killed me more to know that you probably did witness me leaving you.

Jungkook blinked trying to not let the tears fall.

I knew in my heart that it was you and that the investigator wasn't mistaken, but I wanted a DNA test to have confirmation in case of anything. So, I decided that I wouldn't say anything to you until I was sure by DNA that you were mine, and it turned out that you were. You have no idea the relief I felt to know 100 percent that you were one of my babies. That after so long, I had found you. My pride, my joy, my only happiness.

I know I should have told you that day you had told me about your dream, or at least I should have told you about it after the confirmation of the DNA test, but I couldn't. I couldn't because you were going through a rough time, I knew that if I told you, I'd be adding more to your plate, that you didn't need more onto it. I didn't want you to get distracted from your studies. So, I decided that I would tell you only until after the showcase. I knew that by then, you would have been feeling better and wouldn't have to have so many things at once, so you'd be able to

process it with as much time as you wanted. But, even though I knew that I wanted to tell you as to not add more issues onto you, I also knew that I was stalling.

I was deep inside stalling from letting you know the truth because I knew that the moment you would find out, everything between us would change. I knew that I would be possibly getting your indifference and that there was the chance that you wouldn't want me in your life.... I didn't want that to change. I wanted to be selfish and wanted us to stay at peace for as much as it could be done. I wanted to hold on to that affection you have for me. In the end, things didn't turn out and you had known sooner.

Once more, even though it's the bare minimum, I'm so sorry. I know that you probably don't want to face me and feel betrayed by me. I understand. I also understand that you may wish to never be close to me again, and have me far from your life, I understand it and I accept it even though it hurts me. I deserve it, because I've caused you so much pain and trauma. Trust me when I say that I know I deserve it and that I'm suffering from guilt and regret every single time I've been no better than anybody else. But just know that I love you and that even though it's all been done in the wrong way, I've done everything because of the love I have for you, your sister, and your dad. I will forever love you, you're my little boy and that will never change.

Jungkook flipped the paper as he felt a teardrop to his chin after reading the last paragraph of the first page.

However, even though it's very selfish of me, I wish that once you are ready, you would let me explain everything from start to finish. You and your sister deserve to receive an explanation for everything. It doesn't matter if you both decide to not have me or forgive me after it, but I hope you at least give me the chance to explain it all and clear everything up. That's all I ask.

If you do forgive me afterward, I'd be happy and I'd promise to never leave. I promise to do my best to make it up to you both and be the best mom. The mom I couldn't be back then. I would show you all the love in the world and be there for you every step of the way like I have now. If you don't forgive me, although I'll be upset, I'll still love you both to the end and see you guys from afar. I'll still find a way to show the love and care I have in whatever way no matter the distance.

It's up to you and her, I trust you guys will make the decision that is more comfortable and better for you both. Just know that no matter what I'll be there and that I love you. I've lived with both of you since the moment I found out about you guys and I never stopped. I'm sorry I left. Sorry, I made things go this way. However, my love for you both never ended.

With love

Your Mom

Jungkook closes the letter as he wipes his tears away. Things made more sense now. His hyungs words about her being scared echoed in his mind, they ended up being true. She did love him. He knew it too, but all he needed was her words.

"Once I go to Seoul you both have a lot to do for me," he says. Not knowing the true fate of his family's future.

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A/N: Hope you liked the chapter! I had this chapter written for a while just didn't get to edit it because I was stressed with school and my finals. Finally, it is edited and a new chapter should be posted soon! I know it has been a long journey but hang on tight because just a few more chapters and we finish this story! Thank you for reading! <3