"He is more than just a fucking cold hearted coward! Like, I don't know how the school can just keep him after everything he does! I sometimes seriously wish someone would just come and put him into his place. Make him see that he is not everything he is, to let him know just how awful it is when one hurts others. Gosh, I fucking hate him." Taehyung huffs in frustration as he angrily sits down on the couch behind him. He had been ranting for the past hour over the other boy after having one of them mention him in a conversation they were having.

"Please, the only people who truly confront him and show him how shitty he is is us. Though I wish someone would come and show that asshole something good too, it won't happen. Guys like him don't  always hit bottom or get put into their place. I sometimes just wonder if he has always been like that." Namjoon comments as he shoves some food in his mouth.

"I feel like most likely. I mean, people always have reasons as to why they are the way they are. He couldn't have just been born as an asshole. Things don't work that way." Jimin tries to answer the question but the others shake their heads in disagreement.

"It doesn't matter how he grew up Jimin ah, no actions are truly justifiable when it comes to hurting people, and he hurts people." Jin responds back. It's Jimin who now shakes his head in disagreement.

"Were you really trying to defend him Jimin?" Taehyung asks coldy.

"What? No! Look, just because I said that some people are the way they are because of their past, doesn't mean I'm defending him. I was just trying to answer hyungs question. You guys know I think he is an asshole, I don't even know why I am explaining myself to you right now taehyung." Jimin says a little defensively. In all honesty, Jimin was the only out of the six of them that truly didn't hate Jungkook fully. Of course he thought the younger one was a complete asshole who was way too mean to people, and of course he too gets annoyed with the guys attitude most of the time as well, but something inside Jimin has always thought the boy has his reason for acting as such. They may not be the right ones whatsoever, but no is mean just because they feel like it deep down.

"Ima go walk for some fresh air, the tension gets too heavy when we talk about jeon. Text me if you need anything." Jimin says as he gets up and puts on his cap. The others only nod, knowing he is right and watch him leave Yoongi's mini studio.

"Jimins  right, let's ignore everything about Jungkook for the rest of the evening and night. The guy isn't worth our breath." Yoongi speaks and the rest sigh, knowing he was right.

Jungkook groaned as he opened his eyes. They were a swollen, puffy red mess from crying. He hadn't even realized he fell asleep until he looked at the time and saw it had been a couple hours. As he sat up, he felt a small headache nagging in the back of his eyes. He popped a couple painkillers and figured he'd better just do his homework. It wouldn't take him long.

About the time he was finishing up, he heard a knock on his door. He opened it to see one of the nice maids hand him a plate of food with a drink on the side. "You missed dinner. Your sister said she knocked once, but assumed you were sleeping or busy so I decided to see if you still were up. It's dinner." The nice maid says. "Really? How long since my father and sister had dinner then?" Jungkook asked the nice lady.

"About an hour ago." She replied and Jungkook smirked. His sister really loved to lie to others about him. And their father was no different from her. "I see. Well thank you Siwoo ssi!" Jungkook bows and the lady bows back before leaving. "Knocked on my door my ass." he bitterly says. "Why not just say you don't want me dining with you both. No need to beat around the bush when the same thing is said all the damn time." He says before beginning to eat his dinner. Upset that once more, they ate without him.

As soon as he was done he headed out and got on his motorcycle. He began driving to help clear his head.

  He arrived and parked near a lake. He took off his helmet and put it on the bike before walking to the lake. He stopped and looked at his reflection in the water.  He stared at it for a while before shifting his eyes up to the sky. After a while, he locked his bike up and headed towards the cemetery near the lake. He needed to see his grandma's grave. Even if she wasn't there with him physically, he still needed to vent out like she was. When he arrived, he sat down and glanced down at her stone. He felt the tears well up in his eye and fall down his cheeks.

"Hey grandma, it has been a while, right? I'm sorry about that. I promise to come more often. I mean in the end whether you bring me peace no matter where you are." He says as he sits down on the grass. He pauses and sighs. "Some days are hard. Very hard. They feel even harder when I know there is no one I can truly go to, rant to, and get comfort for. How much I wish you were physically still here.  I know you may not be proud of my recent actions, but I don't know what else I can do, grams? I sometimes wish I could have the courage to put down that mask and just yet be who I am. But I can't. I feel like, if I pull away from this mask, my weaknesses will be shown. I feel like I would just be going back to the painful past. Something I truly don't want. So, I just keep it, even though nothing about it is truly me. I also just feel so alone. Why did I have to be someone people dislike being around? Why did I have to end up being a loner? Why do I disappoint people? Why can't I be loved? You may think or say dad and Eunjae do love me, but I don't see it. I doubt it. I mean, dad is always ghosting me, scolding me, telling me to be better all the time. Then Eunjae, noona seems as if I'm the last person on her mind. I know she is almost done with her masters, I know that she is busy getting to know dad's company, I know she has her friends and her life, but it seems as if she is an only child. It seems as if I'm only there or she only cares when she remembers she has a brother, other than that I'm the last person she would be attentive to.

Then her, my mom, Should I say birth giver instead? It is clear what she also thought and feels or felt about me. Or else, she would have never left us, left me. My small memories show she cared, that she loved me, but in the end it must have been fake because...because you never leave the people you love. You never leave someone who you truly care for, At least you don't leave the way she did.  If she loved us, she would be here, she would have seen me grown up and she would have been proud of me. If she hadn't left and cared, I would have probably never have had much of a strained relationship with dad. If she would have loved them, and me... I probably would have never become what I have become." He looks down, sighing.

"But, it is not like I can go back in time and change it. It is not like anything I do now or in the future would help my situation either way. Guess, I have to suck it up and admit my reality. That I'm truly alone, and that I'll never be loved. At least not after you. Anyways, I should stop being depressing and actually talk to you about the few good things that happen in my life, though they are very limited." He says, trying to change the mood. He stays there pouring and speaking to his grandma's grave until he decides to leave and head back home.

"Jungkook-ah, where the hell were you? I didn't give you permission to be out young man." His father demandes as soon as he had walked through the door. The boy rolled his eyes before responding back. "Why do you care where I was? You never care about what I'm doing and where I am at. I don't see how you asking me makes any sense. Or matters now Either way, last time I checked, I'm of legal age, which means I'm a fucking adult, which means I can do and go as I please." Junkook bitterly responds heading to the stairs to go to his room.

"Excuse me? That is no way to talk back to me Jungkook! I have every right to know where you go! You live under my roof, so my house, my rules, my rights. I am also your father. You may be an adult,  but I still need to know if you aren't doing anything stupid. Also, your sister has been telling me you have been coming home lately, why is that?"

"Ahh, I see what this is now. You suddenly care where I am or what I'm doing because you are scared that the public will find out about who I am now as an adult man.  I mean I do have to acknowledge that it was barely two weeks ago when someone was close to publishing something about me to the world. You are scared that you will be judged for having the son you have. Scared for others to know I don't want to inherit the company. Scared for others to say something about what I am actually majoring in. I see. Well, don't worry, I wasn't doing anything to taint your image, nor am I going to. No need to know or act like you care about what I do. You haven't done so in twelve years, I don't see why you would now. " Jungkook responds back a little more firmly.

"You keep being a disrespectful ignorant brat huh. I truly wonder how you are this way when I've raised you to be the opposite. Amazing." His dad sarcastically chuckles. "You can't be more wrong and ungrateful. Really who raised you this way? He asks again.

"Look here young man, if I didn't care about you, you wouldn't have a roof under your head right now. If I didn't care about you I wouldn't have switched you to online learning after what happened three years ago in high school. If I didn't care about you I Wouldn't have given you a car, or bike. If I didn't care about you I wouldn't have let you keep that good for nothing major you have. Because what you are studying for is nothing but ridiculous and it will lead you to nowhere, yet I let you even though I shouldn't. Also, it is not that I'm scared of the public Jungkook, what annoys me is that people will say something or make up something about you or us that is not true or fake." His father spits out and Jungkook laughs, finding it ridiculous how his dad thinks he shows Jungkook care by materialistic stuff. Laughs at how his father just proved or indirectly exposed, once more, how a shame he is to the Jeon family.

"What you think shows that you care is MEANINGLESS. It is all material. It so fucking funny how you believe all that shit shows you care about me. It is also funny how you say that it is not because you are ashamed of me that you are worried about where I went. You literally said you are ashamed of me in different words! As for my major, it is not worthless! I am following my heart and many people have excelled after taking that major!  I don't know what you have against me and what I love. Oh, I know, it is because you want everyone to believe I am following your footsteps, because nothing can be as good as business right? Why is everything that I do so shameful to you? Why is it that everything I do never pleases you! I try my best, I always have! You just can't see it because you think so low of me! You say you care, but you don't care shit! It is all just bullshit! Why am I not good enough huh!?" Jungkook screams in frustration. He was already having a bad day, and this conversation with his dad isn't making it any better.

"Maybe I wouldn't always be thinking so low of you if you acted like a fucking adult! You don't think I hear what people say about you in your school? You don't think I know what is going on? You don't think I know that you just act like an immature child chasing immature dreams? Maybe I wouldn't think so low of you if you actually were like your sister! Maybe I wouldn't think so low of you if you actually saw the world as it should. But you don't! Maybe I wouldn't if you weren't such a screw up!" His father angrily and widening his eyes as he analyzes what he had just said.

Jungkook looked at him astonished at what he had just said. "Screw up." is what keeps repeating in his head the moment after he heard it. He always knew his father was ashamed, always knew his father didn't care for him the way he did with his older sister. He knew that his dad didn't agree in many things that he does or decides, but he never thought his dad thought that of him. But hearing it come out his mouth and confirming it, hurt Jungkook so much. It felt as if someone had just pierced a piece of glass into his skin. It hurt him that even his own father for sure saw him as worthless. It shocked him that the man that once showed love for him, that the man he in some ways secretly looked up to despite how he was treated believed he was a screw up. He feels tears pool in his eyes, but rapidly tries to blink them away.

"I am a screw up huh? You know what? It is not the first time someone has called me that. I've been told I am a fucked up and more by other people, but I never expected to hear it that negatively out of the man who claims he raised and cares about me!! Well, if I am such a screw up and embarrassment for you why don't you just fucking disown me and tell me huh?! I am tired of feeling unloved by you! I am tired of trying to live up to your expectations! I am tired of your SHIT TOO! I AM TIRED THAT YOU ARE ALWAYS CRITICIZING WHAT I DO AND SAY! I WON'T GET ANYWHERE IN LIFE WITH WHAT I LOVE? FINE. I'LL SHOW YOU HOW FULL OF SHIT THAT OPINION AND CLAIM IS. I BURDEN YOU? I EMBARRASS YOU? I AM A SCREW UP? Fine, don't worry I will clear that away for you. Maybe then you will finally be proud of me, though I doubt that will happen. Screw up? Hmm. I see." Jungkook says, nodding his head before rushing up the stairs, he could hear his dad calling his name but he just ignored him. He slams the door of his room once he enters and stars to feel the tears run down his face. "Don't cry Jungkook. You already cried rough today. Don't cry, you are better than this." He tells himself as he tries to ignore the ache in his chest. He wipes his tears and immediately starts to call the campus.

"Hello, good night, I'd like to know if there are any good enough size dorms still available and how much would it add to my cost to live in one?" He asks and starts writing down information and giving out his card information. He was done being in a place where he didn't feel loved. He was tired of the neglects and judgements and rulesHe'll show his dad what he's made of. He may only be in his second year of college, but he'll show him that he can do without his help. He packed up all of his meager things onto suitcases and a bag.

Once he has everything he feels he needs, he grabs a pen and paper and starts writing on a note.

If you see this note, and notice that my room is empty, it is because I have left. I left not only for my peace, but for the peace of others in this house. I'm done with everything. I'm done with always disappointing people and embarrassing them. I am tired of not feeling like I belong. Actually, I don't belong here at all, at least it seems that way after what was said today. I hope that I truly am doing whoever reads this and lives here a favor. I'm tired of never having anyone support me and having belittled what I love the most. I can't and won't tolerate it anymore. I am an annoyance and burden, I know. However, I have decided that as of now, I won't care to hear what either of you have to say. I'm old enough to take care of myself, and I have enough money to not be here anymore. I'm moving somewhere else. Don't worry, it is not like anyone has in the first place either way. Only contact me when you have finally accepted me. Until then, leave me alone. Or forget about me.

Until next time.

- Jungkook

He put the note on his desk and sighed. He got up from the chair and looked at his room. He shook his head and took his stuff silently by exiting through a path that is not really used for leaving. He looks up at the house. His heart feels heavy, he doesn't know if he is making the right choice, but for now, it is what may be best. He loads his stuff onto his car and moves his bike outside in order to be able to pick it up the next day. He gets inside and drives away. Leaving the place that he at some point felt was his home.

A/n - This chapter had some changes and no changes. I wonder if you guys will be able to tell what's changed, what's been added and what's been removed. Guess I'll see anyways hope you like it! Comments and feedback are always appreciated!!