The sound of rain drops pattered outside the window. I opened my and saw the white ceiling with dark wooden borders at each corner. My eyes glanced at the dark clouds crying outside, giving the day a dark gloomy sight.

What happened?

I tried to sit up but my head started to hurt badly. I held it with my hand. Then I felt someone held my back.

"Don't sit up. You're still tired."

Shouto...kun?

I looked at my left but I saw a man with black hair and silver eyes, wearing white sweater and black pants. His face was serious yet concerned.

With his help, I laid back down my bed.

"Shin..." My voice sounded surprisingly weak. "What happened?"

"You don't remember?"

"Remember what?" I asked him.

"You and Shouto last night."

My eyes widen. It all just came back to me. When Shouto-kun came to me while I was crying. When Shouto-kun tried to comfort me. When Shouto-kun stopped my tears.

When Shouto-kun kissed me.

When Shouto-kun told me that he loves another.

Tears started filling up my eyes once again. I tried to stop them but it made a lump in my throat. My eyes finally gave up.

"Is that all you remembered?" Shin asked looking through my golden eyes.

I wiped my tears, even though it's useless to do so. His words confused me. "D-did something else happened?"

"You really don't remember?" He asked once again.

"He's dead Aoi."

Then a dark red liquid started coming out from his lips. My eyes widen.

"S-Shin?!" He started coughing up blood. Then his eyes cried crimson tears. His arms bled as well.

The four walls of my room turned from white to pink to blood red.

"You really don't remember?" Shin asked once again? His silver eyes looked frightening as it seemed to look brighter with the whites of his eyes turning red.

Tears fell uncontrollably from my eyes. I tried moving my body but I couldn't.

"You killed him Aoi."

No... That's impossible!

"N-no..."

There's no way I would do that!

Right?

"You killed Shouto"

Or would I--

"No!"

"You killed us Aoi. You really don't---"

NO!" I screamed.

"Aoi!"

I opened my eyes. The sound of rain drops pattered outside my window. The day looked gloomy.

His eyes as silver as the moon looked at me with concern. I looked at his pale face inches away from me.

No blood...

"You were dreaming something horrible." He stated.

I panted. My lungs felt so tight.

"Shouto-kun? Where is Shouto-kun?" My voice couldn't hide my fear.

"He's alright. Nothing happened to him."

"But I..."

"It was a dream, Aoi. Nothing more." He held both of my cheeks, trying to calm me down.

"What happened?"

His hands gently went to my shoulders and back. He helped me sit up. I clenched the skirts of the black dress I'm wearing, waiting for an answer.

He moved away a bit giving me personal space.

"You were asleep for four days." He replied.

"Four days?" I asked again, confirming if I heard him correctly. He nodded.

"The reason might probably be your usual headaches from your amnesia."

I held my head, trying to recall what happened before I lost consciousness. But I couldn't remember anything. Just the fact that Shouto-kun kissed me.

"Shouto-kun...Where is-"

"He's fine Aoi."

Then I remembered my dream. I could feel my heart clench inside...Shouto-kun is...

"I need to see him! I-"I tried getting out of bed

But Shin held my arm and pulled me back.

"Aoi you need to rest. You haven't eaten anything for four days. You're too weak-"

"I still need to see him." I stated firmly, staring into his eyes.

"It was just a dream Aoi. You don't have to worry about anything."

"If I don't need to worry about anything then you should let me-"

"He doesn't want to see you!"

And just like that, silence filled the room.

Shouto-kun doesn't want to see me? Why? What have I done? Did I do anything wrong? Why does everything seems so frustrating?

I heard Shin's sigh.

"You just woke up after 4 days and all you think about is Shouto. Seriously Aoi? Can't you think about yourself first?" Shin glared at me.

My eyes widen. I looked away.

"S-Sorry...It's just that--"

I was just afraid

I was afraid that I might've done something.

And maybe I did.

"You're always like this. Even when you lost your memories, you're still the same Aoi I know."

I bit my lip.

"The same Aoi... Who is Aoi anyway? Who exactly am I anyway? I t-thought..." My chest tightened. "I thought that I was going to be okay without my memories but I was wrong. I don't know anything. I..."

I shut my eyes closed, remembering what Shouto-kun said to me. When he said that it was going to be okay, that he would protect me.

"I thought I was going to learn who I am on my own. O-or maybe my memories would come back but it's been two months since I woke up from that coma and I'm still clueless. I thought I am a normal person with dreams but it turns out I'm not."

He said that he would protect me.

But now he doesn't even want to see me.

"I'm being chased by villains and I am the fiancée of the s-son of a pro-hero, and turns out he has a girlfriend, a-and he told me that right after---"

Shin held my cheeks.

And wiped the tears rolling from my eyes. But his expression told me that it's okay to cry. His expression told me that he's willing to listen.

"Shin... I'm tired" I sobbed. "I'm tired not knowing anything."

"I know..." He hugged me, resting my face on his black shirt. "I know, Aoi."

"If you already know then please...please just end this... end this pain..."

"Once you know what really happened, you'll also know another kind of pain. Are you okay with that?"

"I don't care! I just wanna know...!" I yelled, clutching tightly on his shirt.

I'm tired.

I'm tired of this ignorance... If this is to protect me then I don't want it.

"Okay...If that is what you want." Shin stated. He gently pulled my away from him, and looked to my eyes.

His moonlight eyes were caring. He held my hand.

"Close your eyes." He stated. I followed.

Then I felt his lips onto mine. It was only a gentle peck but it was enough to startle me.

"What are you-"my words stopped when I opened my eyes.

There I saw a little girl inside a room. She has pale blue hair and eyes of gold.

SHIN

"Okay... If that is what you want." I stated sincerely at this crying girl in front of me. It was enough to stop her from sobbing.

I pulled him away from me gently and looked at her eyes. They were like the morning sun, but they were pink with tears. Her desire to know her past can no longer be stopped. I held her hand.

"Close your eyes." I stated gently and she obeyed. I leaned close and planted a gentle peck on her lips.

And then her body lost her consciousness. I held her back to help her lay down and sleep, while she explores her memories I specifically organized for her just for this moment when she wants to know them.

My head felt so heavy due to having to control the amount of information I must hand over to Aoi's consciousness. It's been more or less than a year since I've done this again after all.

While balancing the weight on my head, I took my phone from the pocket and called him. It took two rings before he pick his phone up.

"Kuroiwa."

"Shouto." I greeted back. "She's already exploring her memories."

"I see"

"Are you not going to come upstairs and see her?"

There was a pause on the other side of the line. I took the time to close my eyes and watch over Aoi. She was looking around the strange scene before her.

"I can't" Shouto finally replied.

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08-07-2018

Hello! I'm so sorry, I didn't get to update last Friday T^T But the chapter is here now~

I had to edit a chapter, if you have time you can reread it ^^; sorry for the inconvenience

I hope you'll have a great day!