Chapter dedications to Athena_009. I hope I'll take you to Goa with me some day.😂😂♥️
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[Louis/William]

Harry and I are sitting on the couch, eating the cake we made which is surprisingly delicious, but there in an unsettling tension in the air that I can't put my finger on.

Harry have been quiet the whole time we were making the cake. One moment he would just stare at me with hurt flashing in his eyes and the other, he would just stand there glaring at me. I just tried to ignore it all, but I can't take it anymore.

"What is it, Haz?" I ask in a small voice.

"I don't know, you tell me. What is it?" He tilts his head, but I could see it in his eyes, he exactly knows what I'm talking about.

"You've been glaring at me for a while now." I point out.

"You're hallucinating." He says with no emotion.

"Whatever." I drop it as I look down at the cake and take another bite.

"Will?" I hear him say quietly. I look up at him but he's looking at his slice of cake.

"Yeah?"

"Is Zayn an orphan?" He asks out of nowhere.

"No.. I mean.. He grew up at the Tomlinsons." I answer and ponder my thoughts if I had ever told him otherwise. I don't remember anything like that.

His head shoots up at my answer and he looks at me suspiciously before looking back down at the cake before nodding.

What's even going on in his head?

The next few minutes passes by in silence before he decided to break it with another question.

"What was your dad's name?" He asks after a while.

"I don't know.." I say, trying my best to not snap at him. What is he up to? Why is he asking so many questions today?

"Then how do you know your name?" He questions.

"The workers in the orphanage told me."

"How did they know?"

"I don't know!"

He nods and gets up to put his dish in the sink. Today is not the time to talk to him, I conclude.

"Harry, I think I should leave now." I say carefully as I put my dish in the sink as he drinks some water from a bottle.

"So you got what you came for?" He asks.

"What does that mean?" I ask and he shrugs. What the hell?! I shake my head and kiss his cheek before leaving. It hurt me when he didn't even lean his cheek towards my lips as I did so, he didn't even smile at me, he didn't even fucking look at me.

I don't know why, but Harry is upset. My Harry is upset. He is supposed to be happy and cheery all the time, not sad or upset.

I need to talk to him. I need to make him feel better, comfort him, take care of him. I have to be a good boyfriend for him and I'll do it all, for him.

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As soon as I reach home, I take a shower and change into my normal clothes. I hear my phone ring, so I answer it while drying my hair with a towel.

"Hey, Zayn!" I say into the device.

"Hey, mate! So, I was thinking.. "

"That's dangerous!" I laugh loudly.

"Not funny, you liliput! Anyway, I was thinking if you're up to hang out in the club tonight? Get laid and all that."

"Firstly, don't call me that. Secondly, I'm busy tonight and even if I weren't, I'm not gonna sleep with someone who's not Harry and cheat on my Love." I say dreamily. God, the things that boy do to me.

"Love you can't even stand up for." Zayn says with a taunting laugh.

"Enough, Zayn! I told you, I'll try which I already am doing. I'm trying to be a better boyfriend, a better person for him."

"Whatever. So, I assume you're 'busy' with him tonight?"

"Yeah. He's a bit upset today, so.." I trail off.

"Oh. Alright. What's up with him? He was cool when he talked to me." He says.

"He talked to you? When?" I ask, totally surprised.

"Oh well, he called me to talk about William."

"William? Wha- why would he- what did he talk about William?" I can't shake the nervousness now. What if Harry got suspicious about me?

"Well he asked how I know him. That's all."

"And what did you say?" I gulp.

"I told him that we grew up in the orphanage together." Oh shit!

"Zayn! Why would you say that?" I almost cry out.

"Why not?"

"Because I told him you grew up with the Tomlinsons." I pull my hairs. I really feel like crying.

"Loueh, you idiot! How the fuck is it to possible for me to be your 'childhood' friend, like you told Harry before, if I grew with Tomlinsons and you in the orphanage?"

"Shit! I didn't remember telling him of us being childhood friends." I say as my hands starts shaking. What if he finds out? What if he hates me? No, no, no, no, that can't happen. I can't lose him.

"Ha! Someone lost the track of their own lies."

"Zayn, I fucked up."

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After an hour of crying and imagining about how I would be without Harry, I get up of the bed and make my way to visit Him.

As I reach his house, I knock twice before the door fling opens, revealing my beautiful boyfriend, who currently looks like a mess.

"Lou? What are you doing here?" He sniffles and rubs his eyes with his sweater paws.

"Baby... what happened?" I step forward and wrap my arms around the crying boy and he latches on me without hesitating and sobs in the crook of my neck. "Shh.. it's alright, Cherry. Just calm down, Doll."

I try to move him from the place, but he's like frozen to the ground. So I pick him up off the ground by keeping a supporting had under his bum. He doesn't protest and just wraps his legs around my waist.

I walk to the couch in the same position which ends up with Harry sitting on my lap, straddling me, while I cradle him back and forth as he cries.

"Pudding, are you at least gonna tell me what's the matter?" I ask, resting my head on his shoulder.

"Pudding?" He asks and looks up with glassy eyes. His eyes are rimed red and his nose and cheeks have turned pink from crying. He looks adorably small, innocent and beautiful like this.

"Yeah." I smile and cup his cheeks with both my hands. "Because you're so soft and so sweet." I say as I bump our noses and rub them together in an eskimo kiss. He giggles as I kiss his nose.

"Why are you so nice to me?" He asks and pinches both my lips together with his thumb and pointer finger.

I give him a 'how do you expect me to answer with my lips shut?' Look and he giggles before releasing my lips, but not before giving them a light peck.

"Hm. Well, because I-" love you. "I'm your boyfriend who is supposed to be nice, loving... caring... caring..." I drag on, not being able to find any other words.

"And a gangster who might kill people, but when he comes home to me, he becomes the softest person I've ever seen." He says, hiding in my neck again. "And with who I maybe in love with." He whispers and my breath hitches.

I love you too. I want to say, but I decided to pretend I didn't hear it.

"What?"

"Nothing." He says and I could feel him smile against my neck.

"Why were you crying, precious?" I finally ask.

"A friend lied to me." he says and I nod for him to continue. "I hate it when someone I love, trust and care for just lie to me like I mean nothing to them." He says and I feel a lump growing in my throat at his words.

"Lou?"

"Yes, Green?" I ask and he smiles at the nickname.

"I know who you are, what you do and what you're capable of doing, but I still trust you. I don't know why, I just do. I know my parents are after your family and business, but I'm still dating you. I don't even care what they might say about it. Do whatever you want, Lou, just- just don't ever lie to me. Don't break my trust, that would break my heart. Please." He says, looking straight into my eyes as he does so.

He hugs me and a tear slips from my eye as I tell him the biggest lie of all.

"I won't."

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Heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

*Twelve hours later*

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Why the fuck did I do that?^^

Anyway, ignore me I'm crazy.

So this is a scene between me and my mum that happened yesterday :-

[My gay ass: *laying in bed, listening to 'I wish you were gay' by Claud*

Mum: *walks in annoyed* can you change that song?

My gay ass: *nods and changes the song to 'Girls like girls'*

Mum: *gets more annoyed* some song about liking boys?

My gay ass: *nods and changes the song to 'He likes boys'*

Mum: *about to burst in anger* something that goes like.. I like boys?

My gay ass: *nods and changes the song to 'I like boys' by Todrick Hall*

Mum: DON'T YOU HAVE ANY SONG ABOUT A BOY FINDING A GIRL?!

My gay ass: *stares for straight (gay) ten seconds and nods* Ofcourse *changes the song to 'I found a girl' by The Vamps*

Mum: *Stares*

My gay ass: *stares*

Mum: *shakes head and leaves*

My gay ass: *shrugs and makes a 'tsk' sound like AAOOD Zayn*]

I wasn't invited for dinner that night 😂😂

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