You know the worst part about having heroes as parents? The standards.

Sometimes they seem so perfect they overshadow everything I do. What is a huge accomplishment for me, to them is just an everyday occurrence because they have seen and lived through so much more. they already had priorities before me. No matter how hard you try there will always be something more important than you in the line, always unless you are the issue. Sometimes the only way to beat out those other priorities is to become worse than them, to become the complete opposite of what your parents were.

Because what is the one thing they have never accomplished? Being the opposite of what they are. So if they are the greatest heroes, they have never been the greatest villains. Maybe if I can't get out of their shadow in heroism why not become the shadow.

Sometimes I regret the decision to do this, but other times I am glad I did it. Now all my mother worries about is what I am doing, not the senate, not Luke, not the Jedi, nothing else but what I am doing. Where am I attacking next? what am I planning? I am no longer not a priority, I am not the number one priority.

The only way one can truly be noticed all over, even if you only need one or two to see, is to either doing something phenomenal, or something absolutely horrible. So when you can't outshine the stars, you just have to cover them up and cloak them in darkness. How do you become noticed by the most famous people in the galaxy? But not just anyone in the galaxy, your parents, your family. How do the heroes of the galaxy notice the one person in their family who they knew that was never a hero? Even my grandfather, one who was believed to be the worst villain of them all was also once one of the greatest heroes to ever live. How do you get out of the shadow of perfection. How do you escape a prison of darkness? You become the darkness, you control it and morph it into what ever it is that you need to survive, to meet your ambitions, how ever meager and small they may be. All I wanted was attention from my parents. Such a small thing that so many have. I didn't want my own planet, I didn't want to rule, I didn't want to be a hero, I didn't want to be known by the galaxy, I didn't want to be a jedi, all I wanted was some attention from two people. Only two. Not even people that seemed out of reach. It wasn't like I was a random kid on a back water planet who wanted to have the attention of the great Rebellion heroes Princess/Senator Leia Organa and Smuggler/General Han Solo. I just wanted the attention from my parents, Leia Organa and Han Solo.

So who am I in a galaxy of heroes?

I am the Villain, the only place I belong. The only place I stand out. The only place where my parents and family notice me. The only place where I have my one wish in life, the attention of my parents.