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Trapped in a time loop, relentlessly searching every nook,
The fleeting moments penned out inside your life's book,
With so many chapters that are yet without a title,
Still afraid to look and losing sleep, a never-ending cycle.

A hurricane of thoughts overwhelming from within,
Making doubts resurface as chills creep on your skin.
Viciously, you're pushed in and swallowed whole,
Now slipping through the vortex of a black hole.

Half submerged in the cold depth of a daydream,
Walking on roads familiar to you, though it may seem,
Futile attempt to block and hide your old fears and still,
Unknown forces pull the strings against your will.

Light fading into twilight, streetlights blazing golden hue,
Gloomy and cramped, the bridge lays now before you.
With faint silhouettes seen in the dim light of a dark blue,
Painful haunting memories flashed before your view.

A figure in the distance brings you to a sudden halt,
Sharp breath of air inhaled, burning like strong malt.

Frozen in your place, feet glued to the ground,
Your legs refuse to move and winds are laid with sound.
Your chest gets tight and you're having trouble breathing,
Cold sweat forming, limbs on body shaking,
Over the ledge leaning, a step the figure's taking.

You're now just an observer, the mouth shut tightly,
Screaming loud inside seeing only what is happening.
Eyes watered up and tears rolling down on burning cheek,
Panic rippling through making your heart weak.

Fists closed with nails piercing deeper into your skin,
Behind blurry eyes, images flashed from within,
Moving forward to catch the soul before the jump in.
Your hand goes aimlessly through ghost thin air,
Strange feeling of deja vu, resurfaced burden you can't bear,
Reflection clear, for it's You who's standing there.

Left paralysed at the sight before your eyes,
Old memories rushing back with bitter taste arise.
Slave to your thoughts, just wanting to disappear,
And starting to wonder why you are still here.

Stuck in this vicious cycle restless and terrified,
Hard to keep your light alive when you're dying from inside.
Waves crashing the shore weighing your heart down,
Ice cold, drowning in the dark with no one around.

Unbearable nightmare when bad memories begin to creep,
Screaming with agony your body is begging for sleep.
As painful as waiting is for something new to happen,
The worst is not knowing what to do, you feel trapped in.
With countless scars, your pierced heart risks to break,
How to wake up from this nightmare when you're already awake?

Past can't be undone or changed, but we can heal moving forward,
Dreams and goals are waiting, take control, and keep moving onward.
When merely a tiny pebble can make the biggest ripples,
Choose to fight and swim again, it's just that simple.