Lose/Lose

You tell me it's too much

The counting, the questions, the need.

I see your frustration, feel it burn,

But I can't turn it off, can't stop.

Each moment is a war inside,

Battles fought with invisible foes,

But you only see the surface,

The cracks that keep widening.

I don't want to push you away,

Yet my mind pulls me apart,

And when you get angry,

I'm caught between losing you

And losing myself.  

Written: November 15th, 2024