i broke my heart
it wasn't fun
the pain in my chest was so strong
i was feeling myself fall apart

i didn't eat
i was hungry
but there's going to be a pool party
so i'll hide myself behind my bed sheet

i did smile
i don't want them to worry
how could i ever be worthy
of people that love me once in a while

i am trying
i want to be happy for them
i want to be who i was again
but i'll be honest, i feel like i'm dying