I can not unsee things the cruel things that happen or unhear those sharp words that pierce my heart like daggers. I can not forget the things I've gone through. All I ever wanted were very little things and it pains me to know I can never have them. It wasn't supposed to be this way. Many times, I feel this pain in my chest as if some fire set loose. It becomes so hard to breathe and my legs feel powerless. I try my hardest to hold on to my heart but it's feels like I'm trying to get a hold of the moon. And in the end, my heart breaks. I guess I don't like sad things but I like this feeling of heartbreak. It's addicting but it's still painful. I don't want to feel it all the time.