Chris's POV-

I was so curious.What was happening?

Where did Faith and Raiya actually go?

We were finally done with our shopping.Raiya had bought herself a Hermione Granger costume; basically it was a Hogwarts uniform with a wand and that time turner.

Of course Jack is going to act as her Crookshanks.

My daughter was very excited. I was happy to see her chirping like a bird, enjoying and giggling with Faith.

"Come on, let's have lunch now.I am starving.Raiya,this time we will order your cake alright?I mean I am good at baking and all but I can't make a designer cake..Harry Potter design and all."

Faith ranted as we entered the Mall's cafeteria.The crowd was pretty decent,Raiya wanted Burger King,I wanted to have something healthy so I went for a salad dish while Faith ordered a chicken sandwich for herself.

"So,what was it that you guys do today?I am trying to connect all the points and came up with nothing."

I finally said it.

Raiya looked at Faith who smiled and gestured her to reply first.

"Dad,today..Mumma took me to see Mom.Rayanna Mom."

I couldn't say anything.What did she say?

"What! Where did you go?"

"I took her to see Rayanna,Chris."

It was Faith who said it this time.

My heart was beating loudly.Raiya had never gone..she was so afraid and always panicked.

I looked at Faith.

"And you didn't think I would have wanted to join my daughter to introduce her to her Mom?For the first time since she passed away!"

Faith just sighed.Raiya stopped eating.

"Raiya,sweetie.You eat your food.Dont worry,we are good."

She smiled at Raiya.

I shook my head.I need some answers.We are not good.But I can't react in front of Raiya now.She is a kid and she doesn't need to hear this.

"We'll talk later."

I said.Faith understood.She gave me a nod.

The rest of the time was silent.It was only Raiya who talked and Faith simply answered her.They seemed normal.

It was I who was in a turmoil. Faith took her to Rayanna's grave, without even telling me.

When we came back to our house,Raiya jumped out of the car.

"Mom,Dad can I please go and show my new paint colors to Sonia?I will also share my strawberries with her.Please?"

She patted her little backpack.

I wanted some answers from Faith.It was better if Raiya stayed out for now.

"Sure, sweetheart.Just don't bother Aunt Daphne much,ok?"

"Thanks Daddy."

She ran towards Daphne's.

Faith looked at me and sighed.

"Come on,let's go inside.I have all the answers to your questions."

I followed her quietly to our bedroom.

"Now,what were you thinking?I mean,come on Faith.You didn't even tell me."

"Chris, please.It was not like that,Raiya and I have been talking about this since Christmas.Please don't forget I am also her counsellor,not just her mother."

"And what was wrong in telling me?I should have known.I wanted to be the one to take Raiya to meet her mother.It was her first time!"

She just glared at me.

"Then,why didn't you!It has been four years.Why so much time!"

"You damn well know,why!Faith, listen to me,this was important for me and I missed it."

"It was more important for Raiya.I wanted her to have a one on one with Rayanna."

"Right?And it happened with you there?What would have happened if I would have been there too?The world must have came to an end."

"Chris,Raiya was so free.It has been four years Chris,and she saw her mom for the first time.You were not there..you should not have been there because it was only about a mother and daughter.I was there as a counsellor,not her mom.I didn't want her to have a break down.That's why,I was there with her."

I shrugged.

"That's not good enough for me."

She glared at me.

"Then, it's not my problem.Stop thinking about it from an emotional point of view.You know what,I think I have said everything.You can think whatever you want."

This was impossible.

"You know what,I am getting out of here before I say something I might regret later.I'll come back before dinner."

I left her standing there.She looked crest fallen but I didn't want to think about it.

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I was so ..the gym was not helping much though.

I ran faster on the treadmill.The gym owner eyed me weirdly from time to time,it was not a cup of tea for him that some one was sweating in his gym during lunch.

"Chris,Are you alright?I mean you already.."

I stopped running,got off from the machine and looked at the gym owner,who is also my friend Steve.

"I am ok.I just wanted a good warm up.I know I was already done with my regular workout this morning but I felt like doing it again."

He eyed me suspiciously then a sad smile appeared on his face.I am sure he figured out something was wrong.

"You know,16 years I have known you and even now you have this way of getting over stuff by over exerting yourself."

I shook my head.

"My wife.I don't know how to figure her out?I thought we were good these last few days."

He sighed and passed me my water bottle.

"Chris,as far as I know,you have always told me that your new wife was someone sensible,had her priorities sorted and knew how to handle you and your family too.I have not met her personally,just on your wedding but all I want to say is, trust her."

I shook my head.

"I trust her.I trust her a lot.I would not have married her if I didn't.She is a very genuine,kind woman.Its just that,she has ..she is too fast.I mean it's not about us,it's the whole thing.Everything is happening so soon.I can barely comprehend what is going on!"

"So,did she tell you to bring her presents?Had her way with you or what?"

He snorted.I glared at him.

"None of that.She is giving me all the space and time."

"Then what is fast?Chris,I get it you got married when you weren't ready but I don't think this was a piece of cake for her too."

"I know.God knows,I know that.She has done so much.More than anyone.Things are slowly falling into place,but I don't know maybe I was not ready for that.A wife,again."

"Is she being a typical wife to you,Chris?Has she ever tried to force herself in your personal space?"

"No.Never."

"Then,please move at her pace.That woman is God send.For you and Raiya.She has been taking care of your daughter,more than even her birth mom."

I sighed and closed my eyes.I didn't want to think about that.,..but I knew it was true.

As much as I didn't want to think or remember about that,I knew it was true.Atleast pieces of it were.

I closed my eyes.

"Chris!wake up.The baby is crying again.I just fed her like an hour ago."

Rayanna groaned and buried her face in the pillow.

I woke up and sighed.

"Rayanna,you are breast feeding her.She is already allergic to formula and you didn't even pump it before.You have to wake up.She sounds hungry."

She woke up with a glare on her face.

"You never support me!All you care about is your sleep and work.The baby cries all the time,I swear i will go crazy one day if this continues.We have to get a night nanny Chris.I swear it's getting worst everyday."

She stormed out of the room.I sighed.

This had been going on since the last six months since our daughter was born.

At first I thought it was just mood swings or post pregnancy depression but now..Rayanna is behaving unlike herself.

Even her mom Katja who never bothered to talk to me called me up last evening and told me to take care of the baby more as Rayanna was not willing to do so.

She had been complaining about me to her family.I have caught her talking negative stuff about me to her mom more than once.I even took a week off from work.I was in between a very important project,it was tough.

We needed money,right now.With a new baby,house and all the things that came with it.My dad was willing to help me out but I knew better,my sister had not saved much so dad had to take care of her University expenses and stuff.I just can't ask for money from him.

It's not like we are too tight,for now my savings are enough but these last few days,Rayanna has been partying a lot.She refuses to hold our baby if it's not for feeding her.

My mom comes here daily to take care of the baby.She has told me numerous times to talk to Rayanna.I have tried too,a lot of times.

I don't know what to do anymore.She was not like this during her pregnancy.

My phone started ringing and Steve shook my shoulder.

"Dude,your phone?"

I just apologized and picked up the call.It was Faith.

"Chris,I am sorry if I hurt you.I don't feel good.You stormed out like that and I swear,it was not intentional."

I stopped her Midway.

"Faith,please.I should be apologizing.I shouted and was not thinking clearly.I am sorry,I should not have reacted the way I did.Dont worry,I am coming home now.Ok?"

She mumbled a little thank God and hanged up.

"Now,I am not listening and all but that is one fine woman."

Steve smiled at me.

"Yeah.I know.She is special."

Special.That was the word.

Faith was special.It was I who was the problem here.

I am just afraid of disappointing her one day when she finds out who Christian Crawford really is.

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PS-The italics part is all memories.