Aphmau's POV

Brains help you in many ways. 

They keep you alive and help you make decisions and so forth.

The brain wasn't helping me now.

All of it just keeps coming back to me.

Its like when you get a terrible grade.

It happened, but you don't understand why. 

The only difference is....

.............I'd chose a F over this any day........

heh.....my mom would be disappointed in me..

..........She really hated him........

I smack my head with my palm over and over again.

Stupid.....Stupid...Stupid........you'll make it worse.

........make it stop.........

I open my eyes, my face literally hurt from crying, letting my tears run. 

My face was layered in past tears.

Tears over.......him.........

I haven't even looked at the ceiling yet, knowing what I will see......will make it harder......

The biggest question I guess is.....

What was his motive all along?  

I saw him in pain.........at my bedside......bawling his tears out.........Telling me things...

They are lies..............accept it.................

...................I can't.......................

I don't even know what love is.........

If I thought he loved me...........

What could it mean?...............

What could it cause?...........

I already knew the answer to what it could cause............

I was living it.......now.....and

Forever...........

I plucked up my phone and checked for any messages or calls........none....

I turned on some night core...............thats all I need right now......

*Play Song*

I need your love

I need your time

When everything's wrong

You make it right

I feel so high

I come alive

I need to be free with you tonight

I need your love

I need your love

Why am I singing this song.....ugh.....stupid recommended section..

I take a deep breath every time I pass your door

I know you're there but I can't see you anymore

And that's the reason you're in the dark

I've been a stranger ever since we fell apart

I feel so out of sea

Watch my eyes are filled with fear

Tell me do you feel the same

Hold me in your arms again

My eyes gather H20 as I sob softly

I need your love

I need your time

When everything's wrong

You make it right

I feel so high

I go alive

I need to be free with you tonight

I need your love

I need your love

Now I'm dreaming, will I ever find you now?

I walk in circles but I never make it out

What I mean to you, do I belong

What is wrong with him..............

I try to fight this but I know I'm not that strong

And I feel so helpless here

Watch my eyes are filled with fear

When I saw him kissing Lily..........

Tell me do you feel the same

He doesn't probably..........

Hold me in your arms again

I need your love

I need your time

When everything's wrong

You make it right

I feel so high

I come alive

I need to be free with you tonight

I need your love

I need your love

All the years

All the times

You were never been to blame

He has though...

And now my eyes are open

And now my heart is closing

And all the tears

he has caused.........

All the lies

All the waste

I've been trying to make it change

And now my eyes are open

I can see now...............

I need your love

I need your time

When everything's wrong

You make it right

I feel so high

I come alive

I need to be free 

I stopped listening now..........I couldn't stand it......

I sob loudly and open my mouth to scream but cannot

 ......how could I continue to face him....  

Everyday......

For........

The.........

Rest.......

Of............

My......

Life...............

To see his chiseled tan face. 

To meet his dark, black eyes. 

To feel his warm skin. 

He does walk around with no shirt.......

He has tortured me then......

and will torture me now.......

I check my phone again for notifications.......just a bunch of my friends asking me if I'm okay....

wait.....he....he...

........blocked my number...........................

OMG WHAT WILL HAPPEN NEXT IN 

Where We Stand

Btw the book teaser for The Light In My Dark Heart will be released this weekend so check it out!

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