Note: Hey there! This is my first fan fiction. I'm trying to make it a good one. :-) I'm not a native English speaker, so please be patient with me and my writing. I'm open to feedback and constructive critics.

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It was the forest again.

For the last weeks it had always been the same rain forest. Always the same green surrounding, the sweltering heat and the sound of thousands of insects. He didn't know where it was located or if he had been on this planet ever before. All he knew was that he came here every night over and over again. He was looking for something or someone, but even though he kept looking he didn't find it.

Kylo knew it was a dream, but even though he knew it, it felt real to him all the same. Then came the other sounds. He heard branches breaking and rustling leaves. He knew he was not alone but, as every night, he just wasn't able to find the other one. He felt quite certain that if he could find them this dreams would stop.

He turned in the direction the sounds came from and moved forward making some noise on his own. He came closer, he was almost there! If he only could reach the next bunch of trees he knew he would see them!

That's when the dream collapsed. He found himself in Snokes throne room again and knew that this was when the nightmares began. He lived through all of it again. He saw Snoke torturing Rey, saw her screaming out in pain. Then came the moment Snoke demanded him to kill her. He felt his certainty about her again, felt his nervousness as he prepared to kill Snoke and the relief and satisfaction when he succeeded.

Then came a part that was not nightmarish to him. Even though he had the constant fear, that Rey would get hurt - or worse killed- , fighting alongside her was pure ecstasy. All about it felt right and natural to him as if it had always been like this, as if they were made for this and as the fight came to an end, the worst was about to start. He should have made his approach to her differently. He had failed to make her see how important she was to him, how much he needed her and how perfect their lives as leaders would be. He had even gone so far as to beg to her.

"Join me.... please!" 

But she had rejected him then and did so now in his dream again.

Kylo woke with a start. He was panting and sweating and he was feeling, all these feelings that he could keep at bay in the daytime but that at night would hunt him: rejection, loss, anger, humiliation, loneliness, longing and unrequited love. He was weak because of it and he hated that it came to him every night.

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Far away aboard the Millenium Falcon Rey woke with a start as well. There had been the forest again. That strange green forest buzzing with life.
She had been looking for the other person in this dream but just couldn't find them. It frustrated her exorbitantly. She knew it had to have some meaning since it was reapting itself. If only she had someone she could talk to about this.

Rey rubbed away the sleep from her eyes and started to get up.