I was given your word,
to smile and have my heart open
to the objective world we inhabit
Just so that you could hold me
and tell me about the essence of life,
about the blinding sun,
the lonesome oceans,
the crying wolves and their pups,
the stars so clear to us
when we know they've been dead for years
I just wanted your warmth,
your familiarity,
as I embark on admitting my love
in one of the most time consuming
journeys of all

The night I finally caved,
letting go, I remember
the moon laying low in the sky
forcing everything metal to shine
I felt you everywhere
when I mouthed the words "I love you"
And I don't know why
the world has me dizzy again,
one would think 19 years I'd be used to the spin
It had been so long
since my mind's eye has been at peace
Is this what happens if
you let go of ones greatest fear?
Now there is a warmth in my chest
and I was the one who created it

t.n