Her p.o.v

"Mai.. Do you think its him?" I asked maira who was thinking very hard. I could hear my heart thudding wildly against my chest and my voice slightly trembling..

Maira sensed it too "zee wait, don't ya jump into any conclusion without thinking properly as always, pause your horror rides.. We have to go through this damn carefully.. My wrong I shouldn't have reminded you that. Now let's get this straight we have to think properly, one wrong move and we will be gone.. Get it?"
For which I simply nodded. And maira started thinking aloud while I sat there stunned.

"Ado listen.. Maira spoke after a good 15 mins of thinking.. What do u see in these letters? She asked "words" I said without thinking hardly managing to find my voice. She glared at me" dumbo, you and ur sarcasm.. Doesn't die anyways haan" she said rolling her eyes."then what?" I wailed "these letters, you see are addressed with pure admiration, care and if I'm not wrong with pure LOVE.. "A wave of mixed emotions hit me and rashi s face started flashing in front, his hazel eyes, his delicious smile, the way he called me zeeha..("he is rashi for u now zee?" My mind said in a duh tone "Naah not only now since always " my heart replied in a dreamy one)

"Earth to zee? Maira s taunting brought me back from my trance."what?" I gave her a blank look. "What I meant was, that I see something soooo pure and honest which he wouldn't even dream of nearing.. What I think its not NAVEED.."

"Naveed" the mention of that very name makes me flinch. The boy who broke my 15 year old self, who instilled fear in my fearless heart. Who made me feel emotions that I never would have dreamed of. Hearing his name after this long ..brought back long lost memories and fears which i forgotten after hell a lot of struggles..

"Naveed hassan, my once best friend, the boy who made me feel at home, when I joined my new school, who always used to light up my mood when I felt low. Never did I think fate would play such a crucial role in our friendship. We were having a beautiful relationship till the day he misunderstood our friendship for love. What made his 15 year old self to fall in love with me I have no idea, but that mistake of his cost me my happiness and freedom..

I still remember after the starting of 10th, his behaviour and approach towards me took on a different path, he suddenly became interested in stuff I did. Like with whom I come school and started behaving like my body guard, a dictator to be precise. it exceeded the  limit when he started ruling me on with whom to talk and with whom not to. One day he told me to stop talking with ashaz and yadhu as he doesnt like, when i refused,it turned into a heated arguement and i stopped talking to him. I silently hoped he would come back and apologize and become my old navee but he started acting strange. Intact he became a raging psychopath who fought with every boy who crossed my way.

One day, me maira, amir and yadhav had to stay after school working on our house decoration for inter school sports meet. After sometimes we decided to take a break and settled in our school science lab joking and teasing each other, me and maira was in the floor while the other two on top of the table. Maira being the typical maira suddenly shouted " one of you.. I dare you to propose the love of life, so I can die peacefully knowing my baby is in good hands" she said in a dramatic tone which made us giggle. "I am up for the challenge yadhu got down the table and got the flowers that was in the vase and came to me.he got down on his knees "Zee baby, you are the apple of my eyes.. since the day you entered this school,you never failed to impress me with ur approach on everyone. And ur charming smile which makes my mind go crazy has become my lifeline. Baby I have already spent 15 years alone,I don't want to delay anymore.. Will u grant me the honour of  living the rest of my life in ur lap?.. Hand in hand walking together towards forever with unending love for each other. I can't promise you that you will not face trouble but i promise you, you wont have to go through it alone.. Will u be mine honey??..
The rest of broke into a loud awww... It was too cute for words. After having a hearty laugh I reached out for the flowers in his hand when a vase came flying out of nowhere and knocked down yadhu.. Immediately I bent towards yadhu to see if he is okay. Suddenly naveed came out of nowhere and grasped my arm pulling me up " what's happening here" he shouted, " answer me dammit" he roared making me flinch.. "Leave her alone navee we were just playing" maira said. "Playing? No one dares to play with my girl" he said in a malicious tone making us all dumbstruck. Finally I found my words and shouted " I am not anyone's girl naveed" maira signalled me to stop but the rage building in me was so strong on seeing blood oozing from yadhav s forehead " any ways I will never be the girl of a psycho path like you" I scoffed. His grip on my arm tightened. Amir came to my rescue "naveed you can't hold her like that she is non-mehran to you.. Leave her" "shut up you don't fucking understand," he pounced on amir. Still his grip damn tight on mine.. "Naveed you are hurting me " I wailed. He suddenly dropped his grip and looked at me his eyes softening and if I'm not mistaken few drops of unused tears made their way " zee,I love you I can't see anyone else taking me away from you.. Not this fucking bastard and kicked yadhav hard on his stomach. " you are mine only mine" he growled. His monstrous act pissed me so badly that I spoke really harsh "monsters like you don't deserve love or to be loved, you are a monster, no sensible girl will endup with u.. For sure not me. I hate you.. I hate you naveed". He looked up at me with a terrified expression " I don't deserve love" he kept repeating and suddenly did one thing I never would have dreamed of seeing. He grabbed the blade on the rack, pulled my hand and held the blade with it and made several deep cuts on his forearm.blood started flowing out with full force. I was so stunned for words. I felt a cold hand squeezing my heart and then blank I fainted.

Later I got to know he was admitted in the rehabilitation centre as he have been dealing with drugs as the reason for his anger and moodiness. I never saw him up to date yet that incident still has a major impact on my life. Hearing his name after all these years, made me feel  emotions unknown to me. Fear, anger sadness and what not..

I could feel my head rotating in circles and my eyes starting to blur. My legs felt like traitors refusing to support me, I tried gripping the bed post for balance but too late, a sharp pain shot through my head making me go blank and then all I could see was pitch black darkness which undoubtedly haunts my day and nights..

"Zee.. Zee.. Wake up di.." I could hear Maira s voice weak and shaking. But the pain throbbing in my head was too strong to resist. "Zee you are making me scared.." Maira wailed openly crying, her tears splashing and wetting my face and she leaned on me, looking for an improvement. Knowing i made my maira cry brought me back all the will power i needed to open my eyes..

I fluttered my eyelids and blurred image of maira came into view, surprised look, tear stained face.. It simply hurts to see this girl cry.. "Mai dont act.. It doesnt suit you" i said in a cheerful voice.. Well i tried saying in a cheerful voice yet I could feel my voice broken and trembling "you donno when to quit do u" mai laughed in between tears.

She helped me wake up and made me sit, my back against the headboard with a pillow for support. She sat in front of me. My hands in between hers, she leaned on and kissed me on my forehead  " you gave me a heart attack lady". For which I returned a light smile...

"You still faint? She asked for which I nodded "since that day experiencing flashbacks never failed to make me faint. It merely makes me shudder to even think my new buddy being "naveed"

"Listen mate.. Maira spoke again breaking through my thoughts.. Its not naveed get it? Its not him" she spoke in a firm voice making me hard to not believe. I nodded. " now have some sleep, I'll be downstairs until momma comes Kay? Now now close your eyes" she said in mummy -ish making me laugh. "Aye aye captain I saluted.

She went closing the door behind her. I slowly crept out from my bed and opened the bedside drawer and found my sleeping pills. My heart and body ached really badly after all these trauma.. I really need sleep but I also knew my night mares are so not gonna spare me. With that I got into bed and started repeating surah-ikhlas and I donno when sleep consumed me..

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