When they get home, Yunho makes sure to get Wooyoung cozy in bed before stepping into the bathroom for a quick shower. He returns to find Wooyoung is snoring softly and hugging a pillow.

Yunho smiles at the cuteness and climbs into bed behind him. He pulls him close and places soft kisses against his shoulders.

"I love you so much, Wooyoung," Yunho whispers. "Goodnight, Princess."

In the morning, Yunho wakes up first and goes downstairs to make breakfast so they can eat and be ready to go for their appointment.

He finds Wooyoung still wrapped around a pillow and struggles to wake him up and get him dressed.

Wooyoung whines most of the time, but he does as he's told and once they've eaten, they head to the therapist's office for their meeting.

When they walk into Dr. Anders office Wooyoung decides to curl up with one of the blankets while Yunho fixes him a coffee.

"Late night?" She asks with a small smile.

"You could say that. We went to the BDSM club last night. Played a small scene with a friend." Yunho walks over to sit next to Wooyoung as he explains.

"That's good. Did you each bring your journals you were working on?"

The couple nods. "Wooyoung how many letters have you written?"

Wooyoung bites his lower lip and looks at his lap. "Two." He says softly.

"And Yunho, how many drawings have you done?"

"Seven." He says with a little more confidence.

Dr Anders nods, an impressed look on her face. "And how are you both feeling now that you've been doing this?"

"I'm enjoying it. I made some great artwork out of it," Yunho says with a small smile. He feels very proud of his work.

Dr. Anders turns to look at Wooyoung. "Wooyoung? What do you think?"

Wooyoung looks up slightly before looking back at his hands. "Honestly, I don't know why I am here. Like I know I'm traumatized too, but I don't understand how this is going to help me."

"It's to help you come to terms with what happened. It's so that you can get to the root of your nightmares and trauma." The woman says making Wooyoung scoff.

"Maybe if Yunho didn't take me to that damn nut house, I would be having problems." He snaps, unable to stop the sudden outburst.

Yunho opens his mouth to say something, but Dr. Anders holds up her hand to stop him. "What do you mean?"

"That piece of shit wanted to see us!!" Wooyoung says, tears coming to his eyes they startle him.

The doctor frowns and looks at Yunho.

"Hyunjin is being sent back to Korea for his finial rehabilitation. He... He wanted to see us to apologize as a form of closure. It was his doctor's idea. He said Hyunjin had a breakthrough and got better. Said he had a personality disorder." Yunho finishes with a soft voice.

"Why did you go?" The doctor asks. "Do you still love him?"

"Fuck no! I just..." Yunho trails off. He sighs deeply. "I loved him once when he was a good person. I wanted to see if there was still hope for that same person before I cut him out completely. And he was better. He looked healthy and happy and he apologized repeatedly saying we would never see him again. And that was it."

"And Wooyoung? How do you feel?"

"Honestly? I'm still upset. I hated having to sit there and listen to him like he was the victim. Like he was the one who deserved sympathy and everything."

"You don't think he deserves any?"

Wooyoung glares at her. "Do you??"

She gives him a sympathetic smile. "I don't have an opinion on this, I am here to support you."

Wooyoung clenches his fists under the blanket and looks away. "No. I do not. After everything he did to hurt Yunho and then myself, no. He does not deserve any sympathy or forgiveness."

Yunho leans back in his seat and lets out a dry laugh. "He couldn't help it Wooyoung. His brain is fucked and the only reason he came here in the first place is because those fucking shrinks didn't diagnose him properly. He deserved forgiveness Woo because he earned."

"Excuse me?" Wooyoung stands up. "He didn't earn my fucking forgiveness! Not even close! He doesn't-"

"Wooyoung, sit down now." A terrifyingly calming voice said. He turned to look at Dr. Anders and sat down. "You aren't mad at Hyunjin. You already moved on and forgave him. You're mad at Yunho. He took you there when he needed closure and you wondered if for a moment, he still loved Hyunjin. You're angry at Yunho."

Wooyoung feels silent tears slide down his face. "I'm not-"

"You are." He is cut off by the woman. "You're also mad at yourself. Because you don't want to be mad at him. So you blame Hyunjin. What are your nightmares really about Wooyoung?"

Her words bring Wooyoung to a jarring halt. He freezes entirely, except for the tears that still pour from his eyes.

Yunho is frozen too. His eyes are fixed on Wooyoung, dread slowly sinking in his stomach.

"I need an answer, Wooyoung." Dr Anders says.

Wooyoung's lower lip trembles and instead of words, all that comes out is an awful sob.

"Wooyoung, take a deep breath."

He tries, he does. But he can feel himself trembling violently beneath the blanket as visions of his nightmares swim before his eyes.

"They change... they are always changing..." he sobs.

"What's the main theme?" The doctor leans forward. "Or what's the worst one?"

Wooyoung flinches. He'd been hoping she wouldn't ask that...

"Yunho and I are in one of the private rooms at the club... the scene usually involves him tying me up in some way along with a gag... my back is always to the door, and I hear it open... then Yunho takes a step back and a dark look enters his eyes as he looks over my shoulder..." Wooyoung starts to tremble harder the longer he speaks. "Then... I feel cold metal against my h-head... a-a-and then he's there... sneering at me as he cocks the g-gun in h-his hand.... And Yunho does nothing to stop him... then... then... they s-s-start to h-have s-s-s-" Wooyoung sobs again, truly struggling with his words now, "right- right in f-front of m-m-me and I'm- I'm- f-forced to just watch..."

Yunho sobs next to him. This is what scares him? This is why he can't move on? Yunho moves to his knees in front of Wooyoung and places his head in his lap while squeezing his hands.

"Baby, I need you to know I do not love him. I haven't in years. I will never want him in my life again." Yunho lifts his head and tries to wipe the tears from Wooyoung's face.

"Seeing him holding a gun to your head made me... I fucking wanted to k-kill him. I never wanted kids or to be married. I hated the idea of it. And only six months of being with you changed that. I want to marry you. I could never see that with him and I don't want too either. Wooyoung, I love you and I won't ever have anything to do with Hyunjin again."

Wooyoung leans down and rests his forehead against Yunho's for a minute when Dr. Anders clears her throat.

"Wooyoung, you have been very traumatized so your nightmares are expected. But if Yunho is your partner you need to be able to confide in him." She hands them a box of tissues. "I think for now both of you need to lay off the dominant and submissive side of your relationship. Wooyoung, keep trying your letters. If they still aren't working for you then we will find something else."

They accept the tissues and Yunho is quick to gently wipe one across Wooyoung's cheeks.

They gaze at each other for a long moment before they both nod. Though... Yunho is a little hesitant. "I don't know how easy that will be..."

Dr Anders taps her pen against her clipboard. "I think it will be best for you. Especially the sex. I think you two need to focus on simply being together and learning more about each other and developing the love that is clearly here."

"So no sex at all?" Wooyoung asks sadly. Dr. Anders laughs.

"You can have sex sweetie. Just no kinks. No titles, no bondage, or punishments. Just a normal, or how we say in the BDSM community, vanilla sex. Take the stress out of the equation."

Wooyoung nods slightly. Yunho moves to sit next to Wooyoung again and pulls him into his arms.

"Is there anything else we should talk about? There's still fifteen minutes left in your session." Dr. Anders asks.

"What do you think I can do to help fix this?" Yunho asks softly.

"There's nothing you need to fix, per say." Dr Anders says. "But I think now is the time to maybe do a little extra where you can, to give Wooyoung that reassurance that you are here for him and that you aren't going anywhere."

Yunho looks down at Wooyoung and sees the younger is staring at the floor. "I can do that. I'll do whatever I need to do to prove my love to you, Youngie."

"I know you love me, Yunho. And I know my dreams aren't real. But sometimes I feel like it's not enough. That you will get bored of me or something." Wooyoung swallows and feels old fears trying to force their way forward.

Yunho squeezes him tightly. "How could I be bored of the man who made me fall in love after one night? My heart belongs to you Wooyoung. You're my home," Yunho finishes with a kiss to Wooyoung's head.

"Wooyoung, this is only our second appointment, but I see Yunho clearly loves you. I think next week we should start separate sessions. Sound good?"

Wooyoung frowns a little, but nods. "Yes."

"Alright. I will get you both scheduled next week at separate times and we will go from there."

"Thank you." Yunho bows his head to her.

The couple takes their leave, fingers laced together in a tight grip that neither one has the intention of loosening during their walk to the car.

Yunho can tell Wooyoung is still upset, but he isn't quite sure what to say, or if he even should say anything.

When they get home, Yunho tells Wooyoung to go head inside while he calls Mingi to reschedule anything he had for the day. He goes inside to look for the younger shortly after.

"Woo? Baby?" Yunho calls out when he doesn't see him. He goes upstairs to their room and it's empty too. Luckily, he hears water running in the bathroom. When he walks in, Wooyoung is in the bathtub.

"Baby? Can we talk?" Yunho asks as he sits on the side of the tub. Wooyoung nods his head.

"I need you to know that I am sorry for taking you to see Hyunjin. I was ready to move on and I feel like I have after seeing him. But I didn't realize it would hurt you like this."

When Wooyoung doesn't say anything right away, Yunho frowns deeply and moves so he can kneel on the floor instead, putting him a little closer. "Are you really that mad at me...?"

It takes a few agonizingly long seconds, but Wooyoung eventually whispers, "No."

"Then why does it look like you are?" Yunho feels a small bit of worry grow, sensing that maybe something more could be happening, but why would that be the case?

"I just... need a little time." Wooyoung says, not looking at the older.

"And I will give you time. But you're going to do it with a smile on your face."

Wooyoung looks at Yunho confused when suddenly Yunho jumps in the bath still fully clothed, pulling a laugh from the younger.

"What is wrong with you?" Wooyoung laughs as Yunho flails his legs to get situated.

"I'm taking a bath!" Yunho exclaims cutely.

"You have Bambi legs! This isn't going to end well!" Wooyoung continues laughing as Yunho splashes water.

"I told you; I wanted you to smile," Yunho says once he calms down.

Wooyoung's smile grows just a little more as he looks at his boyfriend. "Thank you." He says softly.

Yunho is quick to grab him and pull him into his lap. "I love you, Wooyoung. I love you so much it hurts sometimes."

He feels Wooyoung tense in his grip a little before he's shifting around to hug Yunho around his chest so he can bury his face into Yunho's neck.

"I love you too, Yunnie."

"I'm not perfect. I fuck up. I have fucked up. The thought of loving anyone else makes me physically sick. I just want you to know that I love you so much and whatever you need, I will do." Yunho places a kiss to Wooyoung's head.

"I love you too Yunho. And I don't want anyone else. Just you. I just need time to process and get over everything."

"I know, Baby," Yunho says. "And as much as I want to keep sitting here, my jeans are chaffing a little."

Wooyoung giggles. "That's what you get for jumping in the bath fully clothed."

"Well I needed to take care of my baby." Yunho says.

His voice is so soft and so gentle that Wooyoung feels himself blushing, so he hides his face in Yunho's neck once more, unable to look at the older man.

"Take out for dinner?" Yunho asks after a few minutes.

Wooyoung slowly slides off his lap and nods.

Yunho smiles and leans forward to kiss his nose, then steps out of the tub and leaves his wet clothes in the sink before stepping out of the bathroom.

Wooyoung giggles to himself at his goofy boyfriend. They just started their break from BDSM and he is already seeing a new side of Yunho.

He gets out of the bath when his fingers get wrinkly and goes in search of Yunho. He finds him in the kitchen setting up a snack.

"Hey YuYu," Wooyoung says to announce his presence.

"Hey, Baby. I figured you might want a snack. Maybe we can watch a movie?" Yunho asks.

"Sounds perfect." Wooyoung says with a bright smile.

He makes his way over to the couch and settles in, pulling a fluffy blanket over his lap and finds his eyes drifting to the open window.

It's raining outside. Not hard, but consistent, adding an almost white noise backdrop to his mind that has him drifting off a little bit.

Yunho settles in next to Wooyoung with a plate of snacks and puts on a movie. He sits and thinks about how nice it is just to relax. Then he thinks about how much he loves the man next to him. He pulls out his phone to text Jongho.

Yunho: If I let you tattoo me, do you promise not to fuck it up?

Jongho: Yes. But what am I doing?

Yunho: I would really like something for Wooyoung. Something to solidify how much I love him.

Jongho: I think your insane, but I can do it tomorrow.

Yunho: Thank you.

He tosses his phone aside and glances at Wooyoung.

The younger still has a bit of a blank look in his eyes, which worries Yunho a little bit, but he decides to give Wooyoung the benefit of the doubt and simply loops an arm around him to pull him close.

Wooyoung startles slightly but is quick to shift around to curl into Yunho's side, hugging him a bit like a koala.

Yunho smiles slightly. "What should we get for dinner baby?"

"Hmm," Wooyoung hums as he thinks. "I could really go for a burger."

"Burgers it is," Yunho replies. They snuggle in together and eventually Yunho orders them food which is quickly delivered.

They sit together and eat in a comfortable silence. Yunho watches Wooyoung for a little while. "Why don't you spend some time with San and Yeosang tomorrow? Maybe you can talk with them and relax a little? Stop thinking for awhile?"

"What are you going to be doing?" Wooyoung asks.

"I have a few appointments tomorrow at the shop. I might get Jongho to give me a new tattoo. Or I might get a new piercing," Yunho explains.

Wooyoung arches an eyebrow. "Another piercing?"

Yunho smirks and just kisses the side of his head. "Go have some fun with your friends for a bit."

"Ok, if you insist." Wooyoung says softly, snuggling into Yunho's shoulder again. "What if I got a new piercing?" He asks after a few minutes.

"Like what?"

"Uhm," Wooyoung thinks. "My dick?" Yunho laughs loudly making Wooyoung pout. "What? Why is that funny?"

"Baby, if you get your dick pierced it takes at least 3 months to heal. Plus you can't get hard. Which means no sex or anything until if heals." Yunho explains.

"How the fuck did you survive that?" Wooyoung exclaims.

Yunho shrugs as if it's no big deal. "I'm a tough guy and I didn't have a partner at the time. Plus you know that my pleasure comes from giving others pleasure, so that doesn't always mean I need to 'get off' or have sex to feel satisfied."

"And you think I can't-"

"No. You'd go crazy now that you've had a taste of me."

Yunho says it so fast and confidently that Wooyoung just stares at him with his mouth open in utter shock.

"But!" Yunho starts. "I think I have a way to give you the illusion of a piercing without actually getting one. We just have to wait for the BDSM ban to be over."

Wooyoung is curious now. He needs to know. "What do you mean?" He asks.

Yunho sucks in a breath. "There are some plugs that are really small. They are put in the urethra and act similar to a cock ring." Yunho explains.

Wooyoung nods and hums to himself. "Well maybe we can try it?"

"I'll add it to the list, Baby." Yunho caresses his cheek, then brings him into his arms again. "But let's not talk about it anymore because this is already going to be challenging enough."

Wooyoung giggles and nods. "Yes, it is."

"But I do like the idea of us finding a connection outside of it." The older admits softly.

"Me too." Wooyoung's voice is even softer, almost as if he was hoping Yunho wouldn't hear him.

Yunho pulls Wooyoung into his lap and snuggles him as close as he can. "Have I told you I love you?"

"Yes. Every day," Wooyoung answers with a small smile. "Have I told you that I love you?"

"You don't need to. I can feel it, Baby. But yes, you have told me you love me," Yunho responds with such a fond smile, his eyes seem to sparkle.

"I think we should go to bed early tonight. It's been an emotional day," Yunho suggests. Wooyoung agrees and clings to the older to be carried upstairs.

The couple cuddles up in bed to go to sleep when Wooyoung turns to him. "YuYu, will you sing something?"

Yunho looks at him in shock before he thinks about it. "Yeah, Baby. What do you want me to sing?"

"Something soft and soothing."

Yunho frowns just a little bit pulls Wooyoung into his chest and sings a soft lullaby he'd been taught as a child.

He feels Wooyoung relax in his grip the longer he sings, so he decides to add to it by gently dragging his fingers along Wooyoung's back.

A small hum comes from the younger, almost a coo, and Wooyoung tries to move in a little closer.

Yunho smiles lightly and continues to sing to the younger until they both fall asleep in each other's arms.