hi friend! i know how hard it can be to feel like you have a place in the world. i have gone through countless dark times ever since i was 10 and i still to this day feel hopeless. but i promise you that it will be worth it in the end. i have had 2 attempts since i turned 13, but i made a promise to live. because even with all the crap that life throws at me, i know there's a shining light at the end of the tunnel. i know that if i hold onto everything that means something to me, i will make it. because that's what the boys did. they have been my inspiration ever since i was 6 years old, and i held so tight onto them, and they're now my guiding light. if you're like me and you struggle with suicidal thoughts and urges to harm yourself, and if you look up to the boys, stick with me. we can fight through this difficult time together.

i know that this won't make it to a lot of people. even if it's just you who's reading this, then hello, let's make a promise to stay alive.

if you need someone, my dms on instagram (livhearted) are always open. i may not be the greatest at advice, but i will take all the time in the world to listen to your story. to acknowledge the pain in your life. i know it can help even if someone just listens, and if you don't have that person, you just met her.

stay strong and live on. stay alive. make it about others. if you need to, follow in tyler's or josh's steps, because when i feel hopeless, that's what i do, and it seems to help.

if no one told you yet, i love you and you're worth it. no one can replace you. you're not a wasted space. no one can be you except you, so embrace yourself and learn to show it off.

you're amazing. i love you. i hope this helped in some way. if not, that's okay, i just hope you stay alive.