Guilt

5 days has gone by since her death.

5 torturous days of not having her by my side.

I still eat. For her sake.

I know she wouldn't wan't to see me like this.

"Geez Natsu, you stink. Go take a bath!"

I looked up to see her..

My Lucy.

Smiling down at me. Light radiating off her. Making the room brighter than it was before.

Slowly. I raised my hand to touch her face. But the moment it came in contact. She disappeared. My eyes widen a little. But just for a millisecond.

I must be going crazy.

What am I talking about. I'm already crazy.

I just can't handle it.

The guilt.

The guilt of not being by her side when her final hours was near.

I just wan't to feel Relieved.

I wan't to know what her final thoughts were.

I wan't to know what she wants.

I want to feel her touch.

I wan't to hear her voice.

I wan't her by my side.

But that won't happen.

Because she's already gone

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I'm walking on the streets of Magnolia. Staring at the ground.

I don't even know where my feet are taking me. I just wan't to take a stroll and take her out of my head.

Tch, as if that's possible.

My feet came to a halt. I looked up to see an all to familiar building.

Her apartment.

Without Hesitation I jumped. Suprisingky the window was open. I wen't inside and met with a familiar scent of Strawberry and Vanilla.

A scent that I will never forget.

I layed in her bed. Hugging the pillows while smelling the covers. It was filled with her scent. I stayed in that posture for a while when I saw a stack of letters on her study table. I stood up and went towards them. The one on the very top suprised me.

To: Natsu

Is what was written

To be continued...