The look of disappointment.

That look is a powerful one. It can tear down your walls and crush your spirit in a given moment. It always fill my soul with sadness. One of the faces I hate the most. His eyes were piercing through me, like he could actually slice me in half. I dislike the fact that it was Neji staring at me like this.

"Hinata, I'm disappointed in you."

'So he knows.'

My eyes dropped to the floor, I couldn't force myself to look at him. His words have such a powerful affect on me, because I respect him so much. So that fact that he said that, hit me hard, harder than ever. It was as if he was squeezing every ounce of life out of my heart, turning it into nothing but shreds, making my whole being seem so empty. In other words..

It hurt.

"Look at me." I flinched so hard, that it shouldn't even be possible. His voice was so deep, demanding, and harsh.

I slowly shifted my eyes to his face. I felt so small and belittled towards his stinging gaze.

"You ran away on the exact same day that man died. Nothing left in your room, but dust. That doesn't seem like a coincidence, now does it?"

My eyes stung so badly. I tried so desperately to keep the tears in my eyes, but that was impossible. They streamed slowly down my cheeks, and I tried to suppress the sobs that were escaping my throat. It burned through my insides, my body felt numb as I finally gotten caught by somebody, wondering what was to come. My knees felt weak, and my legs started to tremble.

"H..ho-how d-did-"

"Because. I know you Hinata. You always seem to run away from your problems, never asking for help from anyone. Even if it was something small, you would sit in your room for weeks to punish yourself or distance yourself so you could escape your guilt in your own way. But that wasn't the case, this was a murder, so you actually had to run away from your fate. All I did was put two and two together."

I was choking on my sobs now, I tried holding them back even more, but failing miserably as the impeccable sounds started to escape my terribly shaking lips.

"WHAT THE HELL WERE YOU THINKING?!! What the hell happened, that you went out in the middle of the night and killed someone!?!"

'I had my reasons!!'

I whimpered, and started biting my bottom lip to prevent myself from breaking down entirely. Looking at me now, you could obviously tell that wasn't working at all. The sight of me is probably showing how scared I am, terrified even, I bet my whole being looked shaken up.

I had no idea what was going to happen now. Will he tell father? Does father already know? Is the police on their way right now?

"Are you stupid, Hinata!? You must be, because no one's life should be taken away for someone else's stupidity. You shouldn't be the one crying, but you know who are? That poor man's family that's mourning over his death."

'You don't understand!'

I couldn't hold it in any longer, so I let it out. I cried so hard that I was almost out of breath. Coughing like an idiot, and wheezing like I'm about to die. I couldn't breath, my head was pounding like crazy. My head was buried behind my hands, and my legs finally decided to give out. I slowly inched my body towards the ground, so now I was crying on my knees.

"I know!" I cried. "I know! I'm sorry, I really am!"

"I bet. That's the kind of person you are."

"Neji. I m..messed u-up.... re-really ba..badly."

"I already know that."

I looked up at him, and all I saw was disappointment and anger. His arms were folded firmly against his chest as he stood straight looking even taller, making his surroundings look small and frail under his gaze. I instantly looked back down.

"S-so now what? Are you going to keep looking at me like that forever?!" I screamed at him, as if it was now somehow his fault in all of this. I looked at him again.

The same look.

"STOP LOOKING AT ME LIKE THAT! I already know I messed up. I know that I did the wrong thing. I know that I can't undo what I did. I already know the cost of my actions. You don't think I know that I killed someone!!" I shouted at him, my head down, and my hands supporting me up from the floor, and my knees still on the ground.

'If only you knew why I did it!'

"I hate knowing the fact that I ran away because of a murder. I hate the fact that I'm lying to not only myself, but my friends, family, and the world!" I paused to catch my breath for another scream.

'You couldn't possibly know what I've been through.'

"I WANT THIS ALL TO END! I'm sick and tired of all of this! Waking up with fear because of thinking that I will finally get caught. Going outside is even worse. Ne-Neji, believe me. I feel really bad as it is."

I'm so tired of replaying the memories in my head, I'm so tired of lying, tired of keeping secrets, of not actually living my life the way I want to. I can't handle any of this, and I hate to say this, but Neji is right as always. I keep doing things on my own, and hiding my problems, but what the hell do you expect me to do? Walk up to somebody and say "hey I killed someone and I'm currently hiding from the police, can you help me pretty please??"

I know that not asking for help when it's needed is sometimes considered a "not-so-good" thing, but not everything is worth sharing. Not everything is something that you could just flat out and say it.

I felt his large hand on my slim shoulder, but I didn't want to look at his face anymore.

"Why Hinata. What had happened?" he said softer.

'Be careful with your words, Hinata.' I warned myself. I didn't want anyone to know, so that means especially Neji. I wasn't anywhere near brave enough to talk about it with him, or anybody.

"I was aiming at someone else, but as soon as I pulled the trigger, that man was walking past and it hit him instead of my target."

"Who were you aiming at?"

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"I can't talk about it Neji, not now anyways."

"Hina-"

"Neji please." I whined, begging him to stop. "Trust me, I will tell you when I'm ready." I said quietly.

He sighed deeply.

"Fine."

Before I knew it, he tackled me into a hug. His large arms wrapped around my smaller body, hugging tightly, as if saying he was sorry in a way.

Even though I hate it when he's disappointed in me, Neji hates making me upset even more. It's as if I had some type of affect on him like he does to me. But he had a right to yell and scream at me. This time, I deserved it, I needed someone to scold me. Doing it myself made me feel like I was going crazy. Hell, I almost killed myself for being so carelessly stupid. I think that Neji made me feel sane again.

But I don't deserve this hug.. it's as if I'm being forgiven for my crime. Yes.. I know that I said that I wanted to be forgiven, but that doesn't mean I earned it. I can't let one hug prevent me from forgetting that what I did never happened, because it did, and I won't pretend that it didn't.

But what Neji said shocked me...

"I'm staying here with you."

Damnit, this totally won't cause any trouble... -_-