Chapter 27

NATE

“You stupid fool!!” scolded Neil, “You leave her just because your stupid head told you that she still love Mike?”

“Stop yelling at me,” I scolded him back. “I know what I’m doing!!”

“Yeah right, by letting her go! You’ve give up on her just because your mental brain said so.” yelled Neil. “I thought you would listen to your heart and not your stupid head but I think I should have known how stupid my big brother are!!!”

“Enough Neil, I don’t need your advice! We’re done and finished!!!” I yelled at him and bang my door in front of his face indicating to him that I don’t what to talk about me and Shy anymore.

It has been 3 days since I came home from Oxford. Neil had given me a cold shoulder ever since our outburst when I first came home that day. He still couldn’t accept that I’ve have walked out on Shy. Doesn’t he know that I’m doing all this because I wanted her to be happy? I could feel she still loves him, even though she tried to convince me otherwise. If you don’t love someone you wouldn’t let him kiss you even if you didn’t kissed him back, am I right? What difference does it made whether you kissed back or not? You still kissed.

For 3 days I’ve been trying my very best to forget about her but failed. I felt so lost like part of me is missing. Even though we’ve only been official as a couple for 2 weeks, Shy has always been the biggest part of my life. I felt horrible and lonely what more with Neil cold attitude towards me. I don’t have anyone to talk to. Mom hasn’t been saying anything about Shy and me since she found out about our break ups. She would talk about something else but I could see that she’s too was saddened by it. I know she loves Shy and I remember how Mom and Edna were ecstatic when they knew about us. I know I have let them down.

I was on the way to kitchen when I heard Neil was talking to someone on the phone when I passed by his room. I tried to listened to whom his talking to.

“I’m glad to hear that Shy.” So he’s talking to Shy. I wonder what’s she’s telling him. Is she with Mike? Is she back home with him right now?

“So are you coming?” I heard him asking. God, how I wish she said yes.

“Oh, ok, I understand Shy,” he sound disappointed with her replied, “Hey, whatever it is I want you to know I love you. Yeah, I’ll come and see you. With Kimmy of course,” he laughed. “Ok, bye, love you too,” and suddenly he was at the door catching me eavesdrop his conversation with Shy.

“Eavesdrops hah?!” he scolded.

I blushed, “I’m sorry I didn’t mean to do that,” I apologised. He glared and without a word walked away from me.

“She back with him right?” I couldn’t stop myself asking.

He stopped and turned towards me, “No she did not. She break off with him the day you came home, but why would you care? You don’t believed her why would you believe.....”

“She did what?” I cut him off, “She broke off with him?”

“Yeah, she did, you stupid fool,” he scolded me. “She left him because she doesn’t love him anymore. She’s in love with some stupid fool who listen to his mental brain instead of his heart!”

I sighed deeply, “I am a stupid fool,” I said softly.

“Huh,” snickered Neil, “Now you realized!!”

I felt so miserable. I’m such a stupid fool for not believing a single word Shy told me. I have hurt her. I remembered the hurt I saw in her face when she tried to prove to me that she loves me but I still don’t believed her. I still remembered the hurt in her voice when she told me that she’s going to throw my love away from her heart. Damn I’m really am a fool for not listening to my heart earlier.

“What have I done?” I could feel tears running down my eyes. “Damn it, what have I done? I’m so, so stupid,” I cried.

I felt Neil put his hand on my shoulder, “If I were you, I won’t sit here and just cry my heart out for being a fool. If I were you I would fly over there now and get her back.” I looked at him and he shrugged raising his eyebrows playfully at me.

I smiled and hugged him, “Thanks Neil. I’ve should have listen to you earlier. Thanks for everything. You’re the best.”

He smug, “You got that right,” laughing at me he continued, “Let’s not waste time and make sure you reach there a.s.a.p. so you could woo her back,” he pushed me towards my room. “Don’t you dare come back her without her,” he warned playfully. I laughed and quickly pack my clothes. Yeah, I’m going to get my girl back.

Luckily for me I managed to get the earliest flight to Toronto and reach there the next morning. I took a cab to Shy’s house and keep practising on what I’m going to say to her all the way there.

“Trying to woo back your girl?” asked the cab driver. He must have realised what I’ve been doing.

“Yeah,” I chucked. “I’ve been a fool letting her go,” I sighed, “I hope she’s forgive me and accept me back.”

“Well, from the words you use and the sincerity of your voice, I think she will,” he laughed.

“Thanks. You think so?” I grinned.

“Yeah, I’m sure,” he laughed again. I smiled. Hope Shy could here the sincerity in my voice too.

“We’re finally here,” he said, “and good luck to you young man.”

“Thanks,” I thank him again, “I really need that,” paid him and got out of the cab. Feeling nervous I just stood there looking at her house. I don’t know for how long and finally make my way to the door. I could feel my palm sweating when I pressed the door bell.

“Coming,” I heard a voice from inside and a few minutes she opened the door.

“Nate?” It was Edna who opened the door, smiling at me. She didn’t seem surprised to see me.

“Hi, Edna,” I smiled and she immediately hugged, “Nice to see you too,” I chuckled tighten our hugs.

“Good, you look dashing as ever,” she praised smiling at me and he husband suddenly appeared besides her.

“Hi, Mr Taylor,” I greeted him and extended my hand for a hand shake.

Taking my hand, he smiles, “Nate, it’s about time you’re here.”

Edna nudged him hinting him to be quiet, “Come in Nate,” she said pulling my hand, “Shy is in her room,” she said smiling.

I looked at her in surprised. Surprised that she knows why I’m here, “We know, you didn’t come here to see us,” she chuckled, “Her room is upstairs on you right,” pushing me towards the stairs.

I laughed and climbed the stairs two steps at a time, but when I reached her room my palm sweat again and I felt nervous all over again. I inhaled loudly and knock the door.

“Come in,” her sweet voice replied from inside her room. I gulped, said a silence prayer before entering her room. She was kneeling in front of her bags busy unpacking her clothes. She didn’t turn to look at me and she was holding a man blue stripe shirt still in a plastic staring at it.

“Is that for me?” I asked and she immediately turned towards me with jaw wide opened but her face turned intense when she fully realised it really was me.

“What are you doing here?” she fumed standing up but still holding the shirt.

“I came here to apologised,” I told her softly, looking directly at her.

“Too late, apologies not accepted!” she enraged, “Now get the fuck out of my room!!!”

“I’m sorry. I really am,” I said moving closer towards her, “Please forgive me.”

“Didn’t you hear me?!! I said apologies not accepted. Get out!!! I don’t want to see you face anymore!!” she yelled.

“I not going until you said you forgive me,” I told her and again moving closer to her until I was standing right in front of her. I could see tears form in her eyes and being stubborn as she is she refused to let it flows down her eyes.

“I love you,” I said to her softly. This time she didn’t stopped the tears from flowing. It runs down almost immediately after hearing my words.

“How dare you?!!” she hissed and started to hit me with the shirt she holding but I didn’t budged. I stood there letting her released her anger at me.

Seeing that I didn’t move an inch she started to move toward her dresser and throwing anything her hands would grab at me, “Get out! Get out! Get out!!” she screamed. I still didn’t move or tried to avoid the things she’s throwing at me. I suddenly felt something hard hitting my head and I could feel something flowing down from my forehead. I know I’m bleeding but I ignored it. The pain I’ve caused her is not that same as the pain I’m feeling right now. Finally she’s out of things to throw at me and she let out a sob. Crying her heart out and I could see how much I’ve hurt her.

I move toward her and hugged her from behind, “I’m so sorry,” I whispered in her ears, “I’m so, so sorry.”

She pushed me away and turned facing me, “No you’re not,” and started to slap me non-stop. Yeah, she really turned violent but I just let it be. Let her hit me all she wants. I didn’t move but pulled her close to my chest. I want her to listen to my heart beat. How it is beating so fast for her.

“I’ve told you I didn’t kissed him,” she sobbed while hitting my chest.

“I know, I’m a stupid fool for not listening to you,” I said softly hugging her.

Still continued to hit me but softer now, she sobbed again, “I’ve told you I don’t love him.”

“Yes, I know. I’m a dim-wit for not listening to you,” I said again tightening my hugged.

Her hit become weaker, “I’ve told you I love you and you still didn’t believe. You didn’t believe a single word I’ve said,” she weeps.

“I’m sorry, I know, I’m an idiot,” I sniffed. “Please forgive me. Please forgive this stupid fools, dim-wit and idiot for not listening to you. Please forgive me for walking out on you. Please forgive me for being such a fool.” I begged. Tears start rolling down my eyes too.

Letting her weeps in my arms I rocked her like a child. God, I’ve love this girl and I’ve hurt her so badly. After a while she finally calmed down and pushed me away slowly.

“I’m fine now Nate and I forgive you,” she said softly and turned her back at me, “but I don’t think I want us to be together anymore. I can’t love someone who didn’t trust me.”

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A/N : HEY EVERYONE.... HOPE YOU'LL ENJOY THIS CHAPTER.... NEXT CHAPTER WILL BE THE ENDING.... I'LL DO MY BEST TO UPDATE THEM TOMORROW.... SEE YOU THEN... MUAH.... -SALLY-