Why can’t I get away from him? I know he’s no good for me but I can’t help it. I can feel his darkness, it’s like a constant everlasting presences that makes itself known whenever he’s near. But come how I can’t help be draw to it, to what to run into it and let it consume me. He’s told me himself that he’s no good for me that I should stay away from him but he’s always near me. Whenever I feel alone, hopeless, scared, and confused he’s there to comfort me, to shield out all the bad in my life. But I can’t help but notice that all the bad that has come into my life began to happen around the time he entered my life. I’ve asked myself; could he be the reason these things are happening, is he behind all of this. But then I think about the time we’ve spent together and all the wonderful things he’s made me feel and has done for me and I just think; it can’t be him. Breaking out of my train of thought I looked over to my door where I heard my name being called. Speaking of the devil there stood Rayne leaning casually against my bedroom door with a slight smirk on his face. He’s made it a habit of sneaking into my house when my parents gone to see me. When he first did this I was incredibly alarmed and scared of him, if he could get into my house so easily then anyone else can. But as we go to know each other more and I started trusting him and feeling more secure with him in the house.

“Deep in thought I see, you know if I were a murder you would have been dead .2 seconds ago” he joked as always. I couldn’t help but smile he’s always mentioning that and how I should better protect myself but I know I have him to protect me so why worry.

“Well your not a murder so you should have been hugging me .2 seconds ago”!

“Oh and who says I want to hug you at all” he asked raising his pierced eyebrow at me.

“But you always hug me when you see me” I could help but frown afterward. It’s true ever since we’ve grown closer to each other we’d hug each other whenever we meet. There have been so many times during those hugs that I’ve wanted to reach up and kiss him but haven’t. We aren’t at that stage yet in no matter how bad I want to be there. I can safely say that I’ve fallen head over heels for Rayne and I’m afraid to admit it to him. He’s so good at hiding what he’s feels that I never known when he’s not joking except for the times he’s told me to stay away. He’ll flirt until I get flustered or at a loss for words then he’ll laugh and tell me to relax.  

“Chill I was just kidding get over here” he said with a chuckle flicking his head as a sign to come over to him.

Smiling I jumped up from my bed and ran into him wrapping me arms around his torso. He then wrapped his arms around me enveloping me in his warmth. I can stay in his arms forever.

“I was just think about you, I swear sometimes that you can sense when I need you” I whisper into chest knowing full well that he can hear me perfectly fine; he’s weird like that.

“That’s because you always need me just like I always need you” He whispers back to me into my hair.

“I wish that was true” I sigh knowing full well that he doesn’t feel the same way about me as I feel for him.

“Of course it’s true why wouldn’t it be” he ask pulling way slightly so he can see my face. His beautiful crystal blue eyes search my face for answers as his eyebrows bunch together questionly. I hate when he does this to me he knows I don’t like being put on the spot.

“Nothing nevermind forget what I said I didn’t mean it” I said pulling away completely from him walking to the other side of the room.

“No no no don’t do that you meant something by that and I want to know what” he said following me. He hates it when I do this making weird comments without explaining them.

“It’s nothing don’t worry about it you know say a lot of weird stuff I’m weird like that there’s a reason after all that I’m an outcast” I tried to reason hoping that he would just drop it.

“No that’s not it tell me the truth, what are you afraid to tell me? You shouldn’t be we’re as close as two people can be unless you don’t trust me. Is that it you don’t trust me cause I trust you with my life” he argued.

“That’s not entirely true there’s lots of things you haven’t told me and when I ask you about them you prefer not to talk about it” I argued remembering the countless of times I’ve asked him personal questions that he would block or ignore.

“That’s because I’m a closed off person it’s just who I am but your not like that so that means you just don’t trust me as much as you say you do” he said sounding a somewhat defeated but indifferent about the situation.

“It’s not that it’s just that; the way I feel about you, you don’t feel the same way about me” I said taking a deep breath looking at the floor the whole time.

“That depends how do you feel about me” he asked watching me closely. His intense gaze was making even more nervous than I already was.

“I um I think I’ve fallen for you. I’ve fallen for you hard and I know you told me to stay away from you but I can. And I know you don’t feel the same way about me but I can’t imagine not being around you or not having you in my life” I said sincerely looking at him. I was beyond nervous and scared at this point. I mean I basically just professed my love for this guy and his response will either be the make or break of me. I know that a boys response shouldn’t matter that much to me but for a girl who’s been invisible her whole life this can completely alter my self-esteem.

“I told you to stay away from me that I was dangerous” he said dangerously serious. My heart stopped waiting for the rejection I knew was next to come.

“It’s a good thing you never listen” with that he lunged at me kissing me with such a force that it made us stumble back knocking into my bedside table. His kiss was everything I ever hoped my first kiss would be. It was hot, passionate, and sensual. I had no idea what the hell I was doing but Rayne didn’t seem to mind he kept kissing me like there was no tomorrow. Our lips moved together like if they were made for each other. The taste of his lips I couldn’t get enough of them. I wanted more of him so much more than what he was giving me. He then pulled away from my lips and started trailing kisses down my jaw to my neck where he then started sucking and biting. The gentle sucks on my neck weren’t barely enough to quench the fire growing inside of me but it was enough to draw out loud moan from my lips.

At the sound of my moan Rayne pulled away from me so faster, faster than if I would have been on fire. Beyond confused by his sudden pull back I looked at him questionly trying to catch my breath. He looked at me with dark eyes breathing heavy.

“What’s going on, why did you stop” I asked not understanding what he was doing.

“We can’t do this” he said not looking at me.

“What why not? You like me and I like you and we clearly want this what’s the issue” I asked completely confused.

“Dammit I told you to stay way, I shouldn’t have kissed you” He said harshly now pacing back and forth.

My heart dropped the moment he said that. Did he regret kissing me? I don’t understand though he said it was a good thing I didn’t listen to him. What the hell is going on?!

“I think the best thing we can do is not see each other for awhile” he said looking at me with cold eyes.

“What, how can you say that after everything that’s happened” I asked close to tears.

“It’s better that way, it’s better if your not in my life”.

“Oh so was this some sort of sick game for you?! Build my hopes up with the chances of you liking me back, kiss me, than crush me! If you didn’t want me in your life why did you become my friend, why come around the way you do, why hurt me? What the hell was going through your head” I exclaimed letting the tears follow.

“I didn’t want to hurt you Kate! It wasn’t easy staying away from you! We we’re supposed to meet but when we did it felt like magic. You drove away the darkness that surrounds me and I was actually happy for once. When I kissed you i felt something I've never felt before and I knew that I couldn't let you into my world because if I did it would ruin you” he said pleading with me to understand.

“I don’t understand. What are you a drug dealer or something? Are you depressed cause if you are I can help you? I can help you get out of any tough situation you might be in” I tried to reason with him. If there’s some way I can help him instead of losing him I’ll do anything I have to.

“It’s nothing like that, you can’t help me I’m far from helping” he said looking away from me.

“I don’t understand” I said beyond confused at this point.

“I’m an Angel of Death, Kate” he said not looking at me straight in the eye.

“Rayne I’m trying to understand what’s going on with you this isn’t time to be joking around” I said annoyed.

“You don’t believe me” he asked with a slight smirk.

“Look Rayne-” I began as I started walking towards him but stopped dead in my tracks when a pair of wings suddenly sprung out from his back.

“Believe me now” he said seriously throwing me a sideways glance.