Hey! I know I've been absent for kind of a long time...

I've been dealing with a lot of stuff, and I kind of got to the point where writing at all just stressed me out, and roleplaying even more so. I don't know why I go through these periods where writing is so difficult to me, but they're horrible because I can sit at a keyboard and know what I want to say, but find myself unable to write it down.

I was always under a lot of stress this school year, primarily due to some family issues. My parents came really close to getting a divorce, including an episode where my dad walked out and I didn't see him for a week. My twin sister has also been in and out of inpatient facilities due to anxiety and suicidal behavior. Between that and just the regular stresses of junior year, I was struggling to handle things, and I shut down, which is why I also stopped for such a long time in the middle of the first Selection.

This summer has been different, primarily because I don't have anything to be stressed about, yet I'm still experiencing bouts of crippling anxiety where I can't catch my breath and just want to cry. I don't know why I'm so nervous, though I'm looking into getting some help. My family medical history, as well as my sudden, unprompted feelings of panic indicate that I probably need it. 

I'm not dumping this on you guys to make you worry. Please, please, please, don't think this is anything you need to worry about. I'm fine. I just really need you to understand that the reason I haven't been on for the past month has nothing to do with any of you (I love you guys!), and everything to do with me. I'm planning to be more active for the rest of the summer. I've come to realize that as difficult as it is for me to start writing, once I've started, the act of writing is actually really soothing and enjoyable. 

That said, I know that it is incredibly unfair of me to expect you guys to pick up and drop rps on the basis my own whims and emotional availability. The question I'm posing in writing this note is simply: Do you guys want to continue? Or would you rather I just delete the book? 

I'll understand either way, I just need a yes or no.

~RG