HOLY SHIT I HAVENT BEEN ON THE WRITING SIDE OF WATTPAD IN SO LONG.

I'm not really sure how I'm gonna say everything but here goes.

Firstly, the last time I wrote was in February. I said I was going to take a break from writing, to focus on myself, and then continue when I felt better.

Things didn't exactly work out in that way.

I did take a break, I gave myself time and I found out so many things about myself. I feel like a completely different person. I think I've definitely grown alot since then. I started a new hobby, painting/drawing, and it's been so much fun. I started focusing more on my own life, and figuring out things about myself.

I started thinking about my future seriously and I've found a path I'd like to follow. Unfortunately it's not writing.

Tbh I started writing more as something fun to do, and it was just that. I really had no expectations, or dreams, to follow through on that.

I said I would continue "When the snow starts falling" after my hiatus, but honestly I don't think I'm going to.

I truly am sorry about that. I didnt want to be an author who discontinues a book but I have reasons.

The first is that I've mostly fallen out of the fanfiction world. During my hiatus, I'd also mostly taken a break from wattpad. I barely read on wattpad this year. I'm also not on Ao3 so I've just not been in touch with fanfiction as much.

The second is that, since I've fallen out of the fanfiction world, I don't really want to write it anymore either. I don't exactly ship people as much as I used to either. Like I do genuinely enjoy some taekook here and there, or some yoonmin, or some yeonbin. But other than that I don't even really interact with ship's anymore.

I spent most of this year just being as happy as I can, and honestly it's so relieving. I actually found myself, and I don't feel useless that often anymore. I've learnt to take things in stride and just mostly go with the flow.

I met my online best friend for the first time this year too, earlier in March, and I also became even closer to my sister.

So much has changed and I actually don't really want to continue writing anymore, even as a hobby.

So that's why I finally built up the courage to download wattpad once more so I can say this.

I am really really sorry to the people who were waiting(specifically people from Loved) and I'm really sorry I couldn't keep my promise.

One final, unfortunate thing. Since I'm not going to continue writing anymore, I might be unpublishing both Loved and When the snow starts falling.

I wrote Loved when I was much younger, and tbh not alot of it makes sense. I'm not embarrassed about it, because it was an experience and I had so much fun writing it. However I don't know if I really want it out on the internet anymore. Idk, I'm still thinking about it.

That's all I have to say. Thank you so so much to the people who waited, and @__Sassyladybird (who I see has changed her username), I truly am so thankful that you stayed with me through my experience with writing. You were a great motivation. I haven't spoken to you in so long, and honestly I probably won't speak again for a really long time so I just wanted to mention the wonderful person who brightened my days.

I might(MIGHT) try out writing again(in the far FAR future), but for now I'm quite content with my life.

PS: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KOOKIE, AND ALSO MY BIRTHDAY IS 8 DAYS AFTER HIS AND 3 DAYS BEFORE NAMJOON'S SO THATS COOL. LETS GO SEPTEMBER BABIES!!!

Once again, thank you to everyone, and here's one last goodbye.

Love,
LilacLaia <3