Hey guys. I just wanted to quickly let y'all know that this chapter involves a lot of flashbacks/ memories so each time there is a different flashback or memory, I will be using this symbol *. Also, for a few of the memories, I may be including dates if they take place during a particular video but not all of them will include dates. Finally, this chapter will be a lot longer than usual, like 4 times the length (roughly 2000 words including this A/N). Anyways, enjoy

As Virgil began to tell Patton everything, memories started hitting him in the face, flooding his mind and with each word, it felt as if he was being drawn back into these memories.

Flashback

Virgil's POV

My eyes slowly opened as I looked around at my surroundings. This was all so new to me. I didn't know much about myself, except from the fact that I am part of this guy called Thomas's personality and I'm his anxiety. I have no idea how I know that but somehow I do. Glancing around at my surroundings, I noticed that the room I was in was dark and mysterious and had spider webs covering the walls. Suddenly, I heard muffled speaking from the other side of the door before it slowly creaked open and 3 guys, who all looked exactly the same, slowly entered. They must have also been aspects of Thomas's personality, or "sides" as I think he calls us.

One who looked like a cocky and arrogant prince glared at me before whispering to the guy next to him, who simply wore a black polo shirt and a neck tie, "So is this the new guy?" He wasn't the greatest at whispering because I could hear what he was saying.

"I believe so. I think he's Thomas's anxiety" the smartly dressed man replied.

"Ugh. Another nuisance then" The prince rolled his eyes and groaned.

"Hey! Don't be mean Roman!" The third man scolded him before approaching me and kneeling down next to me. This guy wore a grey cardigan wrapped around his shoulders and a light blue polo shirt. As soon as he smiled, I felt my heart flutter. "Hey kiddo!" He smiled brightly. "You must be new. Allow me to introduce everyone. I'm Patton, Thomas's morality. This is Logan, Thomas's logic" he pointed to the smartly dressed man, "and this is Roman, Thomas's creativity" He pointed to the prince. "What's your name?" He asked politely.

"Anxiety" I replied as I slowly edged away from him. I had major trust issues so although he seemed kind, I didn't trust him completely.

"No silly" He giggled. "I mean your real name"

"Not saying" I firmly crossed my arms. The truth was, I didn't actually know my name but I didn't want them thinking I was weird or anything.

"Oh okay. Feel free to tell us whenever you like! We'll leave you alone now to get used to your new room. Let me know if you need anything" With a warm smile still on his face, Patton quickly left, followed by Roman and Logan, gently shutting the door behind them.

Sighing, I flopped onto my bed. I could tell that Roman already hated me and that I wouldn't be well liked amongst Thomas and the others. Suddenly the door creaked open again and a new side approached me. This one seemed a lot different to the others and his appearance was slightly unsettling. Half of his face was covered in scales similar to those of a snake, he had a deep, violet scar across his cheek and one of his eyes was yellow. However, the other side of his face was completely normal.

"May I help you?" I asked, my arms still firmly crossed.

"You're the new guy right?" This guy asked me.

"Yeah. And you are..."

"Deceit" He bowed grandly, removing the bowler hat that rested in his head before fixing it back on.

"No I mean what's your real name?"

"Oh I don't have one. Names are reserved for the "light sides" and I'm not one of those. I'm a "dark side", at least that's what they like to call us"

"I'm Anxiety" I introduced myself. "I don't have a name either"

"You don't?" He asked and I shook my head. "Yes! At last, I have found another dark side. Welcome"

*

"Ew what are you doing here" Roman asked in disgust. Roman, Logan, Patton and I were all in the common room just chatting, well at least they were before I showed up. Now they were all staring at me in disgust.

"Roman, don't be mean" Patton nudged him. "I invited him here. Anxiety is part of our family too. We can't leave him out"

"Oh really? But he's a disorder! A freaking disorder! He stops Thomas from doing what he wants!He's a burden to us!" Roman yelled. He would constantly yell at me and hurl these insults at me. I hadn't even introduced myself to Thomas yet, although he knew I was there, and he already hated me. It wasn't just him though.

"I have to agree with Roman here. He causes many cognitive distortions for Thomas and that can be a pain to deal with. Plus, he is always very irrational" Logan added in his usual monotone voice.

"See! Life would be easier if you never exsisted!" Roman yelled, this time directly at me.

"Fine! I can tell when I'm not wanted!" I yelled before sinking into my room.

*

"Why do they all hate me?" I asked Deceit as we both sat on my bed and he fiddled with my hair.

"Because you're a dark side that's why. The light sides dispise us. They think we're "evil"" Deceit explained.

"But that's not true"

"Of course it's not. I often think that life would be easier if we were though"

"What do you mean?" I asked turning to face him.

"Well if we were evil then we could easily over power them" he smirked.

"Yeah but we're not" I sighed.

"So, what have they been saying to you?"

"How I'm a pain to deal with. A disorder. How they wish I never exsisted. Stuff like that. But there is one of them who cares"

"Who?" Deceit asked.

"Patton"

"No!" Deceit yelled as he stood to his feet. "Patton is the worst one of them! I've had to deal with him before so I should know. You can't trust him. You can't trust any if them"

"Who can I trust then?" I asked.

"Me" And with that, he pulled me into a passionate kiss and I returned it. I knew he actually cared about me. He was the only one I could trust.

*

19th September 2016 (Battling Anxiety)

Today was the day. The day I was finally going to reveal myself to Thomas.

"Now remember, don't show any emotion because that is a sign of weakness. Be as sarcastic and bitter as you can" Deceit reminded me.

"Don't worry, I will" I reassured him.

"Good luck" he pecked me on the cheek before I sunk down and prepared myself to meet my host for the first time.

Time skip

"So, how did it go?" Deceit asked as I appeared in his room after the video.

"About as well as I expected. He hates me already" I told him.

"Well don't worry about what he thinks because I love you"

"I love you too"

*

6th March 2017 (My Personality Q and A)

We were filming yet another stupid video except this one felt different. I actually felt liked for once and as if I was wanted and honestly, it felt amazing. And then there was Patton. He started making dad jokes and I couldn't help but feel my heart try to escape from my chest and fly to him. Butterflies were fluttering all around my stomach. As soon as he told one more joke, I couldn't help but laugh. That was when my hand was slapped over my mouth except I didn't do anything. I knew exactly what was happening. But I had to wait until the video was over to do anything about it.

Time skip

"Deceit! What the heck was that for?" I asked as I stormed into his room.

"Anxiety, you know you aren't one of them. I just had to remind you" He explained.

"But how did you know I was laughing?" I asked.

"I have eyes and ears everywhere. I also know of your "feelings" for one of them, Patton I believe"

"How did you-"

"Just remember, THEY ARE THE ENEMY!" He yelled, interrupting me. "Besides, you have me. Am I not enough for you"

"O-of course you are" I stuttered, mentally scolding myself.

"Never forget where you belong Anxiety"

*

10th July 2017 (Accepting Anxiety Part 1)

Virgil. That name hit me like a rock. But it wasn't any old name. It was my name. I was finally one of them! I was actually a light side. My dream had finally been fulfilled. The only problem was telling Deceit. I knew he would hate me but it had to be done. Besides, I was already going to talk to him today about our relationship which I didn't feel comfortable in any more. Taking in a deep breath, I sunk out if my room and into his.

"Deceit!" I called out as he sat on the edge of his bed. He quickly turned around.

"Yeah Anxiety"

"Can I talk to you?" I asked.

"Well you could but there's no point. I know what you are going to say. That you know your name now and how you don't want to be with me anymore. I get it"

"Y-you do?" I asked confused.

"Yep. But that doesn't mean I accept it" he smirked. "No matter what your name is, you never were and never will be a light side!"

"I am and always have been!" I yelled and he simply chuckled.

"Fine then. But I'll find a way to get you back"

"Oh really how?" I firmly crossed my arms.

"Look, I'll give you a choice. You can either stay with me or the others suffer"

"W-what?"

"You heard me! I will torture each and every one of them, especially Patton, unless you duck out and stay with me...forever. What will it be?" He smirked. My heart beat faster than ever before. I had no choice. I had to safe Patton.

"Fine" I sighed. "I'll leave them...forever" I gulped.

"Exactly what I thought. They won't even go looking for you. You aren't really one of them"

*

15th July 2017 (Accepting Anxiety Part 2)

Deceit was wrong. They did look for me. They did care about me. Whilst I was gone from the others, he fed me lies that I was useless and worthless and how they were better off without me but they were just that...lies.

I sat on the edge if my bed, looking at the card Patton made me and just smiling. Today was the day I would get rid of Deceit from my life once and for all. My feelings for Patton had only grown but my feelings for him had vanished completely.

"Deceit!" I yelled and he immediately appeared.

"What?!?" He snapped.

"You were wrong! They did get me back. They all know my name now. I am now a light side. I am no longer a dark side like you and never will be again! I'm through with your lies and you making me feel terrible! I'm done with you!" Saying that built up my confidence. I finally did it. After all this time, I finally stood up to him. However, all he did was slowly clap his hands together.

"Wow Anxiety. I'm soooo proud of you. You may have one this round but you've seen the last of me! I WILL get you back eventually and I WILL make you pay you traitor!" And with a flick of his wrist, he dissapeared in a puff of smoke.