WARNING- DARK STUFF IS COMING, BUT I DON'T WANNA SPOIL. 

ATTENTION- THIS IS A WARNING FOR THE WHOLE BOOK. JUST A HEADS UP. BE PREPARED, THERE WILL BE NO MORE WARNINGS. 

ANGIE'S POV 

We were all waiting on Alex and Eliza. Again. 

We finally see them after an extra 5-10 minutes. I was about to wave, when I saw that Alex and Eliza had mad faces. Eliza doesn't get mad. Well, that  mad.

"Hey, guys are you ok?" I asked

"No! We are not f*cking ok, Angelica!" Alex yelled. Eliza's face softened, and she looked like she was about to cry.

"Liza? Why are you-"

"No! You don't deserve to ask me how I feel, when it was all your fault! How could you lie to us?!" she screamed back

How could we lie to them? What does she-

Oh

Oh no

They figured it out. 

"Shit!" I mumble, but Eliza hears it

"Shit is right! You should feel like shit! You all are shit! Don't we deserve to know about...about..." she starts, but starts to tear up

"Eliza..." Peggy starts

"No! Don't talk to me! Peggy, Angelica, you are my sisters! Theo, you share the place of my best friend! And all of you! Your all my friends! Friends don't lie to each other! You are supposed to stay truthful to each other! I never hid anything this important and for this long from you!" she yelled back, growing red faced

"You lied to us! You never told us about your PTSD!" I yelled, and immediately regretted it, seeing there were people around.

"That didn't necessarily involve you! You-" Eliza shot back, but stopped as she processed her environment, noticing people were watching. They know now. They all know her secret.

Eliza gasped and looked around at people, breathing heavily, while Alex gave his 'worst nightmare'  a death glare.

"F*ck you Ange. F*ck all of you. Don't ever talk to me again" she said on the brink of tears, and ran off.

Alex walked closer to us.

"You all messed up big time. Do exactly what she said. Don't talk to her, don't come near her, don't touch her, nothing. You all are shits for what you just did to the poor girl. She suffers from that disease, that was not her fault, you all lied to her with a very important matter, and then told her secret to the whole school. She did nothing to deserve this. Congratulations. You finally broke her" he accused, and ran off to find his girlfriend.

The bell ran at that moment. We all looked at each other sadly, and walked off to our normal routines. 

I was walking down the hallway when Thomas came up from behind me

"Hey, babe. What's wrong" he asked me

"I think I just broke my little sister" I said, and cried in his arms.

ALEX'S POV

I was worried. Where the hell was she? I've been running for 10 minutes, and I still cant find her. I go to her dorm, and see the door is unlocked but the bathroom door was closed, and I can hear crying inside

"Eliza?" I ask. "Eliza, I'm coming in" I say, and open the door to see her back hunched over. I was about to say her name again, but I saw a glimpse of red...

I run up to her and see her holding her arms and crying, scratching and cutting them.

"SHIT! ELIZA STOP!" I yell, and grab her arms away from her, as she winces and cries harder. 

I grab two of the towels and put them over her arms to stop the bleeding. I wrap them and pull her into me, and she continues to cry and tries to scratch herself with her nails. 

"Eliza! Please, stop, your gonna hurt yourself more!" I choke out, and I pull her hands away from each other. She winces. 

"Shhhh. I know it hurts. I'm so sorry, but I don't want you to hurt yourself again." I say, trying to cradle her the best I could.

"NO! ALEX GIVE ME THE RAZOR! ALEX NOW! F*CKING GIVE IT TO ME!" she yelled, violently pushing past me to reach her razor.

"Eliza stop, please! Calm down!" I said, trying to push her back gently. But she doesn't.

"NO! F*CK OFF ALEXANDER! LET ME DIE!" she screamed finally grabbing the razor and trying to unwrap the towels.

That's when it hit me.

 She wasn't just trying to hurt herself.

 She was trying to kill  herself.

I froze, and when I realized she had the razor once again, I grabbed it out of her hand, scratching myself. I threw it across the room and wrapped the towels around her arms once again, trying to comfort her.

But she wasn't through.

She pulled herself out of my arms and stumbled to the kitchen. She went to one of the drawers and started to pull out something I couldn't see. Then she looked at me.

"Alex... I love you. But,  I just want this nightmare to end" she said, and pulled out a knife. I ran towards her and tried to get it out of her hands. 

"ELIZA NO PLEASE! YOU ALREADY HURT YOURSELF ENOUGH! WHY MORE?! WE ALL LOVE YOU, AND WE ALL WANT YOU TO BE SAFE! JUST PLEASE, PLEASE DON'T KILL YOURSELF. PLEASE!" I screamed, breaking down.

She tries to grab it back from me and we both cut ourselves more. I finally get it out of her reach and throw it far. Then I run in front of the rest of the cabinets so she can't get more. She tried to yank me away and get past me, but she was weak because of blood loss. I could tell. Then, she fell. She just fell. I dove down to see what was wrong. The sight scared me.

She was crying, hitting herself with her palms and fists and shaking. But she was paler than usual, and she had blood covered everywhere. I ran to grab more towels, and tried to stop the bleeding. I cradle her as best as I can, and whisper soft, encouraging things for her.

"Shhhh. Don't cry, Liza, I got you. Your safe now. Shhhhh" I whispered. 

Soon she started to calm down. 

"A-alex" she whispered

"Yes, Eliza?" I asked

"I love y-you. Thanks-s for helping m-me" she stuttered

"I love you too, Eliza. Your my everything. I would never let you go and hurt yourself" I responded, and kissed her.

"I don't f-feel good A-alex..." Eliza muttered before passing out

"Eliza? Eliza! I'm calling an ambulance, this is too much" I panicked, and did just that.

And like that night at the dance, it was chaos for me. 

(time skip bois)

I watch Eliza as she sleeps on the hospital bed. I can't believe I let this happen to her. She has a 80% chance of living, 20% chance of dying. I am grateful that she will probably live, but the part that hits me is that there is a percentage or her not making it. I know the 20% doesn't really mean anything, but it's there, which scares me.

I sit on the chair closest to her and hold her hand. That was the last thing I remember. 

I wake up to beeping noises and movement in my hand. I look to see Eliza waking up!

"Eliza! Calm down I'm here. Shhhh" I comforted, and called for a doctor.

About 30 mins to an hour later, Eliza and I are walking out of the hospital. 

"You ok, Liz?" I ask her

"I- I don't know... I just wanna go home" she responds, and I nod.

"Then lets do that" I say, and I call an uber to the campus. 

Eliza is staying in my dorm. John texted me in the hospital saying he is crashing with Herc. 

And I am not letting her out of my sight.

Heyyyyy

so, sry for the dark chapter, but I thought it was a good idea in the end so yah. also, sry I haven't posted in a while, I have a lot of hw recently. I hope u enjoy my books tho!